Lost in the bad boy ocean

Hazel Before I meet him, I was a simple girl. I didn't know that someone can flip my whole world. And surely, not Noah,i had every right to don't trust him but as the naive girl I was I did. I give him the oprunity to break me. I was a fragile, kind hearted girl but not anymore. Because to fall in love with the monster you have to become like him. Let me tell you the story from the end, its ridiculous how people begin with the start if there is an end Maybe some ends are a new starts Not the end Now, after 3 years, full of emptiness I start to breath again I start to convince my self that I forget about him I shouldn't giveed my heart and soul to him and trust me, i'm sure he forgeted about me since that trembling words that I said when I catched him in the bed with my f*****g ex best-friend " I stayed when they all tolled me to leave" tears runs in my cheeks describing my pain that words is not capable to describe "I loved you with all your bullshit, its all you're fault you done everything possible to brook me." He tried to come closer to me but I taked a step back. we stand there in his yard , the one I used to take care of , i can see the regret in his eyes when he tried to talk but I continue "well congratulations, Noah you succeed. I can't control the emotions running through my veins , I feel like there is no way out. Its too much pain, too much. "in that moment I feelt like my soul quieted my body "Hazie,let me -" he said while passing his hand through his hair. I know he does this when he's nervous, God, I even memorize his f*****g body language " I wasn't -" I stopped him immediately "NO, no,fuck.., you don't get to say goodbye, and don't call me Hazie again" "Goddbye!?,NO, no you are making a shitty decion you should listen to me " he said and he try to put his hand on my arm "You don't tell me what the f**k I do, and stay the hell away from me cuz you will never touch me again " my voice cracked in the end filling the dark night with sadness And by those words I leave as fast as I can. I hear him calling my name but I didn't stop I left L. A, my school, my life there and I decided to start something new somewhere far away for him, my light that now all it means for me is darkness For a girl who just said I start to forget about him this memories feels like yesterday. Actually Noah was my boyfriend for 4 years we met when we was 16 . he was a famous heart breaker and I was unopened rose. I even had my first kiss with him it was magical, he made me feel like a living princess. I hate to admit it but yes I loved him so much and i'm not sure that I stopped. In that 3 years that I stayed away I swear in the night I could feel him playing with my hair. I smell his scent, I see him in my dreams... And when I wake up I feel the wound he left in my heart Anyway I moved to Paris where I tried to heal my self I studied designing and become a successful, famous designer everyone around me was so impressed with my work Even some famous and rich mens in the industry expressed their admiration and crush on me, well I was a beautiful girl with long wavy light brown hair and deep green eyes. but I didn't risk another heart break so I put everything in my work. Its the only think that matters to me.. My family that contains my mother, my older brother Henry , and his wife, Marilyn, my loving best friend (not the b***h that cheated with my bf) their son beck, he is so adorable,and there is also, my cousin jack and his girlfriend Mina. my dad is out of the picture he just leaved us when we was young.. They live in new York city so I visit them every now and then..... One night, my brother Henry called me late and his voice was shaking and he tolled me that our mother was so sick. They had to take her to the hospital. I was so scared the idea of of lossing someone else that I love hunt me but Henry reassured me that she will be okay "I'll be the next flight to NYC brother okay I'll be there " i let Henry know and then I booked my ticket. I guess i'm going home... When my plane landed my brother and my his wife came to pick me from the areport. I was so excited to see them. So when found Henry I jumped into his arms "I missed you two so much, damn it feels like forever since I saw you guys " I mumble while hugging him and Marilyn my bff "We missed you too. aww, bae you look like a f*****g beautiful Parisian lady" Marilyn said loud "oh stop, let me check on mom first and then we complete our chit-chat " I add nervously thinking about mom "Okay, the doctor said its okay to take her home so she's in the house now let's go" We sett out toward the house when I get out of the car I felt the memories flushing me reminding me that I belong also... I run toward the house especially my mommy room but when I opened the door, I found someone else there. someone that i'm struggling to burry him deep down. He was holding a flower bouquet. I swear I can hear my heart beat spped, and when he turn to stare at me with his ocean blue eyes I couldn't look away It was him, Noah. The one that break something inside me can never be fixed again