LIYAH’S POV
I waited until the whole house was quiet.
It was almost five in the morning, and I had been awake for hours. My bag was beside me, already packed with a few clothes, my documents, some money, and my charger.
I stared at it for a long time.
I still couldn’t believe I was actually doing this.
I got up slowly and opened my bedroom door.
The house was dark.
I walked quietly through the hallway, trying not to make any noise. When I reached my mother’s room, I stopped.
I could hear her breathing.
For a moment, I almost turned back.
“Mom,” I whispered, even though I knew she couldn’t hear me.
Tears filled my eyes.
I wanted to go inside and hug her.
I wanted to tell her where I was going.
But I knew she would stop me.
So I picked up my bag and walked out.
The cold morning air hit my face as soon as I stepped outside.
I pulled my jacket closer around me and started walking.
I didn’t look back until I was far enough from the house.
When I did, everything looked so small.
I wiped my tears and brought out my phone.
I booked a VTC to the station and waited near the side of the road.
A few minutes later, a dark grey Peugeot pulled up.
The driver lowered his window.
“Bonjour. Liyah?”
“Oui.”
He nodded.
“Vous allez à la gare?”
“Oui, s’il vous plaît.”
He got out and took my bag from me.
“Merci.”
He put it in the boot and opened the back door.
I got inside.
The car was warm, and the quiet music playing from the radio made me feel even more emotional.
As we drove away, I kept looking out the window.
The streets were almost empty.
A bakery was just opening.
A man was pulling up the shutters of a small shop.
Everything looked normal.
Nobody knew I had just left my home.
Nobody knew I didn’t know when I would return.
The driver glanced at me through the mirror.
“Ça va?”
I forced a smile.
“Oui.”
He looked at me for a second longer before looking back at the road.
I turned towards the window.
I wasn’t okay.
My phone suddenly vibrated.
I looked at the screen.
Mum calling.
My heart dropped.
I stared at her name.
She called again.
I didn’t answer.
The call stopped.
Then another message came.
Where are you?
I couldn’t bring myself to reply.
I locked my phone and put it inside my bag.
The driver stopped near the station.
“Voilà.”
“Merci.”
He helped me with my bag.
I paid him and watched the car drive away.
For a moment, I just stood there.
People were walking past me, carrying bags and coffee cups, rushing to catch their trains.
I felt completely alone.
I checked my phone again.
This time, there was a message from Daniel.
Good morning, love. Are you awake?
My eyes filled with tears.
I wanted to tell him.
I wanted to tell him everything.
But if I told Daniel where I was going, he would come after me.
And I didn’t want anyone to stop me.
So I typed:
I’m okay. I’ll talk to you later.
I stared at the message before sending it.
It felt like a lie.
But I didn’t know what else to do.
I walked into the station.
My train was already listed on the departure board.
Paris.
I stood there looking at the word for a few seconds.
Paris.
The place Daniel and I had dreamed about.
We had talked about walking through the streets together, finding a small apartment, getting jobs and starting our lives.
I never imagined I would be going there alone.
I held my bag tighter.
Maybe this wasn’t the Paris I had dreamed about.
But it was still a chance.
A chance to escape.
A chance to make my own decision.
I boarded the train and found a seat beside the window.
As the train began to move, I watched the familiar streets disappear.
I didn’t know where I would stay when I arrived.
I didn’t know how I would find a job.
I didn’t know what I was going to do if my money ran out.
But I knew one thing.
I couldn’t go back home.
Not yet.
I rested my head against the window and closed my eyes.
For the first time, I was completely on my own.
And somehow, that scared me more than the marriage ever did.