Twisted Fate

** Chapter one ** If you had asked me 25 years ago if I thought I would be where I am today, I would have told you Hell No. My name is MJ and this is my story. I don't know how this ends and I don't know where I went wrong in this life. All I know is I'm in love with a felony. Jay was the man that woke me up and brought me back to life. I can say I didn't have the best childhood. I was a wild teen and my twenties were spent selling and doing drugs. I married the wrong man the first time that beat me and cheated on me for almost seventeen years. When I had enough, I finally left him. The only thing I got from a loveless marriage was three beautiful kids, Darian,Lucas and Alanni. My world revolves around them. I'm going to start where it all began for me in 2018. I made Ed move out. I had caught him cheating for the 12th time with a different female every time. He was living in the budget Inn hotel in Palatka, Florida. It was a small roach backwoods crack hotel. We had been separated for almost a month. This time I remember the day like it was yesterday. He called crying, saying he just wanted to come home. I felt so bad all day because he was living that way, so I stood in front of the stove. That night I made shrimp pasta. My cousin Jodi came over and we were talking. She told me to call him to see if he was hungry. So I did and he said he was starving. I remember smiling so big cause I could hear how happy he was in his voice so it made me happy. I told him I would bring it to him and he started freaking out. Said no i'll come there i just got off let me get a shower and i'll be there. I said okay and sat there. I knew something was wrong. I could feel it in my stomach. I got up, made a plate and told my cousin to watch the kids as I drove to the hotel. I knew I was correct. I watched them walk into the hotel together and I watched him kiss her at the door. I cried in my car. I swear to myself that day that I would never cry over him again and I never did. As i knocked on the door i had the pasta in my hand when he answered the door you could see it on his face he knew he was busted. Can I come in? What are you doing here? I brought you dinner. “ Ed who's at the door” he tried to shut the door real fast as I tried to push past him. It didn't work. I would have done anything to get in that room that day. I remember screaming and kicking the door. I remember showing out so bad the law was called. I went home that night and I swear I was done. I did not know then I was lying to myself. The next day i found out who the girl was off, cause she was one of the town hoe’s and dope heads. While finding out who she was i also found out she had a boyfriend. I didn't know it then but he was in jail i had never heard of him hell i didn't know half the people in my town i lived a different life. Even went as far as looking him up in jail I was planning to bond him out. By the time I figured it all out he was out. I found him on f*******:, and I wrote to him letting him know what all had happened and to my Surprise he was aware. He was really easy to talk to and even with everything going on he made me laugh. He told me he knew my husband and had no idea he had a wife. To say he was Shocked was an understatement. I wish I could say that we stopped talking after that day but we didn't. We talked for a few days. I didn't know much about him but that he had bad taste in women. We talked on the phone and it always made me smile and laugh. One day when we were talking he asked me if I wanted to get even with them. I didnt even Think about it. I said No , that is not who I am. We talked a few more times on the phone and he even tried to come see me once I would not walk outside and meet him. I didn't know why at the time but I was scared of guys. I would soon find that out. A few weeks went by and I ended up getting back with my husband because yes I was dum. I never heard from Jared again. I figured he moved on with his life. Somewhere down the road I heard he got in trouble and went to jail. I was trying to fix my marriage so I didn't give it another thought. In January 2019 I caught my husband cheating again. I made him leave and I never looked back. I didn't cry this time. I walked away but I lost myself again. I started overeating and I got really depressed. I stopped living. I went to work and came home and slept. I let myself get up to 255 pounds. My oldest son stepped up to me one day and said mom get up this is enough. you need to move on and love yourself. I didn't know how much I needed to open my eyes. I got myself together and started losing weight and living my life the best I could. I knew I was not fixed; I knew I was still broken. I did not know what I needed to fix me or if I could fix me. On the way home from work one day, I had to stop and get gas. I didn't know that day would change my life forever. As I was pumping gas one of my ex-husband's old friends, Carrie, walked up to me and started talking she would not shut up to save her life i could tell she was high. But as i was telling her i had to go she said i talked to Jay the other day. I stopped getting in my car and started talking to her. How is he? He's really good. He's in prison. I felt my heart drop. I felt so bad for him what could have happened that he ended up there. I told her i had to go and i rushed home i was so determined to see what he did and how he was when i opened my laptop and looked into the department of corrections i could not believe what i was seeing. /1015/2017 DRIV W/LIC S/R/C/D FELONY 12/03/2018 PUTNAM 1701335 5Y 0M 0D 10/15/2017 OTH.DRUG-SALE/MANUF/DELI 12/03/2018 PUTNAM 1701335 5Y 0M 0D 10/15/2017 POSS.CONTROL.SUBS/OTHER 12/03/2018 PUTNAM 1701335 5Y 0M 0D 10/15/2017 POSS.CONTROL.SUBS/OTHER 12/03/2018 PUTNAM 1701335 5Y 0M 0D 12/21/2017 BURGL OCCUPIED CONVEYANCE 12/03/2018 PUTNAM 1701679 5Y 0M 0D 02/12/2018 S/M/D METH 12/03/2018 PUTNAM 1800249 5Y 0M 0D 02/12/2018 GRAND THEFT,300 L/5,000 12/03/2018 PUTNAM 1800308 5Y 0M 0D 02/12/2018 TRAFFIC IN STOLEN PROPERTY 12/03/2018 PUTNAM 1800308 5Y 0M 0D I remember thinking I don't care; I'm going to write to him to make sure he is ok. I thought for sure I was going to have to write a handwritten letter but to my surprise i didn't they had something called JPAY. I sat in front of my laptop for 30 minutes. I wrote 5 different messages before I found the right one that made it sound like I was just saying hey. I was so scared. What if he didn't write me back, what if he didn't want to talk to me. I gave in and hit send. I sat there for two hours looking at my email. I had almost given up; I was crushed, and I didn't know why. I was just fixing to close my laptop when I heard the email ding. I got up and walked around. I was pacing back and forth. I was scared to open the email I finally gave in after thirty minutes. The first words I read where amazing “that's kind of crazy cause I just thought about u the other day too” Email 1 that's kind of crazy cause I just thought about u the other day too...I'm glad u wrote me and continue to do so...if u want me to write back send me sum stamps and I will this is my last one...it's good to hear from someone from the outside...I don't talk to anyone out there and just stay to myself in here...my mom writes me but that is mom u know what I mean...so I'd really like to talk to u if it's possible...I haven't heard from nobody from home except Carrie she wrote me a postcard or two but I think she got locked up to and she's like talking to another mom figure...I mean she always tried me if we hung out and wanted me to mess with her but that will never happen...so what's good out there wit u what u been up to??? Are u single yet??? lol...things in here suck pretty much and especially since this corona s**t hit...I try to stay out a the chow hall and away from ppl as much as I can but I don't get money so I gotta eat...it would be so much easier I tried to tell my mom if I could leave the dorm 1 time a week and get my food instead of 3 times a day so I could stay inside and eat outta my locker but she refuses to send me any money but I've grown to accept it I guess...it is what it is and she's not obligated to help me I just thought she might since this s**t has gotten bad...but oh well guess I shouldn't of got locked up...so what's up with u and what u made u think of me??? and don't take this the wrong way but u might as well say what's been on your mind cause u don't keep finding me and hitting me up for nothing...lol...I'm saying this in hopes to get a good answer from u cause even in an place like this we damn sure gotta take baby steps for sure...and remember this is my last stamp so if u don't send me sum I won't be able to write back until Friday when they give us 4 free ones... it was so good to hear from h and u couldn't slap the smile off my face right now and just know it all because of u....always Jay With just that one email my whole life changed, and I knew right then and there I was done for I was his was Was I going to admit that to him not on my life lol.