LOVE WITHOUT MEETING

Destiny is not as beautiful as hope

Day after day passed, I became more and more familiar with Ari. Not only good, he is also a figure who is the future husband that every woman dreams of. My parents and their parents have also agreed if we want to take it seriously. But Ari wants him to finish his studies first, which only has two years left. He told me to be patient and focus on studying first in college. And if destiny permits we will get married two years later, after Ari finishes his bachelor's degree.

Unfortunately I was not accepted at the university where Ari studied, because I did not want to disappoint my parents I studied at another university, still in the same city, but the distance was quite far. As long as my parents are happy, I will keep trying to be able to study in the city.

After several weeks of waiting for the results, sure enough I was accepted at the campus. Although the campus is not as big as Ari's campus.

Distance and busyness made our relationship start to fade. He is very difficult to contact and invited to meet. In order to meet him I had to take the initiative to go to his place myself, although he often forbade me because he was very protective of safety.

A big city is not the same as a village, here it is very crowded, dense. Even just crossing to the front takes quite a long time. That's why he often forbade me to meet him.

This time my determination is strong, I have to meet him even though I have to make him feel anxious. I ventured to his place on my motorcycle. Because of God's grace, I arrived safely there. Because I stubbornly wanted to see him, he told me to wait at a cafe not far from the housing where he taught, to increase his tuition fee.

Shortly thereafter he came with two of his male friends and one of his female friends approached me, I smiled at them, especially at him. Instead of returning my smile, he seemed uncomfortable with my presence. His speech was not as usual, this one was a bit harsh. He also became cold with me.

It's almost midnight, I plan to stay at my friend's place which is not far from there, but the access road there is very quiet. Moreover, in this city robberies often occur.

I also said goodbye to go home, and hoped he would take me to my friend's place. But the reality was not as expected. He told me to go home alone. "Come alone, go home alone" those were his words that deeply pierced my heart. I was disappointed in him, why did he change when I opened the pier of my heart to accept him to live here. Has he found another pier, and will he dock at it...

After that incident, our relationship became increasingly tenuous and uncertain. I do have a principle, if I see someone I like uncomfortable with his presence, then I will not bother and look for him again. Why force someone who doesn't want to be with you anymore. Stop and don't hurt yourself. what you should cherish and love the most is yourself.

Goodbye back to the boat that has stopped at my dock, maybe fate won't allow us to stay together here forever. go to the place that is your hope and goal. Once again I say goodbye.

Thank you for taking the time to stop here and try to improve myself, even though in the end you will leave me again. After this I will try to be strong.