Deep tenderness

My flower was budding but, it was raining

She gently pats my hair and says, "Only if ignoring you was easy? It was so hard for me not to see my beautiful little girl. You look too pretty when you're in school, stop letting everybody see you that beautiful, we all are going to go blind." Anywhere with aria feels right, she was always my little warm sun rays when it rained harder. I looked at her in bliss, she made me so happy. I didn't know what this feeling was, but it really made me so happy. She was like a beautiful paradise, I couldn't stop myself from aria. What do I say when she literally was the one who gave me so much comfort, She felt like she was near but not near. I couldn't express this emotion of love. She hid like a cute child and smiled even when everything was hurting. But I always forgot that she can't read my mind, she doesn't even realize how much she means to me.

After almost two hours of us cuddling and talking together, Aria left back to her home from the window and gave me my goodnight kisses. I slept back in silence and smiled to myself after all that happened. And, going to therapy really helped me at this point. It felt like I was in love, finally. She was really someone I have to protect and keep safe. I looked towards the window and find a pretty moon looking into my room. I smiled looking at the moon, I was so happy that I started dancing around my room. All her memories flashed, her pretty skin and that one smile she gives when she compliments me, she was really so precious to me. Just like the moon, I remember Aria and her lips. I walk into the hall and dance around the hall. My mom and dad smiled looking at me as being so happy.

Even though she was there for only a while it made me really happy thinking she wanted us to continue this relationship of being lovers. I sit smiling in the dining hall for some good food, and there was my dad, "What's with you being so happy today?" he asks smiling back. I stopped smiling and replied, "It's just that I completed my project sooner than other kids, so I was so happy because of that." He nodded and we had good food my mom cooked for us. I went back to my room and lay on my bed, I feel her scent spread across my room it felt so pleasant. I close my eyes thinking of how much happiness she was giving in my life, even though her family was restricting and different from everything compared to the culture she was giving herself in for a relationship.

The next day I wake up thinking of her again, I get ready as fast as possible and get to my high school. I wanted to act normal just like she did. But, to my surprise today, aria comes towards me as soon as I enter class. She holds my hand and guides me to my seat. She asks me how my day was, and smiles a lot. I was overwhelmed at this point, she gave me so much love and I didn't know, I was helpless to know how to give it back to her. The classes went on, Aria kept staring at me. It was happy but also new for me to see this happening. I was excited, but also scared at the same time about what the society has to think about this, or what the judgemental eyes of a person might say? During the lunch break, I walk into the cafeteria and sit around the same gang of mac and his friends. But today, Aria also joins me to eat together.

I felt like damn she really be giving me butterflies, she was wantingly doing this. I smiled at her and she smiled back, meanwhile "our" boyfriend mac started to give us both a weird look. Because aria started to feed me, ad I starting to blush so much. After the lunch break, I had to rush back home for therapy, While I continued to rush to my home Mac calls me. I wished he would not ask me on a date again, because it was so awkward to go out with him. I didn't answer the call and went back to my home. I got ready for therapy and was a little happy for another session, I really didn't know why but my point of view on everything started to change, it felt new. The therapist asks me a lot of questions and we sit talking about it, while my mind couldn't stop thinking about Aria. She asks in between the conversation, "What's with you smiling a lot today?" I smile again and reply back saying, "It's because aria is really giving in so much to our relationship."

The therapist smiles back and replies, "That is beautiful and I am so glad that she is giving in, hope everything will get better." I was happy to listen to it from her. I get back home laughing around, and waiting for Aria to come home. The calm sound of thunder was like a sign that it was going to rain soon. I was excited, just like nature represented me. I sit in my room and stare at the little flower pot on my balcony. I smile looking at its bud, it was so tiny but very tender. I wanted to be treated like that flower, soft and tender. A sudden flash of lightning burnt my flower pot, I gasped in shock. I hear yelling from the hall because my dad was drunk again. It felt like my flower was budding but it was raining. I locked my window because I didn't want my flower Aria to get inside this rain and so much pain. She was soft and tender.