It had been three unbearable weeks without Jordan. He didn’t just break up with me- he was gone. Even his kids hadn’t seen him. The only reason I knew he was still around was because his work was being picked up and turned in but no one ever actually saw him. It was like he was just a ghost, haunting me. I tried to comfort myself with food at first, but then I’d think about him leaving me and I’d throw up. After the 4th time, I just stopped eating.
I mostly laid outside in the sun withering away. I was losing weight and as tired as I was, I couldn’t actually sleep much so I had dark circles under my eyes. I did the bare minimum of work to keep things going but any new clients got passed off to my agents. I just couldn’t. I went 3 whole days without actually speaking out loud.
I just di
