I remember once reading a quote that said: "Sometimes you need to press pause to let everything sink in." I don't know who said it, but at a time like this, I'm glad I remembered it because that was exactly what I needed to do. Too much had happened. It was all too much to wrap my head around and I'm glad to finally be in a quiet space, holding my sister's hand. I pressed her hand to my cheek, taking in a deep breath as I closed my eyes and enjoyed the comfort of her cold hands. I felt her thumb move, gently rubbing my cheek before she squeezed it tightly and I slapped her hand away to which she laughed. "How are you feeling?" I asked her, finally finding my voice and feeling prepared to speak. She looked around the hospital room and then at me, "better," she croaked out before she

