Forced to be with you [MxB] Mpreg

Chapter 20

"Stop! Stop! Stop saying that Ditro! I...I-I didn't mean to okay? I just wanted to die" Chae's voice cracks as he tries to explain.

Ditroníse gives him a look, "you didn't mean to? You knew you were pregnant when you drank those f*****g pills and slit your wrists!" counters.

"You killed my father! That's why I did it! And you didn't deserve him, how can you be a father to him when killed my own fath--"

"Oh f**k your punk ass father! Your father is the reason my mother is dead! He's the reason why my mother commited suicide!" Ditroníse snaps kicking his seat across the room startling Chae who has his mouth open by what Ditro just said. But how?

"What are you saying?, I-I don't get what you mean"

"You never asked yourself, why your mother left just like that? Not even taking you with him? And why your father never gave you a valid explanation, Huh?"

Chae shakes his head.

"Oh since you don't know then let explain a few things about the supposed 'Saint' that is your father. They had an affair, my father never had time for her and not even me, well, that is until I grew up and he thought he could control me, well big mistake on his part. My father was never home, your father and my mother met while in university and had a fling somewhat so when they met years later...they sort off rekindled whatever the f**k they had going on. They thought I didn't see or I didn't understand what was going on but I knew everything and somewhat hoped that he'd be the man my mother needed...she was happy, she smiled more, her face would light up whenever he called her. They f****d like bunnies in heat and your father promised my mother that they'd be together for ever, I remember when my mother told me that she was going to divorce my father, I had no qualms about it. Dad was a piece of s**t from the beginning..." Ditroníse suddenly clenched his fist turning his knuckles white as he took deep breaths to calm himself. "...when your mother found out about their affair....the fucker dropped my mother like hot potato and denied ever loving her saying that she was just a fling nothing more! I've never been so angry in my life.

"My mother cried for him obviously, the betrayal was too raw. The next day after school,I found her hanging in her room dead" Ditro sniffles angrily swiping a stray tear.

He turned to a still gaping Chae Sung.

"Your father was nothing but a sniveling piece s**t and you think his life meant something to me? Nah. You think bringing him up justifies killing our son? Hell No! You got the audacity to tell me that I didn't deserve my own child? Wow! Things would've been different had you told me about our children!"

"Ch-Children?" Chae stuttered.

"Yes the girl only remains, your gonna have to look at her and remember that you robbed her of her brother, her twin, someone who was gonna be beside her forever, you took away her brother just like your father took my mother from me, well isn't that ironic? f**k. Do you realise that he our son did nothing wrong? He hadn't even begun living and yet his life was snatched away by the one who was meant to nurture him? That's so messed up Chae, I get that your mind was clouded and you were in shock but I..ugh f**k!"

Ditroníse pulls his chair and sits down dropping his head on his arms.

Chae's eyes were flooded with tears, it was difficult to process everything at once, 'how could my father be so heartless? To break an already broken woman's heart?'

'It feels like I never knew you at all father'

He finally looks up, he can't wipe his tears because he's on suicide watch and he's restrained.

"I-I...I'm sorry about what my father did to your mother and I realise that it takes two to make a baby and I had no right in taking your choice away...I'm very sorry about and I'll live the rest of my life being reminded of that every time I look at our daughter..." Chae sniffles "..that will be my punishment.."

Ditro clears his throat, its dry and tight.

"Sung Nie wouldn't want that" says Ditro not moving from his position.

"Sung Nie?"

"Yeah our son, I named him that. It's a combination of our names, my mother Genevieve-Lèah Beaumont, she used to call me 'Niesi' " Ditroníse explains and tears up even more.

"I...I...I don't deserve that" he croaks.

"Nah, you do. I'm still angry about him but I feel like you loved him I don't know, but what I know is that you didn't hate him.I wish you would've told me Jimin, I swear I would've changed, I would've never touched you again without your permission or did anything you didn't want anymore, I..I really wish you would've told me..."

"W-Would you still change for this one?" Chae asked

"Yeah, I'm doing that already, I've been meeting a life coach type of shrink at the gym to help me with my anger problems, I would be there when I wasn't here, so yeah. I'm trying to change things about but I can't change what I am or who I am but I'm trying."

"Oh? Okay, I guess that's good. So wouldn't you be more possessive and obsessed had I told you?"

Ditroníse sits up straight and scratches the back of his head awkwardly. "I-I uh..shit, I guess I would've..but I would'nt have touched you" he turns to face Chae.

But Chae is not surprised.

"You realize that you have to work on that too, right?"

"Yes, I do"

Chae sighs." I'm really sorry about my father a-and Sung Nie"

"Don't worry about that, he paid his dues" Ditro replies nonchalantly. "But Sung Nie is another matter, I get that you don't want me around you, right?" Chae shakes his head to say no. He doesn't want to be sent to the psych ward.

"Don't lie to me, I know you already and no...I'm not gonna send you there. But we are not going to live in the same house, unless you want the state to intervene, but worry not coz I won't touch you, talk you or disturb in any kind of way, but you're going to have a live in care giver, a bodyguard forever and a shrink three days a week until you're fit to be a mother."

"I'm gonna try my best to be a good mother to our daughter, Ditro. That's all I can promise you"

"And that's all I need, all our daughter needs, to be loved infinitely by her parents. Something we both lacked.You were loved by your father but not by mother. I was loved by my mother but not my father....it's time we break the chain, end the cycle."

"Yeah, I can do that, but we have a long way ahead of us" Chae whispers

Ditro nods. "Yeah I know, even though we can't be together...it's fine as long as our daughter is fine and maybe one day you can forgive me for what I've done to you"

"Yeah, maybe" Chaenods "..can you get them to take this out please?" Chae gestured to the restraints.

"Uhm yeah, I'll go get my doctor's"

Chae breaks down crying as soon as Ditroníse closes the door.

"Oh Sung Nie"