Damaged Realities

Death and Rebirth

James POV

After getting dressed for the party I leave my room. I shut the door lightly and turn around making my way to the party. I hate socializing with people I don't know. But as an alpha, I'm going to have to get over that. it will now be my duty to handle all pack affairs which requires endless socializing. I walk down the hall to the living area in a daze, stressing my new responsibility when Suddenly someone crashes into my chest. I loom down and see the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. her hair was long and black with long bangs that covered her eyes almost completely. no wonder she bumped into me, how does she see!? she was pale with high, round cheekbones with a small round nose proportionally place in the middle of her face. below it was the softest red lips I had ever seen. her chin was small and round and her neck was thin and it branched out into her small shoulders and collarbone. her waist was small and curved out into large hips and thighs. she was absolutely perfect. I just wish I could see her eyes. my eyes averted the large scar on her neck that trailed up to her eye but disappeared within her bangs.”i-I'm sorry," she stammered softly. her voice was soft and gentle. There was a hint of despair in the way she spoke. Her voice sounded like a flower. As if there was a sigh in every word she said.I couldn't bring myself to form words, I was in awe by this woman. My wolf began to wag his tail. "mate! mate! mate!" he said excitedly For once in my life I am filled with joy. I've waited years for this and everyone I know has already met their mate. I'm 27 years old and I still haven't found my mate. It has been embarrassing and overwhelmingly lonely. But here she stands, right in front of me, and goddess she is beautiful. She slowly lifts her chin looking up at me. her lips part slowly and I am yet again at a loss for words. I can finally see her eyes through her long black bangs. She has giant doe eyes that sparkle even in the dark. she had black cat eyeliner on the top of her eyes. Her lashes are long and curled. her eyes are a yellow hazel with spots of forest green. her complexion was pale but glistening. she was truly an angel. As soon as she caught sight of me staring her face turns bright red and she blushed all over. It was the cutest thing I've ever seen. I smile but she quickly turned away seeming as if she was lost in thought. I hear her breath quicken as her shoulders trembled. I crumbled into concern seeing her this way. Her panic auras off of her, enough for me to feel it as my own. I desperately wanted to fix whatever was wrong. I reach my hand out and place it in her arm gently. Her arm seemed so small against my hand“are you alright?" I asked softly.”I- I have to go...I'm sorry" she breathed sadly. she turns away from me and runs away. I see tears drop from her eyes as she turns the corner. I stand there in awe not knowing where to place my emotions. Is she afraid of me? Did I do something wrong? I stand there dumbfounded like an i***t. Breaking my train of thought my beta,Travis pops his out from the end of the hallway. "hey James come join the party!" he yells excitedly. I could tell he was already drunk. I roll my eyes and continue into the living area reluctantly. I have no desire to carry out the rest of my evening untill I find her agian. Every muscle in my body pulled me to wherever she is. But unfortunately I have a duty to make an appearance as alpha. I strain myself as I enter the living area as everyone greets me.

After a few drinks and introductory conversations with other alphas, lead witches and lunas my uncle mindlinked me to come see him. I haven’t seen him since he took me in after my parents died. He raised me and sent me to training at 17. I don’t know if I’m ready to see him on his deathbed.

Slowly making my way to the back bedroom where he lays I sigh before opening the door; preparing myself for what I’m about to see.

“He was so healthy last time we saw him”

My wolf says . He was also on edge. This man was like our father. One of the few people my wolf trusted with his life was about to die.

“I know. Let’s just be there for him.it’s not about us”

My wolf nodded in agreement.

As soon as I opened the door I was hit with a wave of the sweetest smell I’ve ever smelled in my life. The sweet aroma of cinnamon and brown sugar made my head sway. All stamina in my body was lost. I lift my head and my mate sitting next to my uncles hospital bed with weary sad eyes.

She looks up at me and her eyes widen. Her cheeks turn red again and I can’t help but smile like a dumbass.

Uncle turns to her and squeezes her hand reassuringly. “I know you need me right now but I need to speak with my nephew alone for a few minutes.. she sobs quietly and nods. I tilt my head in concern at her sadness.

She slowly stands up and walks out the room. My eyes stay on her but I am filled with disappointment when she strides past me with her eyes to the floor.

Is she avoiding eye contact with me? Does she hate us?

My wolf wines at the thought of her not liking us.

My uncle gestures to the chair next to his bed.

“With my death will be the rebirth of you. I know you will be more than fitting to be the new alpha.” He croaked.

“You taught me well uncle.” I say sadly

“ you will be missed…” I say sadly as I place my hand on his shoulder. Sorrow overtakes me when I feel how frail he is.

His breath rasps and he slowly turns his head towards me. His eyes look bleak…

“You…” he rasps for breath struggling to form his sentences “look just like your father…you’ve done us both proud son.” He breaths.

His grip loosens and his eyes look blank. He let go. The machines hooked to him start beeping and his chest was no longer rising .

I slowly glide my hands over his face to close his eyes and let my tears go.

“We’re all alone now….” My wolf says sadly

My mind pictures our mate. “Not all alone.” I say softly to my wolf.