forbidden desire

It was the fear of losing something that meant so much to you. It was the thought of never being able to feel what he made you feel all those times before. It was the comprehension of knowing that the epicness of the past can never be repeated in the future.... and you fall to your knees, knowing that you just let go of the only shed of happiness you felt in a long time. "Hey daddy are you awake?" James POV "Hmm!" I groaned, rolling on my side and staring up at the person that had just awoken me. "What time is it?" "It's time you got to get up." Khalieesi said, looking at me as if I had just asked a ridiculous question. I looked over grabbing my phone off of my nightstand, and stared at the horror of the time. It was 12:00 on a Sunday afternoon as she was dragging me out of bed. "Agg... Fine, I'm up already!" I said sitting up and rubbing my eyes. There is no use arguing with her, when she had her mind set on something there is no way of changing that. When she was satisfied that I wouldn't fall back to sleep she got off the bed and headed to the bathroom. I sighed deeply before swinging my legs off the side of the bed and stretched my body as far as it would let me. Before I stepped off I noticed that the room extended to mine was open. That room was the bathroom and apparently today of all days khalieesi wants to shower in there. I mean after all we are living in the same house. But she has her own room with her own bath, so why wouldn't she use her's? Sometimes I think she is doing this on purpose. Sometimes I think that she is testing my limits. She was always trying to undress and try on different clothes Infront of me. Maybe that's how girls are supposed to act around each other.... but it drove me insane. I tried my best to look away but... How can you not look upon perfection?! Her back was turned towards the door she had no idea that my eyes became to her majestic form. Even though she moved quickly, everything I saw moved in slow motion. Slowly she pulled her tank top over her head, exposing the soft delicate skin that the top once sheltered. Her dark brown hair that had chestnut brown highlights, hung loosely around her shoulders. The dark red bra that she had on underneath fit perfectly but as much as it looked good on her it looked even better as she took it off. Khalieesi turned slightly to her left as she faced the mirror, absentmindedly admiring herself. I looked on in awe, entrapped by the vision before me. Her perfectly cupped breasts could be seen peaking out from her arms whenever she lifted them. A soft sigh escaped from me as I knew she could never be mine. The next item of clothing that off was her was her shorts. The way her fingers gently caressed her tan skin as they pushed her pants down made me moan aloud.... Wishing that they were my hands instead of hers. I looked away quickly so that I could regulate my heartbeat before I did something terrible; like walking into that bathroom, bracing her against the nearest wall and having my sweet, sweet way with her as I always think about. When my gaze finally shifted back to hers she was completely and utterly naked... And totally unaware that the door was slightly open. The picture of her completely naked body was enough for me to have a powerful erection. I bit onto my lips hard, keeping my moan as quiet as I possibly could. She was every definition of sin; powerful, deadly, seductive. Her back was slender, her legs were thick, her butt was just the perfect shape. They went together in perfect unison. When she turned to head into the shower I got a glimpse of her from the front before I looked away. Her breasts was a decent size and her n*****s were perfectly pink and the way that her hair flowed over her hard n*****s was just absolutely beautiful. My guess was that she forgot to shave... And that was now probably going to get rectified. I threw myself onto my bed and stared at the ceiling. How is it that I had fallen completely in love with the one girl I knew I could not have? After, a lengthy shower and we'll deserved breakfast we both headed out the door. It was an extremely bright Saturday afternoon and we were headed to the mall to do some shopping. This week was my only final week of being free from college and enjoying some father and daughter time since we don't get to much time to spend together. I draped my arm around Khalieesi's shoulder and entered through the mall doors. I can't believe that I had forgotten that her birthday was last week and so to make it up to her he bought her a very expensive car and deposited a fat load of money into her bank account. The car was delivered yesterday and we spared no time in taking it out for a spin. That's why we had came home so late that night. (Khalieesi's POV) I am so tired but all I can think about is why daddy looks so distant and upset. So I had to do something about it, all I could do was show daddy my love and affection that I have for him. He looked like he was tearing up. (I wonder what's bothering daddy so much. I need to find out and help him however I can, and be that affection little girl that I want to be for him. All I want him to do is feel comfortable with opening up to me and for me to show him the attention that I feel he needs.) As daddy opens his mouth to speak. It surprised me what came out of his mouth. I never knew he was married but he had just told me that two months prior to me coming home to visit they had divorced each other, because she told him to pick her or me, and I guess daddy choose me. (oh, my, goodness I can't believe that he chose me over a woman that he was with for twelve years and is only getting to know me now, he didn't know much about me because my mother took me away from him when I was a baby.) He just told me that he told her that he wasn't going to lose anymore time that he had already lost for no one. As I'm thinking to myself. what is it that makes me so special, I need to find out because I am feeling a weird feeling towards him since he had opened up to me and told me what was upsetting him. I can't help but feel special, some of these feelings are new and I don't understand what they mean, but all I know is that I just want to know what these feelings I am feeling towards him mean. It feels like there are butterflies that are flying around in my stomach, I'm getting chill's throughout my body. In that moment it made me jump, but there was something that I just couldn't understand or know why it was happening. But all of a sudden I felt my legs start trembling, and felt my underwear get wet, and I know that I didn't have to use the restroom. So what could it be, I need to know because it makes me feel so wanted and happy inside. (James POV) I just finally opened up to my daughter that is finally in my life, at first I thought to myself is it really a good idea to tell my daughter that I was forced into choosing between my her and the woman that was supposed to be with me for the rest of my life. It was wrong of my ex wife to make me choose between her and my own child. I was taught that when someone has a child it doesn't matter if you had raised them or not they are still your child you will have a connection with them. That's why I looked for her whenever I could. But like my mother said to me " Don't worry, there would be a day when she will start to look for you." So many hours spent, so many miles driven, I was going to give up but I had to remember what I spent hours and days searching for. I'm going to ask you what decision would you have made if you were in my shoes. For me it was worth every hour spent, every mile driven, so yes if your wondering I would choose to go through that divorce with my eyes closed, then to lose my daughter again. To me there is plenty of females in this world, that's why it didn't hurt me as much, because I had something more precious to look forward to in my life, and that's something that my ex wife could never give me. She would have not been able to fill that void that my daughter could. Thinking to myself now was it such a good idea to tell my daughter about what happened with my ex wife. So I need to let her know that she had nothing to do with my decision because it was all me, I choose what I knew was right I just want to make sure that she don't feel guilty or at fault for my decisions because it's not. There will never be a woman that can replace the love that I have for the little girl that's now with me. It was coming to the point of me leaving my ex wife because there was some many different people that loved and cared for me in my life that I pushed away to make who I thought wanted and loved me who I am, but she blinded me she made me think it was love but when she took everything from me I looked the other way. That's when everything changed because she thought she came before my own child and that's when she got it all wrong. I'm doing good by myself well not completely by myself I still have that one person that will never left me and always show me the love I deserve. My daughter will be the one that has my heart completely it's just going to be the two of us for now on, it will take some time getting used to but we can accomplish anything we want as long as we have each other. From this day on I give my word that I'm going to hold onto my daughter  for as long as I can and never let go because I will not lose her again. I was thinking to myself how can I become closer with my daughter, and you maybe thinking what do you mean become closer to her. Yes, that's what I mean because she has been through so much pain while we were separated for those years her mother had disappeared with her. So she doesn't trust people it takes her time to come around to anyone. But what I am going to do will be the best choice which will be me having to become her friend before a authority father figure in her life. I can understand and I will take each step one by one until I get her full trust in me. Like I said she is worth every minute of my undivided attention when she wants me she will get me. There is one thing that I have noticed that she's doing, and I truly don't know how to feel about the way she looks at me like it like she is looking at me more then a friend or a father figure. I'm going to ask if she would like to spend the evening in my room with me and watch movies and get to know each other better. This may also help me understand her more. I just really want to spend time with my daughter and to see what she likes. okay, it's time to ask her if she would like to hangout well have a sleepover with me for the night, hope I don't go to sleep because I am a very heavy sleeper most of the time I have a hard time waking up so again we will see how this is going to plan out. (Khalieesi's POV) "Hey daddy, I've been looking for you. I wasn't able to find you anywhere. Are you okay because when we got home you just ran off." " Yes, baby I am okay, but I was wondering if you would like to spend the night in my room with me and watch movies and hangout?" "But that's if you want to." Daddy said. " Daddy are you sure that is okay. It's all up to you, I will do whatever makes you happy. So I want to leave the decision up to you if that's okay. To me I don't see the problem with it, I would actually love that very much." " Okay, going to go change into my shorts, I feel hot and constricted so I just want to put something more comfortable and loose on." said daddy. " Okay, while you go change, I wanted to know if I could take a shower but I was wondering would you mind if I took the shower in your room again." "I just thought it was a little more convenient since we are going to be in your room for the night anyways." "Yes baby, that is fine with me. Go get your stuff ready, but question would you like me to bring any snacks up or a water?" Said daddy "No I don't want any snacks but I would love a water if you don't mind, I can get it myself if you would like me to." "Yes that is okay, go get in the shower while I get the waters for us."daddy said "No, daddy I want to wait for you I have new clothes I bought with some of the money you had put in my bank account for my birthday. I was going to ask you to let me know what you had thought about them anyway, they are a little short and reveling but that's the new style." " That is fine, I trust your judgement. So don't worry about what they look like if you like it so will I. Now I don't mean to sound like I'm kicking you out but I still have to change my clothes."said daddy. "Oh yeah, I'm sorry daddy holding you up. so now if you can excuse me I would like to head in the bathroom to take a shower." (James POV) As I was starting to get underdressed I noticed that Khalieesi had left the bathroom door cracked open again, but it was a little more than this morning when she had woken me up. But this time I looked away and kept changing, but I couldn't help but notice that I was being watched. I looked slightly over to the bathroom door, she was completely naked and watching my every move. At first I didn't know how to react but I just kept doing what I had to but a little slower because I like the way she was looking at me. I haven't felt like that since my divorce. It was making me feel wanted and I didn't care at the time because it felt good that someone noticed me. I noticed that she finally walked away from the door, but she had opened it more and by more I mean half way open. It's like she has no care in the world, and that is something that no one can do anything about, because what Khalieesi wants she gets or does. As I passed the bathroom door I just couldn't help myself anymore, it has been awhile since I have had a woman. So whenever I have time to help myself I will, and in this moment I feel like I need to help myself it maybe wrong but right now in this moment it feels so right. As I slipped my hand down my shorts, I started stroking my d*ck, I didn't want to feel like I was a creep Incase she caught me watching her. So I pulled my phone out and put p*rn on but I heard the shower just turn off, so I ran over to the bed and I through the blankets on top of me because I had a big erection and didn't want her to question or see me like that. But only if I new what she was going to wear I would have made her put something else on. I don't want to say anything because I don't want to hurt her. She's been through to much pain, and I don't see the reason to make her upset over something so small. But I'm questioning myself why where something so thin and especially the color white and you can tell that she doesn't have anything on underneath. it's also not helping that her hair is dripping on her night gown and it's just showing everything as if the clothes were not even on. Her dress is now completely see through. I am so confused that in the middle of running I didn't realize that I had dropped my phone. Hope that she doesn't find it.                              (Khalieesi's POV) " Hey, daddy are you okay? I heard a lot of commotion." ask Khalieesi. "I'm okay sweetie. I just looking for something."said James "Okay? Daddy I have a question." said Khalieesi. "what is it, you can ask me whatever is on your mind." said James. " Well... I was I'm the bathroom and I turned around and you were changing. I didn't mean for me to turn around at that moment. But I was just curious to see what you were doing and I thought that you would have been changed already, but I was wrong. I kind of think I seen a little bit more than I should have, but I nevermind." (James POV) As the night went on we watched movie after movie. I can't help but start to doze off. I just had a long tiring day. But, I don't know how much longer I am going to be able to keep myself awake. "Daddy, you better not be falling asleep. We have more movies to watch." said Khalieesi "snores....." (daddy is sleeping very heavily and is not aware of his soundings and is not going to be getting up easily.)