For the first time in so long and after that last aweful days , i now fell happy ! Good humored , i want to go out , to reconnect with people , to fly upon the sky , it is not true i can't fly but i feel that i am ready to have back my normal life . Yesterday was amazing , i would never think of him coming to me in the morning , trying to convince me that we are meant to be together , i liked his act , i liked the way he see me , the way he treat me . He really cares about me and i can feel it , i have known that from his beautiful speech , the lovely words that he said to me . I love Josef ! and i am ready to say it out loud , i can now hold his arms without fear , kiss him , spend the entire day with him , go with him on a trip ....... i want to be with him and i am glad that we

