Torn between two alpha

chapter five

/ Seraphina /

Months had passed now and Kaiser was still the only one aware of the truth. He hadn’t told his family that he wasn’t the father of the child I was carrying which I appreciated.

“ Oh my, where are you headed with your belly like that?” Melinda watched me come down the stairs

“ I actually want to go shopping. I’m tired of staying holed up till I give birth,” I voiced my frustration.

“ But still… I’m worried about you,” she said. “ I wouldn’t want you to do anything that would strain you. Have you told Kaiser?”

“ Yes, he said it’s fine as long as I have someone accompany me,” I smiled. He had actually said that which made him seem less unaffectionate. It was nearly as if he cared about I and the baby’s health. I should give him own child soon.

“ I guess he’s right. Please be careful out there,” she pleaded with me.

“ I will,” I nodded my head. I got to the car which was already waiting for me. I was being accompanied by my driver and a bodyguard.

“ It’s been forever since I was this free,” I inhaled the fresh air once I was in front of the mall. I hadn’t been to the mall in years. Every other time I went to the mall, I literally was just accompanying Clara. I hurried towards the mall and the guard assigned to me followed me.

“ Ma’am, please don’t run or leave my sight,” he pleaded, not wanting anything to happen to me. I should consider his position before doing anything rash.

“ Sorry, I’ll try my best not to do that,” I apologized to him.

“ There was no need for you to apologize,” he felt awkward hearing me apologize.

“ It’s fine. Let’s just take a look around,” I suggested and he grabbed a trolley. I walked into any shop I saw and checked their items on display. I ended up buying a lot more than I had expected. “ I might be buying too much,” I muttered.

“ Did you say something, ma’am?” My bodyguard questioned.

“ I was just saying that we should go home now,” I smiled. I enjoyed shopping today but I didn’t want to spend recklessly given how this was Kaiser’s card and not mine - I didn’t even have a card.

“ Alright,” he said as he helped me carry all my stuff. I felt bad for having him do all the work.

We got on the escalator and two children brushed passed me, running and laughing.

“ Stop it right there, you two!” The adult who I assumed was their mom yelled after them. It happened so quickly, a push against back. I lost my balance and found myself tumbling down the escalator.

“ Ma’am!” My bodyguard panicked as he rushed towards me. The woman who had pushed me by mistake panicked. I saw my guard’s lips moving but I couldn’t make out what he was saying. Just as I had begun to faint, I felt a sharp pain. I was having contractions.

“ I think the baby is coming out,” I reached out to him, my voice faint and my breaths heavy.

I woke up to the smell of a sterile room and an IV drip attached to my hand. I remember being rushed to the hospital but… My eyes widened when everything came back to me, I had fallen and rushed to the hospital because I got into labour and was bleeding.

“ You’re awake?” a young doctor walked in with Kaiser following behind.

“ Where’s my baby?” I asked. I just wanted to know what was going on, my health stats could come later.

“ Alpha Kaiser maybe you should just…” he looked at Kaiser who quickly turned his head away from him.

“ Don’t push your job on me,” he mumbled.

“ D-Did something happen?” I began to panic even more.

“ I’m sorry but your baby didn’t make it. It was a case of still birth,” he broke the news to me and I sat there broken, shattered and confused. Tears rolled down my cheeks steadily and from silently crying, I cried and screamed. I couldn’t hold back the pain anymore. I blamed myself and resented my actions. If I had just stayed at home, none of this would have happened.

The doctor nudged Kaiser quite a bit and with a sigh, he walked up to me and placed a hand on my head and rubbed my head.

“ It’s not such a bad thing because you shouldn’t be spending your teenage life being a mother so don’t blame yourself,” he said.

I didn’t know if I was being overly sensitive and if I was overreacting but how could he say that to me right now?

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A year later

A year had passed since the loss of my child and things between I and Kaiser hadn’t changed. To be frank, it had gotten worse because ever since the loss of my child, I haven’t made any effort to draw close to him and he as usual wasn’t bothered. He has even told me that I could sleep in a separate room if I didn’t feel comfortable.

“ The documents you requested for, ma’am,” the personal assistant Kaiser had given me walked into my room and handed me the documents I had requested for.

“ Thank you. I hope he doesn’t know about it?” I asked.

“ Alpha Kaiser tends to mind his business so he didn’t even bother to get anyone to follow me,” she reported. “ But are you sure of this?” She worried.

“ Yes, I am,” I forced a smile.

“ You can leave,” I dismissed her before stepping out of my room. I headed to Kaiser’s study.

“ Come in,” he let me in after I knocked. “ It’s surprising to see you here,” he was moderately surprised since I’ve not gone out of my way to see him for a year now.

“ I have something to say to you,” I clenched the file in my hands.

“ Go on,” he left what he was doing and paid keen attention to me.

“ It doesn’t feel like we’re married, it just feels like we’re living together. We don’t do anything couples do, you won’t even sleep with me. I had initially thought that maybe you had someone outside but you’re just simply disinterested in me,” I bit my lower lip. He acted more like an unbothered benefactor than a husband.

“ In summary?” He probed.

“ I-I don’t think this marriage can work out,” I held back my tears. I had truly fallen for him but I just couldn’t continue like this.

“ I’m guessing what you’re holding is the divorce papers for me to sign,” he wasn’t even shocked or surprised.

“ Yes,” my voice was low.

“ I’ll sign them. You don’t have to feel guilty about doing what you feel is right,” he said and I handed it over to him.

“ Why won’t you even attempt to say no or salvage our relationship!?” I hated how he just accepted everything. How could one be this unbothered?

“ I don’t know, maybe it’s because you need something other than a relationship right now,” he shrugged as he skimmed through.

“ Don’t you love me even a little bit?” I had already begun to cry.

“ I don’t hate you,” that was his response. “ Here,” he signed everything and handed it back to me.

“ I’ll get my assistant to send your compensation money. I hope you get to do things you actually like now.”

I didn’t know whether to appreciate him or to resent him. Even though he didn’t feel the same way for me, he never once treated me badly.

“ Thank you for everything so far. Goodbye,” I bowed my head slightly, my tears dropping to the floor. I was truly unlucky in love.