The Biggest Loss of All

As I stand in the pack house watching my dad talk to Alpha Jason, I feel like this is where I belong. Having beta blood run through my vains, I know everything there is to know in supporting the Alpha and our pack. I'm next to become a beta to my best friend when he turns 21, which is in the next few weeks. I turn to look at Jack, his snuggled up with his mate and their 2 year old daughter. He never wants me to feel left out, but every time I see them, I am reminded of how I don't yet have my mate. Everyone we know has their mate, I'm the only 1 left, my dad kepts saying just to choose a mate, but all I can think of is what happens if our goddess choosen mate finally arrives. Worst of it is, I decided to keep everything for her. Even though I had girls throwing their selves to be mine, I just couldn't do it. My dad did the same for my mum, and she doesn't, well didn't, have jealousy like the other girls that find their mate can have. That's why I don't understand why he keeps saying for me to choose instead of waiting. Maybe his worried he won't get grandchildren. If mum was, he would be busy with her instead of watching me. My heart aches at the memory of her. "James, there is no pressure to find any mate. You are special and deserve the perfect lady, that's why the goddess is waiting to reveal her. " Her soft hand touches my cheek, just weeks before they took her. Smelling her perfume as if she were right here. "James, what's wrong?" I snap back out of my memory to see dad in front of me. We don't talk about mum she's only been gone 6 months, and dad blames himself for what happened. But nothing could be done. They were going to end her even if dad gave them what they wanted. "Nothing, dad, just daydreaming. Sorry for worrying you." Being vague about my memory moments was the best way to not show him the real reason I'm in pain. Yet, in his eyes, I can see that other than my siblings and myself, he wouldn't get through the pain of losing his mate. I couldn't imagine the pain he must have gone through. They say it's the worst pain to feel the bond break between mates. Even as her child, I felt the pain of her bond snap in my chest. I was at training and fell to my knees, Jack was straight to my side, as the next Alpha had a bond with every member of his pack and also felt it break. Everyone was looking at me. They all knew I was thinking of mum. I turn to dad, "carrying on your chat with Alpha Jason, sounds important." Luna Mel comes over to where dad and I were standing. "Ben, he looks a bit peaky, likely just hungry. I'll get him something to eat. " My dad smiles at her. "What would we do without you, our Luna, checking on us?" "They are precious to us all, and we have to keep each of us healthy as can be." She replied as she put her hand on my broad shoulders, giving a comfort rub, as she turned me towards the kitchen. She's at the counter, making me a salad. She looks up with kindness and sadness at the same time. Our mum was her sister, and she understood the pain we were in. "James, you're doing so well at hiding how you're feeling? But today, it seems to have really hit you. Can I ask why?". She was seriously concerned as I held back the tears, knowing beta wolves were meant to be strong. "Just because you will be a beta, my dear nephew doesn't mean you have to be strong with family." Tears start to fall down my cheeks, and Luna rushes to my side. placing down the plate of food in front of me. "I've not been sleeping, auntie, and I keep thinking about how we haven't found who did it." The tears start to fall from her eyes as well. I continued, even with the warm puddle of water collecting on my shoulder, as my auntie held me close. "Auntie, I feel her not here every day. but I can't talk to dad as she was his mate. I couldn't imagine the pain his in. Dad must have the strength of a 100 betas to be the way he is. " "It's not that his strong," she says with a croaky voice, trying to continue. "His placed his strength in finding out who hurt our precious Mia. He doesn't want many involved as he wants to be the one to kill them, even though we all would like a turn. " I hug her back, and after a few seconds, she releases me, turns me to my food, and I start to eat. Luna Mel (pov) I stand watching James' heartbreak over again. I watched him be brave as he told his dad that he was just daydreaming. But I'm sure his dad could see the pain in his eyes. James was always looking after everyone else and never himself. I'm slowly walking towards them, trying to get the right time to interrupt. As I place my hand on James' shoulder, I figure out how to get him away. His handsome face usually tanned looked pale, his blue eyes ringed by black. Ben smiled at me as he knew the pain he was in but couldn't talk about Mia yet. I reach for his hand and hold it for a split second as I explain what I think James needs. He nods in agreement, I direct James to the kitchen. I start to put him a plate of food together, lots of meat, from cold sausages, pork pies, and chicken. Adding some tomatoes, lettuce, and celery for vitamins our human side needs. But I smile slightly, thinking how Mia always tried to get James to eat it, and he never would. Yet here he is 6'3 built just smaller than my beautiful Jack. To be honest, they could have been twins. As I look at him, I can see him as always holding back his emotions. Even as a child, he wouldn't let anyone see when he was hurt. He seemed to believe that he would have his beta taking away if he did. He was such a sweet lad and kind, he helped my Jack understand people better and now he will be an amazing Alpha. But James never sees this in himself, always ready to be the first one punished. My heart aches as I think about how my sister would want me to comfort him even though I shouldn't be she should be here. They took her away from us, and I could feel my wolf growl on need for revenge. I wiped my tears, hoping James didn't notice me as I needed to be strong for him. I'm not just his auntie, I'm also his luna. As I'm looking down, I speak to him about how he is doing? The truth comes out his not sleeping and constantly thinking about revenge. Even though we all want this, it isn't good as seeking revenge can cause him to turn into a lone wolf or as some call them a rouge. I try not to show the worry on my face that this is the path he could be on but decide to show him love. As I sit there daring to show, I hate them too, the tears fall down my cheek making his white shirt see-through. We talk about the pain his dad must be in, and I think about losing my alpha. The tears fall a little harder as I never thought one of us would go through this before our time. We were a peaceful pack, which means none of this makes sense. I couldn't talk anymore and hoped the good cry would help him with his emotions. I gesture to him to eat up, and he finally does. The first meal I've seen him eat in 3 days. As I watch him eat, I start to load the dishwasher. Even though the omegas are here to do this, it keeps me busy. But this time it doesn't stop my mind from wondering to that day. (6 months ago) Ben comes rushing in here, there is warriors rushing from everywhere. Jason rushes to my side and tells me that whatever I hear, don't listen until he can fill me in. He kisses me with passion, but not the usual passion more when he was going off to find a rouge in our territory. But he didn't usually tell me to ignore what everyone was saying. The boys were training, and others I knew were in the pack house. Alpha returns to me. "My luna, can you collect all the children and keep them in the Alpha floor?" I smiled, confirmed I would. this must be a pack of rogues and a big one. Nearly every warrior, apart from the ones training with the boys, was close. Why hadn't Alpha brought the back, too? I link them all and tell them to get to the Alpha floor. Most come in, Jack links me to say they are staying to the end of training. I didn't want him to panic as there was only 20 minutes left. up on the top where the Alpha floor was, was Ben's other 4 children, mine and Alpha's 3 younger children, Jack's mate Lucy and our granddaughter. "We've gotta stay here for a while. But be ready to be told to go to the bunker, ok?". They all were used to this when rogues attack, luckily we've never lost anyone to them. But today, it felt different as if something was wrong. I link Mia and ask her where she is. The link that came back broke me, "Sister, I have always loved you. You're my best friend. Please look after my babies as they are your own." What was that? Why would she say that, has she been caught in the fight. Just then, a pair of omegas who were cleaning came past. "Our beautiful luna will be heartbroken to find out her sister has been taken." Now, her message was clear. "Mia where are you? i'll send Alpha. Where are you please?" Tears streamed down my face as my knees landed on the floor. "Mel, they won't reach me in time," my heartbreaking even more. "Please, sister, let us try." I plead back to her. "Mia, please, I beg you, please." A sudden pain shot through my chest. I remember this pain when our mother passed. Her children and mine came running through feeling the pain clutching their chests. I looked up to them. They all ran to me, holding each other and crying. "Why would someone do this?" My wolf growled in