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The past week has been hectic. I had met up with Star and Jasmine to look for a wedding dress, bridesmaid and martron of honour dresses. Jasmine was ahead of her game since leaving uni. She’d scored an internship at a local lawyer and from there she made her way up and to become a diverse attorney. Maybe one day I’ll need her if I get through this wedding alive.
We all met at the wedding dress boutique, one of many on my list. I had made a reservation for all of us to try on dresses today. We hadn't got long to decide and we needed all the alterations to be done by the summer.
We all efuckingtwhoreutique and the sales lady greeted us and I told her that I had a reservation booked for today. She nodded and we got to searching for our dresses. Luckily there were three changing rooms. We tried on different styles of dresses but I didn’t feel itfuckall.
Once we had tried them on we dressed and handed them back before leaving the boutique. “This is going to be harder than it looks.” I sigh.
They slide their stems into mine. “It’s going to be fine just imagine that you're marrying your prince charming.”
Star grunted. “Insetad of Ethan.”
“Star, we’re meant to be here for Carly, we're supposed to be supporting her.”
“I know and I’m sorry.”
She didn’t sound at all sorry and I don’t blame her she’s the only one that I’ve confided in about what Ethan is like alone and behind closed doors.
We went to a small but charming coffee lounge and had lunch before heading to our next destination. Where we were greeted by the sales assistant . We picked out dresses and tried the dresses on but shitatter how I tried to imagine I was getting married to someone else other than Ethan was difficult.
We had two more shops to go to next weekend. I hoped it would be better than this. We hugged and said our goodbyes,
I parked up the car dreading what bullshit Ethan was going to come up with when I got in about not finding a dress.
I took a deep breath getting out of the car. I closed the car door and set the alarm.
As soon as I closed the door I was bombardfuckith his glare and questioning.
“So how difucking, did you find a dress?”
“Okay and no.”
“You need to find one. I've already secured the date we need everything sorted and ready for the beginning of July.”
“I will. I just haven’t found the right one. I want you to like it too.”
He raised his hand and I flinched. He grinned, placing his hand on my face. “I’m not going to hurt you. And I appreciate you going out with a way to please me, but this is your day to Carls. We have a cake tasting session during the week. Make sure you let everyone know you’ll be leaving early, make sure you get someone you can trust to lock up okay?”
“Okay.”
He moves forward grabbing the back of my neck, smashing his lips on mine, kissing me.
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Everything had been going according to Ethan’s plan. We had found our cake and invitations. All that was left was to get the dresses and suits. The suits would be a few weeks before the wedding. So this weekend I met up with Star and Jasmine this time I had taken Star’s suggestion seriously and there was only two people who I would’ve traded in his place but I wasn’t going to tell either Star or Jasmine cause they would tell me to call it off with Ethan and run to them and marry them instead but I know they wouldn’t look at me twice after the s**t I pulled with them they would never forgive for the way I left things instead of taking it out and telling them why I was doing it instead of just leaving them. Fuck
So with them in my head I was determined to find the right dress even if the dress wasn’t for them but Ethan.we all hugged before entering the fist of two wedding dress boutiques and was greeted by the sales woman who left us to choose what dresses we wanted to try on.
None of them had the pizzaz I was looking for so we set off to the last one and tried on dress after dress. Then, bam! The last set of dresses were the ones I smiled wishing that it was either Jonathan or Kyler I was marrying and not Ethan but fate had a difference of opinion.
We all smiled and nodded then the sales woman handed us tiaras then shoes and it all fit into place. Tears slipped down my face. I shouldn't be crying, but it looked so perfect even if it wasn’t for the person or person I imagined it being for.
Once we had everything we took then all of and dressed before I paid the deposit and made a pm appointment for the first alterations.
We all walked out relieved. “Well at least we don’t have to do that s**t again.”
“Until Jaz’s wedding right sis.”
She nudged Star in the ribs. “I’m never getting married.”
“Yeah whatever, Jaz keep telling yourself that.”
“Am I missing something?”
“Just Jaz has a new boy toy and they’ve been together a while.”
“Why don’t you bring him to the wedding.”
“No offence but I don’t think that’s wise.”
I nod knowing that she’s right. It’s best if he stays away and I can meet him after the wedding has been and gone. We all hug each other goodbye and head to our cars. I get in and start the engine, shift gear and pull away. We all beep our horns and drive home.
Ethan is waiting with a frown on his face. “Please tell me you found the dress.”
“I did.”
His frown turns into a smile of relief. “Thank f**k I was beginning to think you’d never find it.”
“Well I did.” I said not letting on to him how I actually found it.
He pulled me into a hug and kissed me hungrily.
He lifts me up and carries me to our room where he strips us both and has s*x with me. Telling me he loves me and he’ll never let me go.”
I swallow hard feeling nauseous. I can’t answer him no matter how hard I try.
Summer Wedding
Today is the day of the wedding, the wedding that Ethan wanted not me. I had no choice. I'm almost four months pregnant and my stomach is starting to show that I've had the perfect white and black dress adjusted twice because I’ve grown over the past weeks. But Fuckne will notice because of the style of dress I've chosen.
I sit as the makeup is applied, feeling guilty for going through this knowing I’ll never love Ethan, no matter how much I try, no matter how much he loves me. There's only one person who knows why I’m marrying him. No one who is here today knows the truth about our farce relationship. Mom and Dad are just glad I’ve found someone to share the rest of my pathetic life with.
Once the makeup and hair is done I get helped into my dress. Star smiles at me in her blue bridesmaid dress.
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