THE REAL ME, THAT GOD SEES; COMPITE WITH THE SPIRITUAL ME, FOR GOD LOVES ME AND ALWAYS CALLS FOR ME EVERYDAY Theme: Girl revenge

Most of the questions start running in Diana's thoughts, everytime she is alone. Question like why did she get in this relationship to start with?. Diana felt like there was no mutual support in this relationship as Dan seemed liked a burden or an increment to her issues. Diana started dating Dan when she was 18 years, when they were at their final year in Gracious high school. Those were the days for them, their love was on fire but the fire needs more woods to stay lit. Diana got on this relationship just to prove to her family that she is not a homosexual. Little did she know, she opened a door that caused more challengings and sorrows. Being a girl that lost her parents at a young age and thrown from one side to the other. She crave for love always from her sister's and brother's and attention, so whatever grasped their attention she did it again and again. One thing she realized as she was growing was if you don't have money, you are a nobody in this family. They loved money more than each other, so she decided to excel in her academic life to hold a better position in love. Being a lastborn and not having parents is just one other wake up call. She had to stop all the lastborn acts when in primary school, had to call her big sister mom to close the gap but something was missing. After watching how complicated her sister's relationships were she decided not to date any guy in Africa but opt for Asian. Who wouldn't want to go to korea after all those handsome oppas. Her dream was to get married abroad but this was shattered due to dating Dan. Once you have a boyfriend, you become limited and enclosed to him. She saw her future with him, their marriage and children but he was just there for s*x and more on to another girl. There is a saying that says if you partner cheats on you, have to move out for the new patner has been found. One other thing is a cheat is always a cheat. Dan stayed with Diana for two good years in a relationship because she was a virgin and was against premarital s*x. After two years of being together, he started pressuring her to keep him for herself she had to indulge in an intercourse. As he said that's what keeps a man, being lost of hope she gave her self to him. But did he stay?, NO! he literally abused her sexually daily, also cheated on her several times and let himself be caught and lied to her face time and again. She could let go, as she was told I love you, I was wrong and I am sorry. Huh, darling staying with a guy thinking he will change, is a waste of time cause they don't. The guy abused her emotionally, he went to an extent to depending on her financial but with his money he goes to his other girls. When she tries to speak, like reduce your movement they are not pleasant, he said he's got parents. Wow, this guy could make the girl a door mat, as if it wasn't enough she got pregnant and he said he was not ready to be a dad. So as she was still in school, and doesn't have parents to take care of the child she decided to abort but illegal. She had to endure all the pains alone when the guy was sleeping next to her and even complained to his friend Joe who helped the girlfriend with the abortion. He said, he can't have s*x the way he used to because the girl is still and always bleeding. Is that all you can think about, when you girlfriend is fighting for her life. By the grace of God the girl survived and was cured but the guy made her have an unprotected s*x again. As he said it's been long and he was way to thirsty to wear a protection. After some months, she was pregnant, yeah I know u will find her to be a bit foolish. That's what I thought, girl why are you living as if you are in prison, don't you have a say?. I usually wish I could shout out my lungs to her, there are more doors in life that are waiting for you and full of opportunity. All you had to do is open your eyes, love yourself, value and speak yourself is the message I preach to all the girls this days. Yes, abortion again, haha, why do you have s*x when you know the results of it and you don't need those. Loyality and the need of love and the determination to have s*x with one guy kept her in this death bed. We were about to attend her funeral soon, but she tried to escape this trouble but landed on another. The lesson she got was, never end a relationship with another cause it never works. When Diana decided to cut ends with Dan, she said she doesn't cheat on Dan just like he did to her. She drunk poison herself and expected it to kill Dan, haha I thought it was a joke. Dan ignored her thinking she wouldn't go but she went to Patrick. The new boyfriend seemed to love her, care and understand her but that wasn't what he was. He was just a guy in need of something. This guy was shorter than her, had a baby and full of himself. He convinced her that he was the one for her but filling up the gap and covering the wounds caused by Dan. The guy had a smooth tongue, so all he said was a comfort to Diana. They went on dating for about a year and the guy started asking for her all. The girl tried to be a bit careful this time, no s*x till I can fully trust you. The guy started saying he is all hers but is hungry for a woman, he fears that if he can't wait any longer. She delayed as she decided to let him know about all her abortions and she felt having s*x is a commitment not to be broken. While Patrick didn't cheat, was always with her, even on holidays and accepted her even after telling him about her past. She felt like she found the one but no way he was sure not to be caught while cheating until he got what he wanted. Then one day, a 21 year old Diana was relaxed at her mothers place waiting for Patrick to come home from work. Patrick was renting a room at a place several blocks away from Diana's place. She was given the room key to go clean and cook, he said that was a sign that she is the one, the own of the house. Diana felt secured and sure she was the wife, she invested in this guys life as it was there future, bought him clothes and but house furniture, decorating their room, haha little did she know.