Her Absolution

My life ended 6 months ago or maybe it began, at least that is what people have told me you can also see in their faces the pity. They always expressed themselves to me with pity.  Pity is something I don't want from anyone. At least not anymore.  I still don’t see if it’s one or the other. Did it began? Or did it end? I feel more like I am in limbo. The in between of life and death. I question if things would have gone differently. If he didn't go again into the school. What if he wanted to go inside but someone stop him? If I would have died that day. Or if he would have lived. Or if we would have lived or died together. My mind keeps asking the if’s. But I can’t change the past. Only the present. This school year I want it to be ordinary. I want it to go by in a blur. To be free of trouble and drama. I was wrong. Because he is a magnet of both.  He permanently came into my life. I too permanently came into his life. He is Ashton Mercer. I am Autumn Maverick. And this is the story of my absolution.