footprints of a rockstar

May 1st 1985 and then in nanimo BC Norwegian family brought home baby girl at 6 lb unfortunately the mother remarried due to hardships with losing the love of her life and the person that she began to see took her children away from her me being one of them growing up as someone who is adopted and not knowing my whole entire life has been a rocky one that you can say for sure all around me I've always had people who pretend to care but deep down inside they don't want me around they hate me constantly being yelled at by people who you think you're your friends but they treat you like children or something lower like scum off the bottom of your shoe most of my life I've been treated badly to the point of at the age of five I knew I was adopted things weren't right not with the family I was with I couldn't bond with them I just didn't matter how good I was I was always bad like I just had nothing in common with the people who claim to be my parents and by the age of five I used to scream out I'm adopted and you're not my parents they took me to doctors and had me tested the doctor said that there was nothing wrong with me I was just a normal healthy little girl then the s****l abuse started to happen the beating started to happen the bruises started to show that anger in me just kept growing and growing and growing and growing it didn't matter what you said to me or what you did to me the cut would had already happened and the scar was already deep so as I got older I started to wonder if I truly was adopted or not eventually the people who adopted me one committed suicide and later on in life the other one did as well but the only thoughts as an adult I have now or how could they lie to me my whole entire life and not telling me the truth that I was adopted when I was 6 months old and I have two names name I was raised with in the name I was born with and it has my birth certificate so is someone who is almost 37 years old this is very confusing to me why they can tell me the truth I've had so many bad things happen to me in life and one of the things that I had happened to me in life is so dark it's so terrible it's so scary and this part in my life I was about just turned 36 you know I have lots of friends had lots of parties I won't be ashamed of this we did drugs and you know had fun did things young people normally do and sometimes I leave the door unlocked sometimes I'll lock it I had full security in my house to make sure that I was safe at all times all this one time came along and I got drunk and I got beaten and I got r***d and I got stabbed I got through that barely but I've had so many bad things happen to me and it's terrible as those things are the beautiful piece of this it is turned me into a stronger person strong enough to be able to fight back