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Carly
I can’t believe what just happened. I’ve never seen him so mad, not since I told him I was leaving him when we found out I was expecting. That was the worst day of my life until today. It’s like I’m constantly walking on eggshells. Maybe I should have taken Star’s advice and ran. But I have no doubt he would’ve found me no matter where I ran to. He would’ve dragged me back and made me pay for making him look like a complete fool and an embarrassment.
I almost did, but by the time I had argued the pros and cons I was walking down the aisle. Then three men I never thought I would see again were there trying to get me to see sense like Star was. I had no choice but to go through it even if I got patronised after allowing them to almost ruin his perfect day. Not mine, his. It would never be my perfect day marrying someone I had no feelings for. It was supposed to be the loves of my life, not him, and I f****d that all up because of him and him forcing himself on me and assuming I wanted what he did. If he hadn’t have gone to Star’s and Caspian’s that night I wouldn’t be in this f*****g predicament right now. I would be far far away from this bullshit and doing what I wanted when I first found out I was expecting.
I still remember that saying so vividly it was like a dream. No, more like a nightmare I was living and I was trapped trying to get out of it and away from the man who had trapped me. I was so shocked when we came out I didn’t know what to say or do with him going on and on how excited he was to have a child.
“Isn’t this just great, we’re going to become parents. I have always wanted to be a dad. Now I can.”
I sat nodding and he gripped the wheel tight. “Aren’t you excited Carly?”
Mm.
I looked at him, “About what?”
He gripped the steering wheel tighter, his knuckles turning white. “The baby. Aren’t you excited about our baby?”
“No, I’m not. I don’t want a baby.”
He turned the wheel and swerved.
I held onto the door handle. “What the hell Ethan!”
“So you don’t want the baby because it’s mine and not theirs?”
“No, I’m just not ready.” Lies if it were either Ky’s or Jonathan’s I would be jumping through hoops I would be so f*****g happy, but for this man never. He doesn’t deserve the happiness of another life when he took so much from me.
“Then what, Carly? We’re together and now we are having a baby together.”
“I don’t want this Ethan.”
He pushed his foot on the brakes making the car skid. “What the f**k! You f*****g i***t are you trying to kill us both?”
He snaps his seat belt off and leans over me faster than I anticipated. His hand clasped around my throat. “If you ever think about getting rid of my kid, I’ll kill you with my bare hands, understand?”
I nod, tears streaming down my face.
“This is such a happy day, don’t ruin it.”
How the f**k is it the happiest day? If I have this child I’ll be trapped with him for the rest of my life.
“I have it all planned out, baby, we are going to get married and bring up the baby, have more children and live happily ever after.” he smiles, hopefully.
What?
Is he in f*****g sain?
Get married, I don’t think so.
“I am not getting married to you Ethan.”
His eyes grow darker and his grip tightens around my throat then I know I’ve made a terrible mistake in saying I won’t marry him is the no of a proposal that’s meant to be a yes, of course, I’ll marry you.
Like hell, I will.
“You listen and you listen good, Carly. I wanted to do this all traditional get down on one knee and propose, but you just had to go and ruin it didn’t you? We’re getting married and you have no say in it, we’re having a child together so we’re making sure that we are officially married, we don’t want the poor kid to be called a bastard do we?”
I stare at him and he moves my head side to side as a no. “We are getting married end of the discussion, and if you try and defy me I will make your f*****g life hell you’ll be too embarrassed to walk down the street when all the whispers start about your little threesome no one will ever look at you the same way ever again and as for your two-bed buddies, they will know its all your fault that all your dirty secrets come out theirs included. I hope we are on the same page.”
Tears slipped down my face. How had I not seen what a monster Ethan Hollingway truly was when I agreed to put the past behind us and start over? Even Alijah wasn’t a monster like he is.
“Are we on the same page Carly?”
I nod shakily.
He smiles. “Good, now I can properly propose in front of everyone.”
Before I have a chance to reflect he smashes his lips on mine and kisses me violently leaving me breathless. He pulls away and smiles, wiping my tears away. “Now no more tears baby, it’s the first sign of weakness.” he kisses my lips softly and moves away. He takes his hand from around my throat and leans back into his seat starting the car again, he locks in his seat belt and drives away. I feel physically sick and no longer want to be in the same vicinity as him or breathe the same air as him.
As soon as we get home if I can even call it that, it’s his home and I’m just a prisoner in his f****d up fantasy of us being happy.
“I’ll be calling on everyone in a few days to ask them around to propose and tell them all the good news.”
I nod as I make my way up the stairs and head into the bedroom to shower. I look in the mirror. My hair is tasselled and knotted. My mascara has run. I look a f*****g mess, but that’s not the worst thing that stands out its the hand print around my neck that looks extremely red and angry. I hope it’s gone in the next few days or I’ll have to put a s**t ton of foundation on to conceal it from everyone. I put the shower on and wait for it to heat up. I strip out of my clothes and step into the hot spray and stand under it with my eyes closed tilting my head back and draining my head of thoughts of today and what conspired between Ethan and me in the car and how he almost killed the both of us with his reckless and dangerous driving just cause he was pissed at me for not wanting what he did.
A pair of hands wrap around my stomach. I automatically freeze as they wander over my naked flesh. feathered kisses rain on my neck .”I’m sorry baby, I didn’t mean to get so angry at you let me make it up to you.” he says kissing my neck and sucking on it as his hands travel over my stomach. “I can’t wait to see your belly grow bigger as our baby grows,” he says swirling his tongue around the part of my neck he’s just sucked on it stings badly, but he continues the assault on my neck moving his feather-light kisses down my collar bone and his hands sliding down my body my private parts. He parts them and dips his fingers in taunting me as he continues sucking on my neck in different places as I start panting he increases the pressure until I let go.
He turns me around and lifts me into his arms and pushes me to the wall and enters me having s*x with me.
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