𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔

I have always love books and the idea of escaping this painful world feels peaceful and existing at the same time. Well maybe because my life is boring and all I do is to study. Well my mother is doctor and my father is a CEO. You'll think I have a great life, well not really... My parents doesn't like failure they hated that I was a girl not a boy, a failure. So, I did everything I could and study hard and make them proud but they never did. I starve myself to study, I never sleep for more than two hours so I can study and not waste time sleeping. But there's nothing, nothing that will make them see me, even if just as a person outside of being a failure. The sky is getting darker and the rain is about to come, I finished the one book that have been keeping me alive. I've been wanting to end it but I told myself I have to finish the book first. The book was nothing out of the ordinary it's about a girl just like me but unlike me she give her love to a man, her boss that heated her for it until just like me she ended it. Maybe, it isn't about the book that I was here for but maybe I was just like the book. We are both waiting for saving, to be seen by the person we love, be love to the point of saving even if it's not romantically. As the rain starts to pour I toss the book down the building seeing what falling in a fifteen feet building would looks like and then I step forward. Every step brings me closer to the edge of the building as I feel the tears burning in my eyes. I step... closer and closer.. Just one last step then the pain will be gone, I will be gone. All I felt is air then the pain and then gone, now I'm gone.