A Mate That was Lost

Chapter 14

I growled in frustration as I turned and opened my door to my room. I walk inside and slam the door behind me and let out a frustrated scream. Why was he acting this way? I gave him an opportunity to come into my room for s*x and he turned me down flat. I went into the bathroom and stared into the mirror.

Was it me? Am I not attractive to him?

I shake my head, getting more frustrated and turned on the shower. I quickly stripped out of my clothes and stepped into the shower. As I am scrubbing away the events of the day and the embarrassment of being turned down, I hear someone enter my room.

“Lani,” I hear a voice call.

I can’t identify the voice and quickly think that it’s Alicia. I figured that Brian would have told her what happened today after the battle and she was coming to check on me.

“I’m in here,” I call back.

The door opens and they walk in.

“I realized-,” the voice says and stops mid sentence.

I turn to see what caused them to stop talking and my eyes widen as I see who is standing in the bathroom. It most certainly is not Alicia.

 Jake is standing there, mouth wide open, and staring straight at me. I freeze and feel my cheeks warm. Jake clears his throat and quickly walks out slamming the door. I shake my head and quickly finish up and get out of the shower. I grab my towel and pause when I realized I left my clean clothes in the other room.

“Might as well just walk out there naked,” Diamond chuckles. “He’s already seen you naked so there’s no reason to hide.”

“Are you crazy,” I retorted. “He clearly isn’t interested. He turned me down early when I basically invited him into my bed. Not to mention how quickly he walked out when he saw me naked.”

“Don’t be stupid,” Diamond said. “He is our mate. He was made to love us.”

“Being mates doesn’t mean s**t,” I snapped. “Mates reject each other all the time. Maybe when he saw my body he realized he didn’t want us as mates and is waiting to reject us.”

Diamond growls at the thought and before she can reply I shove her to the back of my mind and block her out. I stare at my dirty clothes contemplating on whether or not I should put them on. I decided not to and just wrapped my towel tightly around my body. I take a deep breath before walking into my room.

I walk into my room and see Jake standing by the window, his back to me. I clear my throat and he turns to look at me.

“I’m sorry for barging into your room,” Jake said, quietly. “I knocked but when you didn’t answer I just walked in and called for you. I heard you call from the bathroom. I should have waited for you to come out instead of just walking in.”

I search his face for any signs of disgust or regret. His face is a perfect mask of calm indifference. I feel even more embarrassed and quickly look away.

“It’s fine,” I said, voice cracking from emotion.

I feel my eyes well up with tears and I turn before he can see them fall. I can feel Jake’s eyes on me but I don’t turn around. I walk over to my bed and snatch up my clothes.

“I’ll just get changed in the closet,” I said, my voice cracked a little.

That doesn’t go unnoticed by Jake because he grabs my elbow before I can take a step to the closet. I didn’t even hear him walk up to me. I gasp at the sparks shooting up my arm from the contact. Jake turns me around and I keep my head down to avoid looking him in the eye. He grabs my chin and tilts my head up so I am forced to look him in the eye.

“Hey, what’s wrong,” Jake asks, concern clear on his face.

 I shake my head and try to pull away. Jake lets go of my elbow and snakes his arm around my waist pulling me closer. I try and break out of his grasp but he tightens his hold to keep me against him.

“Tell me what’s wrong,” Jake said.

“It’s nothing,” I said, voice trembling. “You don’t have to pretend, anymore. You clearly don’t think I am attractive. You should just reject me-.”

I don’t get to finish my sentence because Jake crushes his lips on mine silencing me. He kisses me hard and I can’t help but moan. When he pulls away he leans his forehead against mine.

“Why would you think I don’t find you attractive,” he murmurs, looking deep into my eyes.

I don’t respond and avert my gaze. Jake looks at me confused for a few more minutes before realization suddenly hits him.

“Is it because I told you I wouldn’t come in tonight,” Jake asks.

I nod my head and I can feel my eyes water again.

“You also left pretty quickly when you saw me in the shower,” I said, quietly looking away.

I feel Jake staring at me and I look up at him. Suddenly, Jake throws his head back and laughs. I frown at his reaction.

“What is so funny,” I said.

“Nothing,” Jake laughs. 

I stand there as he continues to laugh, waiting for him to explain. He finally sobers up a little and looks back at me, amusement dancing in his eyes.

“Lani,” Jake said, chuckling. “I told you that I couldn’t come in tonight because I don’t want you to think that I am just doing all this to get in your bed. I want to take things slow and wait until you are absolutely ready and I walked out of the bathroom quickly because when I saw you naked all I could think about was stripping and joining you in the shower and taking you right then and there. It took everything I had to walk away.”

My eyes widened at his explanation. A giggle escapes my lips as I realize that I really was being stupid. I look back up at Jake through my eyelashes putting on my best seductive smile.

“I wouldn’t have minded if you joined me in the shower,” I said.

Jake quickly sobers up and looks me in the eye. He searches my face for something. When he doesn’t find it he gulps and his eyes darken. His grip around me tightens. I put my hands on his chest and watched him carefully.

“Lani,” Jake said, slowly. “I want you. I want you so bad it physically hurts. I don’t want you to ever think that I don’t.”

I nod my head, sliding my hands up his check. I tangle my hands in his hair and gently pull. Jake growls and his eyes darken even more. I smile at him and gently pull his lips to mine giving him plenty of time to refuse. He doesn’t and our lips meet. The kiss is slow and tender. I let my tongue graze the bottom of his lip asking for permission to enter and when he opens his mouth I quickly plunge my tongue into his mouth. 

Jake moans and pulls me closer. The hind that was gripping my chin gently moves to the back of my head. He grips my hair and gently pulls making me gasp. Our kiss quickly turns heated and our tongues dance with each other. I let go of his hair and let my hands travel down his chest and to the bottom of his shirt. I tug his shirt up and Jake pulls away. His eyes search mine.

“Are you absolutely sure,” Jake asked. Eyes carefully searching mine.

I don’t respond and instead pull his shirt further up. He lets go of me so I can take his shirt off. When his shirt is off he reaches for me again pulling me in for another kiss. This kiss is more urgent and desperate. Jake moans as my lips leave his and travel down his jaw and to his neck. I lick and nibble on his neck. My hands are on his chest and I can feel his heartbeat race. I smile as I nip the spot where my mark would go. He gasps and growls in approval. I let one of my hands travel down to the hem of his shorts. Before he can say anything I plunge my hand into his shorts.

I gasp at how hard he already is. I gently grab his hardened length and gently stroke. Jake throws his head back.

“Oh Lani,” Jake moans.

I stroke him for a while before grabbing his shorts and pulling them down. Jake growls and crashes his lips onto mine. I break the kiss and step away. Jake watches me and I look at him smirking. I tug on my towel causing it to drop. The towel falls to my feet and Jake’s eyes rake over my body. Jake licks his lips and stalks toward me. I back up until the bed hits the back of my knees. Jake gently pushes me on to the bed.

He nudges my legs apart and crawls up my body. He quickly kisses my lips.

“We are gonna do this right,” Jake said. “I am going to taste every inch of you and make you scream my name.”

I gulp and nod my head. Jake kisses me again. He leaves my lips trailing kisses over my jaw to my neck. He sucks and nibbles my neck. He gently bites the spot on my neck where his mark will go. My back arches and I feel him smile. He leaves that spot and continues his trail down my body. He stops at my breast, kissing each of them. Then he takes one of my n*****s into his mouth and gently sucks. I gasp at the contact and moan. He switches to the other breast and he does the same. Just when I am not able to stand it anymore he lets go and kisses his way down to where I ache for him the most.

He pauses and nudges my legs apart even more and I am left bare to his gaze. He licks his lips and looks up at me. He smirks and takes his thumb and rubs my aching bud. I buck my hips and moan loudly.

“So wet,” Jake murmurs.

He continues to rub and before long I explode in pure ecstasy.

“Oh, mmmm,” I moan.

He continues to rub and after a while he uses a finger to rub around my entrance before plunging it inside.

“So f*****g tight,” Jake moans.

He doesn’t move, letting me adjust. When he feels like I have adjusted he starts to move his finger in and out while rubbing my mound with his thumb. It’s not long before I am exploding with another orgasm. He gently adds another finger and continues his movements. I am writhing on the bed in pure pleasure.

“Jake, please,” I pant, moaning.

“Please what, baby,” Jake smirks.

“Please f**k me,” I beg.

Jake moves his hand faster, curling his fingers hitting my g-spot. I scream as I am racked with another orgasm.

“That’s right, baby,” Jake said. “c*m for me.”

When my orgasm subsides he removes his hand and sucks off my juices from his fingers.

“You taste so good,” Jake groans.

When he is finished he crawls up my body and kisses me. I taste myself on his lips and I moan. He positions himself at my entrance. He looks me in the eyes.

“This is gonna hurt okay, love,” Jake said.

I nod my head and Jake gently pushes himself inside. I feel a sharp pain and I whimper, tears spilling from my eyes. Jake kisses my tears away and doesn’t move as I adjust to him. After a while the pain eases and I nod at him telling him it’s okay to move. He grunts as he moves slowly. The pain quickly turned into pleasure and soon I was moaning his name.

“Jake,” I moan, moving my hips with his.

Jake thrusts into me with more urgency.

“Lani, you are so f*****g tight,” he moans. “Goddess, you feel so good.”

Jake starts to thrust even faster and I am driven over the edge again screaming his name. Jake thrusts a few more times before he joins me, screaming my name. He collapses on top of me, breathing hard. We lay there catching our breaths before he rolls off of me. He gets up and disappears into the bathroom. When he comes back he has a washcloth and he walks over to me and cleans me up. When he is done he picks me up and walks me to the other end of the bed he shifts so he is holding me with one arm and pulls the blankets back. He gently puts me down and tucks me in. I watch as he walks to the other side and gets in. When he is settled he reaches for me and pulls me to him.

“Lani,” Jake says, once we are comfortable. “That was the best s*x I have ever had. I hope I didn’t hurt you too bad.”

“It hurt a lot,” I said. “But you were so gentle and took care of me so it wasn’t too bad. It was amazing.”

Jake kisses the top of my head and settles back.

“I hope you won’t regret it in the morning,” Jake says, slowly. “I really was trying to take it slow and give you time to forgive me for everything.”

I sit up and look up at him.

“Jake,” I said, sternly. “I won’t ever regret this. I saved myself for you. You were the only one I wanted to share this experience with you. I may not completely forgive you for everything yet but I am willing to try and make this work. With that being said I would rather wait to mark each other. I don’t want you to ever think that I will regret this.”

Jake search’s my face and when he is satisfied he nods and smiles. He leans up and captures my lips with his. The kiss is slow and tender filled with nothing but love. When he breaks the kiss he strokes my cheek with his thumb. I sigh and lay my head back on his chest.

I lay there and listen as his breathing slows signaling that he has fallen asleep. I sigh and close my eyes and it isn’t long before sleep claims me.