To Know Who I Am

I'm Done

I closed my eye and then open them again to see Louise standing at the end of the bed.

“Get some closes on Nora.”

 “Why?”

“You're going out.” 

“WHAT!” 

“You need new clothes.”

       I walked into the study and there stood a woman. Tall. Brown hair that went down to her mid back. She was beautiful and her brown eyes looked me over once before she smiled and walked to me and hugged me. She then pulled back and looked me in the eye. Once she did something happen. I saw myself in the woods on a dark night running. She looked at me. “You will do it, you will live to see your family and I’ am one of the two in this house to help you.”  I looked at her but she didn’t say a word. It like it she was in my thoughts.

     I looked at him.

“Why are you doing this?”

“What... Umm Abby will you please.”

 She walked out of the room and Louise looked at me.

“Stop.”

“Stop what?”

 “Why are you doing this?”

“I love you Nora and I want you to have clothes when you are here.” I rolled my eyes, which he saw.

“What? Never mind.”

“Okay then but why are you going to let me out?”

“Why it’s been a while and well you’re not even in your town. Or country to that thought.”

“What the hell. Why the hell are you doing this? Why are you telling me all of this- this s**t?”

He slapped me across the face. “Don't you even say that word again?”

“You're not my mom nor dad so you can’t tell me what I can and cannot say.”

I run to the room and locked the door. I let my head fall to the wood of the door “You know that he has a key to the room.” I looked around the room. “Why won't you show face?” He never answered. “Will I ever know who you are?”

He put his hand on my shoulder and whispered in my ear. “Yes one day you will but right now you need not to know who I am.”

I turned around to see him step into the shadows. I sated down on the floor. “So what can you tell me?”

“I can tell you that you won’t be dying any time soon. Louise doesn’t or can’t kill you yet. That you can trust me and Abby, we are here to help you get back to your family. Umm I can say that Louise is scared of you when you stand up to him like you did today. Oh that if you want I can still help you with blocking your thoughts if you want.” He stopped talking.

“I want to learn how to do that.”

“Okay the first thing you need to do is think about something or someone that you care about.” He said.

It took me a minute to think of someone. My dad and how I wanted him to could get me.

“You’re thinking about your dad. You want him to find you.” He said without hesitating.

“What I’m going to do is have you do is think of something, but as your thinking of that make it to were you don’t what me to know okay?”

“Okay that sounds easy.” I thought of Sean and at the same time not letting the boy know. Minutes past and I begin to think if it was working.

“It was working tell you thought that.” He said out of nowhere. “Can you read minds?”

“I can guess the answer out of you. Because you really wouldn’t be telling me.”

I could feel his eyes on me. I started to think about getting out and making it to where he didn’t know.

An hour past. “What are you thinking about Nora?” He asked. He moved a little in his spot. “I can’t tell what you’re thinking now.”

“Really you can’t?” I asked.

“Yeah I can’t.” I moved around the room. “Does that mean it works? That I know how to hide my thoughts?”

“Looks like it.” I walked to the bed and laid on the bed and watched to sun go down.

I thought about how and when I was going to do it. “Can I ask you something?”

“No but you can let me see your face because at the sound of your voice it something Louise can’t know about. So sat up on the bed.”

 “Where are you?” He moved his foot out and then back. “But this time make it to be you let me see what you’re thinking.” He said as I went to ask. I did as he said.

“How am I going to get out, when will I go?” I asked in my thoughts.

“To night. At midnight. When everyone is sleeping.”

“Why?” I asked.

“Do you trust me Nora?”

 “Yes.” I said hesitating.

The sound of feet across the floor outside the door shut me out fast. The door was being unlocked. Louise came into the room.

“Dinner is in ten minutes. And since you didn’t go shopping today I had Abby go out and get you some things.” He sat three bags down on the bed.

Going throw then and pulling out a blue shirt and then black pants. He put then in my hands and then looked at me. I looked from him to the clothes. I held up the shirt and looked at it. It was beautiful. The back was opened. I looked back at Louise.

“Abby you may come in now.”  She come in with her head down and hands behind her back. He left us as she said nothing.

Once he was gone she moved over to me and took the clothes from my hands.

“Com’ let get you clean and clothed.” We walk in to the bath room. Once my head hit the water it felt wonderful. I washed everything that felt dirty about five times.

After I got out Abby dressed me like I was a kid.

“Tonight I will tell you when to run.” She said.

I looked in the mirror as she put my hair up in a pony-tell. My blond hair looked dark with the light in the room. I could see all the bruises on my face and arms. She warped my hands with arc and then pulls bracelets over each of them.