My savior

Chapter 6

The young doctor sat in front of me, leaving space between us. I bent my knees towards me, scared of him coming near me.

"Don't be scared of me, Eva. I won't hurt you. I just want to know what happened to you. I just met you yesterday, and I felt like I needed to protect you from the world. You don't have to tell me everything. Just some things so I can know what I am dealing with. You can trust me. I won't hurt you or do anything to you until you give me permission. It will only be you and me till this check up is over. We will go slow and at your pace."

For a second there, I thought I could trust him and tell him what happened to me. I thought I could tell him about my father and what he did to me. But in reality, I know I can't trust anyone anymore. I am starting to realise that my father made me have trust issues and androphobia. I can't be myself near any man. I know I look brave from the outside, but from the inside I'm shaking and trembling.

"If you don't want to talk, I'll talk. I'll tell you things about myself, and you will tell me about yourself after I finish. Deal? "

I nodded my head.

"Well, my name is Brian Miller. I'm a doctor at Greens Hospital. I'm 27 years old. I look younger than I look, I know. I live alone in an apartment. I have a dog. Her name is Lexi. I love treating kids and teenagers. "

He smiled at the end when he was done.

"Now your turn."

I kept silent and looked at the ground.

"Umm.. My name is Eva Brown. I'm 16 years old. I'm an only child. "

I was fidgeting with my hands a lot when I talked. It's hard to open up after everything that happened. I couldn't tell him what happened to me. Maybe I will in the future, maybe not. I looked up to see his face after I was done talking, and he looked at me sympathetically.

"Well, that was a good start. Now "

He got up from the couch and went across the room to get a bag that I didn't know was there.

"No! No! Please, No! Don't touch me, please. "

I cried to him.

"Shush, don't worry. I'm not going to do anything without telling you. I told you that before. Don't be afraid of me, Eva. "

He said as he came towards me again and sat on the couch. He put the bag beside him on the floor and looked at me.

"I just need to do a little check up. Can I? I won't hurt you. I'll tell you what I'm going to do, because if there is a serious issue, we will have to go to the hospital. So, can I do a little check up? "

I shook my head, and he sighed. He bent down to get something from the bag, and I panicked. I think he heard me getting panicked because he left that something and looked at me.

"Eva, I need you to breath. I told you I'm not going to do anything. I was just getting the stethoscope to show you. So that you don't get scared of it. "

I calmed down after a while and looked at him. He has a stethoscope in his hands this time. I think he got it when I was calming down.

"Eva, are you scared of doctors? Do the doctors tools scare you? Do you have a bad memory at the doctors? Is that why you were scared of me? "

He asked calmly, and I shook my head at all the questions. Then, he thought of something and then asked me again.

"Do I scare you? As a doctor? "

Again, I shook my head.

"Then, do I scare you as a man? As a human being? As a male? "

I nodded my head this time. He smiled at me sympathetically.

"Well, I won't ask you to tell me what happened, but I want you to know that I'm not going to hurt you. I'm going to just check on your health. So now I just need to listen to your heart with the stethoscope. It won't hurt. You'll just feel something cold on your chest. That's it. I can show you what I will do on myself, then I can do it on you. Deal? You are going to see what I am doing, so don't get scared, OK? "

I nodded my head. He then put the stethoscope inside his ears and moved the head of it over his heart without removing the shirt. He looked at me and said

"Are you ready?"

I readjust my position, putting my legs down on the floor and sitting up straight. He came and crouched in front of me. I got nervous and he sensed it because he returned a sympathetic smile.

"I won't hurt you, I promise."

I then nodded my head to let him know it was okay to begin. He put the cold head on my chest in several places, and then he felt satisfied and took it off.

"See, that wasn't bad, was it?"