Rename the White and Black

CHAPTER XIV - EXPRESS MYSELF

I slept until noon and I woke up to prepare for an afternoon class. Haji went in our house and lent me his notes. We walked to go to school and he made some jokes that made me laugh.

“Flirt girl. He already have Kai, then, she was hanging out with Haji?” I heard from a girl with her friends while we were walking on the hall.

“She doesn’t deserve Kai,” the other said and everybody agreed.

“They were engaged, right? May be, she was not the type of girl that Kai wanted?” and they agreed.

Haji put his headphone to my ears and I heard my favorite song. I smiled and I ignored the stupid things around us.

“Sae, stay safe,” he said with a grin. He sat on his seat and he put his headphone back on his neck. I opened my locker and I saw a letter. I picked it and I went to the restroom.

Please, see me at the tower at 5:00pm.

I wonder that it had no name. May be, it was something important. The two doors of cubicle were opened at my back. They were Arah and Adriana, the two friends of Tamara if I was not mistaken.

“Happy now, b***h?” Arah questioned with her annoyed face.

“Don’t try to get closer to Kai. He’s the boyfriend of Tamara and if you think that this is the end of your calvary, you’re wrong.” Adriana said fiercely and she pointed at me. “Don’t dare to get him.”

“You’ll be dead.” Arah added and they went away. Was that a threat?

I told Haji to look after me when I go to the tower later at five in the afternoon. I think this was a trap or anything that would make me in trouble. I would not let them bully me again. I hope that this would be the last.

“I’ll make sure that you’ll be safe.” he whispered. Our class was still on going and I felt nervous to whom I would meet at the tower. May be the two girls again who would like ruin me in this school.

“Don’t worry, Sae. I know that you’re brave enough to face this.” He smiled and I went to the tower. I felt the wind blowing my hair. At a corner, I saw a small container box and when I opened it, I screamed.

“What happened?” Haji went to me so quick. He was holding my arms and he tried to calm me. I pointed to the small box and I closed my eyes; getting closer to his chest.

“Rats were dead inside the box.” I answered trembling with fear. We smelled its stank smell and it made us to ran away.

“I think it is a bad sign.” I was catching my breath with him. We stopped running near the gate.

“Something bad will happen if you see something like that.” He snorted. “Who did it?” His eyes widened and whispered to my ear, “It was Tamara. I heard that she was doing that to all girls who liked Kai.” Goose bumps.

“I should be careful this time. May be, she wanted me to get scared.” I courageously said to him. He patted my shoulders; making me to feel his support.

He took me at home and we were laughing together when we reached the door of our house. Kai opened the door before I opened it.

He looked serious and he pulled Haji instead of me. He pushed him to the couch and I thought he would punch him but he sat beside him.

“Shoo!” I pointed to myself and he nodded. “Just give us snacks.” He added. I rushed to the kitchen and I put the cookies on a big bowl. I picked three cans of sprite and put it all on a tray. What came to his mind and he was not hot headed today? I thought he did not like Haji?

When I returned at the living room, I saw Kai looked furiously at Haji. Haji looked frightened. “Stop this, Kai. We’re like brothers, right?” He attempted to tap the shoulders of Kai. He moved a little away from him and smiled at me. “Yes! Time for snacks.”

I smiled at them and looked at Kai fiercely. My smile disappeared when he smiled at me. What was he doing? A can of sprite was accidentally dropped at the floor. Haji and I picked it together, smiling with each other. Kai got it from us and he drank it. I almost laugh when I saw his reaction but I held it back.

“Did you bake it?” Haji asked me smiling and I nodded.

“I added a strawberry flavor in it for the first time.” I smiled shyly, making Kai feel uncomfortable. I intended to do this to see his reaction. Haji’s smile disappeared when he noticed that I was using him as a bait to make Kai jealous and he looked away to me.

“It’s getting late.” he said nervously.

“I’ll take you to the gate.” I grinned. He looked at Kai and he pulled me away.

“What are you doing? Are you out of your mind? He looked like a jealous monster.” He whispered at me. We did not notice Kai at our back and he tapped our shoulders.

“Who were you calling a jealous monster?” he asked us. His eyes were blank. He was emotionless this time and it made me panicked. I pushed Haji to get out and I said goodbye.

“You did not hear it well. We were just talking about the blockbuster movie.” I smiled. He pulled my arm and I looked at him. “Is there any problem?” He just looked away and he removed his hand.

He remained silent when we were eating our dinner. He looked creepy and I was afraid to start a conversation. He was weird these past few days. It was started when we were in our mansion. He was childish when he slept on my bed. As I remember how he looked like, I did not notice that I was grinning.

“What’s with that grin?” He looked at me curiously.

“Nothing.” My smile disappeared when he asked me.

I really enjoyed the food this night and I made myself busy with our assignments. I used to bun my hair every time I was doing my assignments. I did not mind him next to me doing his assignments too. I was sleepy when I almost finished the last assignment. I think I could not take it anymore and I let my system to rest for awhile.

Kai went to me and he put a small blanket on my shoulders. I secretly smiled at his actions. I opened my eyes and I realized that it was a dream.

I looked clearly at the face close to me; it was Kai with his eyes closed. I closed my eyes quickly when he moved his head up. I stopped myself from breathing when he kissed my forehead.

I think that he was really a tender guy. He was unable to express his feelings to anyone and he had his reason why. I wish he could tell me. What if, I help him? What should I do? No, I should not.

I felt his presence watching me close to his face. I slowly opened my eyes and I found him looking at me with his reddened face and his smile disappeared.

He quickly laid to the bed and put the quilt above his head. I laughed a little to his reaction and it made my heart raced rapidly. He was stuck but he had his sweet side that would make a girl like him. I covered my mouth as I held my laugh and I looked at him. He could not see my reactions now. I could not stop myself smiling from his blushing face.

Oops. No, Sae! Stop thinking about it. Are you crazy? He was using his charms to make you fall. Remember, he said that you should not fell in love with him but I think it would be hard to do.

I laid on my bed and put the quilt above my head. I would not let him see how red my face was. My heart seemed to flutter when I remember it. I did not notice his presence on my bed. He pulled down the quilt and I pretended that I already fell asleep. What was he doing?

“I’m sorry about last night. I didn’t mean it,” he whispered sincerely. I almost smiled but I stopped myself.

He carried me to his bed and covered me with a quilt. I felt his weight on the cushion and he came closer to me. I moved sideward, not facing him. He wrapped his hand on my waist and he pulled me.

How could he do this to me? I felt the butterflies fluttering in my stomach. I could not help myself on his back hug. I slowly moved after twenty minutes and he leaned his forehead on my nape. He freed his deep breath that made my heart to pound rapidly. I wanted to get away from him before my heart burst into pieces.

I started to remove his hand on my stomach but he leaned closer. I felt his chest on my back and I could not move. I realized that I was sweating when I realized that I felt his warmth.

I think that we looked like a couple in this awkward position with him. I did not notice myself sleeping so fast until I was alarmed. He was making me uncomfortable when he started to caress my stomach. His hand was tickling me so, I stopped his hand.

He was really annoying! How could I sleep well? I need to guard myself from him.