Rose And The Other World

The best forgiveness

Stuck on this place , covered with photos and poster , full of books and furnitures , alone , i don't know what i am doing .

I fell bored and lonely , i can't describe my felling for no one , no one believe me , they don't understand .

They see the outside not the inside !

My only refuge is to read some stories to make me forget about what is happening on my life !

No metter how mush i read , every moment that were mentioned on the book relate to me and it has something to do with all the events , it was like a sign or a code .

Every word has significant and impact on me .

That does not annoy me , i don't get bored when i read , i like reading books , you can even say that i am hooked !

I want to imagine things , to discover another univer that is far from the reality !

My dad has been so supportive , he always tell me a story when i was a little , it was before i get to bed .

He encouraged me to read a lot and he was saying to me that if i didn't like any of this books i have the possibility to write my own story and reveal all my emotions and desires !

It really helped me , his advise was the key of my resilience .

I couldn't get off my eyes from the white pages of the book but then suddenly i lost my concentration and my interest !

Someone knocked the door , Maggie wants to talk to me about something essential.

I don't like being around people this period , i really need to be alone and get some time to recover from the accident .

I couldn't refuse , she is already so mad at me , it is the least that i can do , obeying !

She seat to my bed , she was so close to me .

Maggie appeared not so happy , she is not the cheerful pearson of all the time .

She spook to me with regret i don't know what she is going to say .

Does she want to blame me and talk about the same subject ?

I don't want to talk about it again , this is not the right time , i am still sad and depressed !

- Listen Rose whether you are guilty or innocent ! , i don't have the right to yell at you like that .... i am soory ...

When i saw the picture , i couldn't stop myself of getting angry !

I want you to know that if something bad happens to you come straight and tell me the truth , i will be more comprehensive !

When i heard her saying this nice speech , i became relieved and glad to gain her trust again .

I was blessed with her words therefore i put my hand on her leg to show her how mush i appreciate her help and support and said with joy :

- Maggie , i am so happy that we are friends again .....i promise you i won't embarrass you or do something to fail you or put you in a bad situation such this !

- For the records i am not going to tell your father , i will give you a chance to settle all your problems and think of what you did !

- I am so thankful !

We stayed for minutes starring at eatch others , smilling , seating together .

She added with earnest and wisdom :

- Sometimes dear we have to see someone , who can help us with the time and teach us how to control and manage any kind of fellings .....don't you think you took a quick decision about leaving your therapist and being sure thar you became mush better ?

I thought about what she said , i was hesitated and confused ! I don't rather be on the same place on the same time , talking about my life .

It is not good i know , i need to return there , i need to get some help and be healed so i responded :

- Yes ... you are right !

Maggie left the room , it was a great discussion but it took so long , it is to late , i have to get to sleep but before i must write on my diary !

I took my pencil , printed on the page , i had no idea what i am going to write then i got back my capacity and skills

"Seating alone , waiting for pity , i have nothing to do , nothing to add , i apologized many times and no one beleive me , but now something changed , people release , that i have nothing to do with that , it is not my fault .............."

All my thoughts were focussing on my written , i didn't fell her arrival , i didn't fell her presence or her existence .

She showed up like a goest , from nowhere ! She scarred me !

Sara took fast my diary from the table , she was so curious of what i am doing .

She began looking attentively , she didn't get my permission to have it .

I said with a loud voice , i was afraid that she would read , it means a lot for me ! It is so personal :

- Sara how many times ! i have to say that i don't want any one to touch my personal things !

- Don't panic it is nothing , i am just a little concerned , i have always wondered about you were writing all the time !

- I am serious ! I am not joking ! bring it back to me !

- You have such a fantastic penmanship !

I looked at her for so long , maybe she will know that she have to gave it back to me !

- Rose you are talented you know that right ?! I am impressed !! You know what they call it ?

- What do you mean ?

- You are good at poetry ! You must know that ! In hight school there is a reserved place , you can write and publish ! Beleive me it will be nice ! , it can gives you opportunities on the future !

- Are you sure ?

- Yes i am hundred pursuant certain , you can have fun !you can forget all the stress that you have !

I knew what she is talking about when she said that word , she wanted to help me !

- Ok i will consider it ...but now i have to sleep , give me that dairy !

Finally , I got it back and continued writing !