Fallen in Love with My Twin - Redemption

Episode 4 - Back Together

IDRIS

I climbed the stairs to my room, I don’t want to answer all the questions my father or mother or anyone in my family fires at me. The last five hours are another disaster in my life. I lied on my back on my bed, not caring to change the loafers or the dress. I look at my tattoo on my left hand, below my wrist, above my forearm, never-ending infinity. The Celtic symbol for inner strength, which I lost now with Jack, Jack was my inner strength, He is and he will always be. The tattoo is the remainder of him. 

After what seems like a half-hour, Adam walked into my room. “Where were you?” He asks. 

I tried to hold my voice steady before I talked, “I went to my friend’s. Why?” I ask.

He walked to my bed and sat on the foot, “Jack called me and was asking about your whereabouts, Didn’t you go to the airport to receive him?” He asks. 

I took a long breath, “I was, And… “ I don’t know what to say to Adam. 

He pats on my shin. “It’s okay.” He assures me and hugs me, “It’s okay, Idris. Whatever happened you have us, you have always me” He says. 

I nod and let the tear fall, “Thank you Adam” I say pulling back. 

“I came to sleep here. My room was given to Jack’s new friends.” He says. 

“Oh,” I say. 

“You met them? Do you know them?” He asks.

I shook my head, “No, I don’t.”  I say. Moved to the left side of the bed giving him space to sleep.

“Have you at least eat something?” Adam asks. 

I cleared my throat, “Yeah” I say. 

He turned on his side, “Idris, It’s not your fault. It’s better you broke up with him. Everything will be alright, Give some time for yourself to heal yourself and your heart.” He says squeezing my hand. 

I don’t want to hear him anymore or explain the things between me and Jack and I don’t want to answer all the questions he may ask when I say what had happened in the past few hours. I nod, “I’m sleepy. I will be alright when I wake up” I say turn to my left side and pretend to sleep.

JACK

“I’m sorry, We have caused you a lot of problems,” Ginny says, 

I sip the beer, “Yeah, you did. And If it is not Alex, I would be..” I was cut off by her. 

She looks guilty, Marcel is not even talking after he knew he is the starting point for all the problems. “I know, We were childish. We know how important today is yet I played with you.” She admits. 

Marcel moves to sit next to me, “It was my fault. I was so mad and said things I didn’t mean. She just fueled me with jealousy which worked out well for us but not you..” He says uncomfortably. Alex and Ginny were the first friends I had in New York. They were there for me when I was devastating, I can’t just ignore them when they were fighting for silly things and broke up and I never had imagined that it would ruin my day and my love. 

“It’s fine,” I say, they both look unsure. “It’s not fine, but I will make it fine. She is Idris, She knows me and she loves me more than anything.” I say. I hope Idris will give me a  chance, she loves me more, all the time she was pushing me out but I know in my heartbeat she loves me and she wanted to know she truly loves. She was confused with a lot of things and so adamant to let me know and help her. She wanted to do it alone, as much as it pained me but I let her do so. I know how strong she is, and I never doubted her love for me. 

“We’re sorry. Really.” Marcel says again. 

I stood up, “I’m not helping you with making you jealous anymore,” I said sternly to Ginny and left them in Adam’s room. 

I walked to Idris room, I can sleep on the couch but I don’t want to. At least I can sleep in the same room as her after ten months. I opened the door, I saw Idris lying on her side unexpectedly on the left side of the bed and Adam sleeping on the right side. I changed into shorts and left my white shirt and jeans on the rolling chair. Idris is not asleep, I feel her eyes on me when I change. I know she is sad and in guilt for what had happened when it is my fault.  I walked to her, her eyes are closed and she pretends to sleep. I leaned to kiss her forehead, “I love you Idris more than anyone ever could have. Nothing can change it. No one can ever change my feeling for you” I vowed, clearing her hairs on her forehead. She doesn’t open her eyes and stays the same. I pulled the blankets and quilt to make a bed for me on the floor right next to her. Once I settled on my makeshift bed, I stared at the ceiling, Idris opened her eyes to see me and closed it before I could get her caught. But I saw her more than twice in my peripheral vision. She is not lying on her side anymore, She sighs and sits up, I watched her stand and walked to the door, My heart skipped at the sight of she left me because I’m staying here in her room with her but her next action put my life back into my body. She took my worn white shirt and sniffed it and slipped into the bathroom. I noticed she slept in her dress with a denim jacket. After five minutes, Idris walked out just in my white shirt which came to her mid-thigh. Even in the moonlight, I can see her perfect face, which is dull because of me. She pulled her hair to make a high bun and she walked towards her bed, towards me. She stands at my foot, the two dark brown cinnamon eyes piercing me before she looks away. I closed my eyes, What the hell I did? I proved I was telling the truth, but the pain I caused her still stays. I felt a weight next me makes me jump, I opened my eyes to see Idris next to me. 

Her eyes are filled with tears, “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.” She says. The moonlight shines on her face, making her look prettier but not the tears. I wiped the tears.

I turned to face her, “It’s okay.” I say. But she is still not convinced, she is immersed in the guilt of believing Jessica over me. 

She buried her face in my chest, “I’m sorry. I should have trusted you” She cries very slowly, her words left her mouth barely. I have imagined this day in various ways but this is not the one how it is supposed to be. 

I lift her chin, “Baby girl, It’s okay. Tell me you love me” I demand. I know she loves me but I wanted to hear it from her, I’m desperate to hear it from her after ten months. 

She takes my lips in hers, “I love you, Jack, I love you more than you can ever know.” She says brushing my lips with hers. I feel relieved, there are a lot of things around us that try to separate us but I will never give up on her, She is mine, only mine. All my love is hers, I’m utterly hers. 

I pulled her closer, I missed her warmth skin, her chocolate perfume, and vanilla flavoured hair spray. She sniffs on my neck, “Do I stink?” I ask. 

She giggles, “No, I missed you a lot. I missed how you smell, how I feel when I’m with you” She says, her eyes are shining with love and happiness. “And I’m finally home.” She says scooting closer to me.

“I’m finally home too,” I say. She is my home. No matter when I’m away or closer, she is the one who can make me feel everything. 

She lifts her head, “I’m sorry Jack. Really am” She pleads. I know, I was hurt when she didn’t trust me that she chose Jessica’s words and she believed what she saw and not gave a chance to explain myself. But I don’t want her to hurt more by saying it. If any of us will be hurt let it be me rather than her. 

I stroke her hair, “It’s okay, Luv. Whatever happened, it’s done.” I say, touching her lips.  

“I..” She starts but I cut her off by kissing her. I hate that Adam is sleeping here. 

“I love you, Jack,” She says. 

“I love you more, Baby girl,” I say for each kiss. After we both are breathless, Idris laid her head on my chest listening to my heartbeat. 

“Does it feel the same?” I whisper in her ear. 

She chuckles, shakes her head, “No” She mouths and lifts her chin to look at me. I c**k my eyebrows at her, “It beats faster than I remember.” She says near my lips. I was scared that I lost her but when she took my shirt and lied next to me, I know she forgave me. 

“Forgive me,” She says, 

For what? I thought, “What are you talking about?” I ask. 

She shifts uncomfortably, “For everything that had happened today,” She says with a voice of guilt. 

I took her hands and kissed each of her fingertips, “Then, Forgive me first. For letting someone on my back and let her play with my hair, flirting with someone in front of you, kissing her..” Idris put her fingers on my lips. 

“Stop, I don’t want to hear anything. It’s so terrible. I behaved terribly,” said Idris. 

I shook my head, “No” I kissed her forehead, “You aren’t. It was my fault. Don’t blame it on yourself. I should have acted rationally” I admit. 

She sighs, “Okay. It’s nobody's fault. We can blame it on Halloween. It cast some spell on both of us to act impulsive, irrational”  She says, making me laugh, which I lost for months. 

“I missed it,” I say, circling her cheeks. She moved down to kiss my Adam's apple, making me suck in a breath, I had to suppress my moan when I had my little brother on the bed. “I missed it too,” She says. She laid on me, within a few minutes, her breath was normal and she fell asleep. After ten months, I’m gonna sleep peacefully, holding my girl in my arms. I kissed the top of the head and tried to sleep.