Deep tenderness

only if ignoring love was easy?

The next day came by, I didn't want to go to school, neither wanted to talk to my parents. But, going to school was better than being my drunken dad make my mom suffer. I walk into my classroom and see Aria ignoring, guess the game is just starting. I walk towards my seat, trying o ignore her too. She didn't even care to look at me for once, was it already over before it even started? There was a rage in me too, I was a human too. I felt my emotions like Aria did too and I totally didn't deserve it anymore. No, not today Im not going to hurt me into this ungrateful relationship, Instead i'd really be happy dating Mac himself. The classes were going on and I still have this feeling that someone was staring at me, I look behind and I cath aria looking at me. I smile and try to be good towards her.

She continues to ignore and just act like everything is fine, guess she really wants to do more of me so bad. I was just so helpless at this moment it starts to hurt me a little, but I was alright until I could at least see her in front of my eyes. What made this feeling even worse was when I looked at her smile, she knew that I loved when she smiled. She knew that me loving someone was rare, and she knew I was missing her. Hope she really understood that I was trying to get better in all the ways, No matter what our relationship goes through I want still be her woman. I want to be that one person she thinks of and smiles and that one person she is going to cherish beautiful memories with.

I wanted to backspace all those memories, not wanting to remember those memories we made last day. How was she so addicting? How was she still that one person I look onto to smile, one last time? What was this feeling? How was this called love? I ignore her and go back to my home, it was really hard for me to feel alone. I had no one to talk with about how was my day today, it felt lonely. She was all I had, I was going through a mental crisis because she really ignored me? I don't know, i felt like crying. I went back home, a little bit sadder than I was than last night. I laid on my bed and stared at the ceiling, maybe I was thinking about all this too much, maybe she didn't really love me for who I was. I had a hundred thoughts and 99 were about her.

While I continued to contemplate more, Ron comes to my room to remind me that I have a therapy session. I get ready and go to her, I have lots to tell her today. I walk into the room and sit right beside her table, she finds me happy and also sad for some reason. "So, how have you been?" she asks with a concerned face. I tell her all my story and things that happened with aria. She smiles and questions me saying, "You know what ray? Aria loves you a lot, she is just keeping you a little away because of the incident caused by your family last night. She's just scared and it's totally okay to be scared sometimes you know? Can a little just bear baby walk as soon as he's the age of three or four months? No, right? Just give her some space and time she will come back to you. Tell me about you, how have you been doing?" she explained to me giving me some strength. I felt better after I had my session. She taught me some breathing techniques and I really started feeling better and it helped me keep myself clean.

I got back home with a feeling of hope and happiness, it really was helping me feel great. It was impossible to get aria off my mind, she was really important to me. I get back into my room and she aria hiding behind the sheets. I smile so hard and lock the door, She smiles back and hugs me. I kiss her forehead and she looks into my eyes and says, "Every star out there is less shiny than your eyes are, you look so beautiful." I blush with her compliments and ask her with a cute face, "Why did you leave me alone today? I missed you so much." She pouts back and gently holds my hands, "don't you think I missed you too? I missed your touch, your feel, and everything related to you. Last night It felt scary to stay at your place, your dad, mom, and everything. It felt uncomfortable so I had to leave. Im sorry I will never leave again." she apologized. I smile so bright again, it felt like the roses were blooming again, the pretty flower was coming into a beautiful pink petaled rose.

It felt so nice to be around her, it felt like she got super power. I can neer keep something from aria letting know. Nobody ever loved me as aria did. I felt like I was in a beautiful painting full of pretty flowers and a sweet fragrance. She smiles warmly placing me on her chest. I felt so comfortable around her. We cuddled for a while and talked a lot. It felt so nice to listen to her voice after a whole tiring day. As always, I wanted to be happy when I was around her. She was prettier than my hometown Hawaii was, she was my beautiful scenery. She gently pats my hair and says, "Only if ignoring you was easy? It was so hard for me not to see my beautiful little girl. You look too pretty when you're in school, stop letting everybody see you that beautiful, we all are going to go blind." Anywhere with aria feels right, she was always my little warm sun rays when it rained harder.