Rose And The Other World

The wonderful surprise

My thoughts on disorder , felling out of the world , i am getting tired , sleepy , i can't close my peepers , get a little rest of everything is going on or everyone who is around me !

Right now , for the first time i don't want to be alone , i like being with someone who stay with me and hear me without talking but it is so hard to find what i ask about !

Sara seemed not as normal , she became so busy , i see her everyday and i am sure of what i think !

She kept using her phone all day long , calling and texting , sending messages to somebody that i don't know ! but her face appeared joyful while doing all this things so i don't have to worry about her anymore , i know that she is strong and even stronger than me to deal with problems herself !!

I was on the kitchen , taking a place on a good chair , eating some donuts .

It is not one donut but various of them , when i am nervous and stressed , angry or confused , i eat a lot !

Sara came to me , she was prepared and ready to tell me something important but my mind was on another planet !

She said with happiness that i can't explain it :

- hey , guess what ? i met a new guy !

- Oh really ?( acting like i am interested )

- Yes he is attractive ....i like him .., he is so nice to me , we met on that unforgettable party but he is not like the others , he is good and sweet !!

- Ah ok ( smilling without reason )

- we are close to eatch other now and we hang out sometimes !!

- oh good

- You don't seam so excited? Why ?

I wasn't hearing at what she said so i stood quiet without making any movement .

She asked me with anger :

- Are you evem listening to me ?

- heu yes of course!....Sara can we talk later ? I am so tired , i didn't sleep last night !

- Yes ok but let me remind you Rose , i was always here for you , listening to your stories , helping you when you need anything and giving you my opinions about everything ........but when it comes to me , you don't have the time to listen , all i am saying doesn't concern you !!

- no wait please ! , don't go !!

She left me and go to her training for swimming !

I couldn't stop her from leaving , she was so furious!

That is so frustrating , i keep driving people away from me ! I make them hate me and avoid talking to me ! !

It is not by purpose ! , it is not my desire to be alone but i do things that makes them regret being with me .

I can't deal with it right now , i need some rest , i want to not think about this for a while .

The couch is the closest furniture that i can seat on so i went their , prepared the blankit and the suave pillow then fall asleep because i was exhausted !

I was planning to stay there for so long , i don't have nothing to do or someone to go with , i don't have friends anymore , they all ditched me !

I give them the right , i don't blame them , i am a boring girl and lazy , i would rather not be on public , i don't go to parties !!

Maggie and Fred are all the time at work , there is some days they will get to be free at least !

In conclusion , i am the only one on this empty place !

An hour later , someone knocked the door , who is coming ?! , everyone on this family isn't going to be here until 6 pm .

I am not getting out of the couch , i want to sleep !

After a minute , someone knocked the door for the second time , i considered my thoughts, maybe it is something essential !

I stood up slowly and went to open , on my surprise i found Josef in front of me , looking at me with his charming eyes , carrying on his hand beautiful pink flowers , it is my favorite color and i love flowers !!

He seamed to know me well !!

He said with a small voice :

- Hi Rose , how are you doing ? Can i come in !

I didn't say nothing , i was still surprised by his arrival !

I am not ready to talk with him , i don't know what to say ! Or how to show up with this clothes and this appearance ! I was in a miserable situation from sleeping ! , still wearing my pijamas and my confy tiny sleepers . My hair was terribly done !

Then , i finally spook :

- Yes of course ! Enter !

- That is for you ! ( giving me my gift )

- Thanks that is so kind of you !!

I putted it on the table and joined him in the couch .

We were silent for 3 minutes then he added :

- I came here to talk with you and settle all our arguments !

- ok i would like to !

- I want to apologize , i shouldn't of yell at you like this and around the students , i regret it !

- That is ok , you have the right to react like this !

- No i don't , Rose i have known you so long , i should of listen to you , understand you after what you have been through ! I am sorry !

- I know......i really know .... but i was demoralized and hurted by your words ..... you didn't give me the time to explain to you !!.....i don't deserve all this !

- I am now aware ! , Sara told me everything Between you and Amy !

- really ?!! ( *astonished * )

- Yes , she did

- I miss you Josef ! I am so happy that you came , don't leave me again !

- I miss you too darling !! Come here ! ( he putted my head on his shoulder nicely )

Small tears falling from my eyes , it is not because i am sad , it is the pleasure and the satisfaction !

We ate what was on the fridge and the rest of the plate , chatting all the afternoon , catching up many things that happened and we didn't have the opportunity to talk about it !