The next was a wednsday, Trevor was the one driving me to school again.i hate to say it but being next to him somehow felt so good.we were outside our gate when he decided to get out and give me one hell of a warm hug,little did i know that he was playing games with me.I saw Lisa standing by the gate and she gave me one ugly stare,her eyes shifted to someone and i followed them. Boom James was here, he was leaning on his car in his school uniform. I felt like the world could swallow me. I looked back at Trevor and he just winked at me. This guy gotta be kidding me. I had 10 minute so i went to him, he looked at me and smiled. How does he do it.
Me: what a suprise
James: thought i could come by and see my princess since it been a while
Me: but baby, it is just a day
James: that alone could kill me
I smiled genuinely, what the heck is wrong with me
Me: I’m glad you came, i missed you
James: doesn't seem like it
Me: babe it’s not like that
James: i didn't say anything my love
Me:i gotta go love, we will speak right
Him: will come by after school
Me: but….
He didn't allow me to finish
Him: you owe me
I just nodded, now i have to find a way to dodge Trevor. I dragged my feet to the assemble and within hours it was break time.We went to the school canteen , Nina bought meat pie and coke while i took with sparkling water. I had no appetite. We sat next to the Basketball ground and started talking non stop.
Nina: so i did it
Me: you did what??
Nina: i finally lost my virginity babe
My mouth just opened up so wide that she started getting embarassed
Me: ooh
Nina: you sound disappointed dear
Me: just wasn't expecting you to tell me that
Nina: i know right it crazy,but it worth it
Me: so how was it, i mean it hurts right
Nina: very much babe…but if he is patience and caring it’s better
Me: wow so you are a woman now
Nina: and it feels so good
I laughed. We talked the whole hour and got back to our classes,the bell rang and it was school out. I really hoped Trevor was late. We went out and to my suprise they were both there.
Me: what do i do now
I asked Nina who looked clueless too
Nina: i don’t know babe you put yourself in this situation you gotta drag yourself out too.
Me: you dont think i know that
Nina: heeey booo dont give me that attitude, you love James but you kissed Trevor...
Me: what that supposed to mean
Nina: you are confused b***h and you messing the only safe relationship you have.
Me: aren't you supposed to be on my side
Her: not when you playing with people's heart, James loves you sweetie but you busy screwing him up.
I left her there, she was not helping
Nina was just bitter, guess the d**k got to her. I went to Trevor and knocked at his car window.
Me: i cant go with you
Trevor : you can’t or you don’t want to Me:James is waiting for me, see you at home.
Trevor: okay.
Wow i expected him to try and convince me like what the hell….i walked to James who just looked at me emotionless.
Me: you came
James: i don’t disappoint babe.
I smiled and got in.
James : you good, food or a drink??
Me: I’m hungry
James : McDonald or??
Me: nah just pizza .
James :okay
He then , started the car and we drove to town. He was silence i could tell his mind was somewhere else. We bought the pizza and chilled at the nearest park.
James : you can tell me anything you know
Me: of course I know
James : you coping at school
Me: yeah, you know i got the mind, just like my babe.
He smiled
James : i don’t wanna lose you
Me: but you won’t
James : it doesn't seem that way
Me: please don’t read too much in something that isn’t there
James: i just cant imagine my life without you, and seeing you with him breaks me
Me: i know im sorry, but it out of my control
James; I know, i trust you my love
Me: i love you sweetheart
We talked till 5pm.
My mom's call interupting us from our moment
Me: mom
Mom: dont mom me Emily Brown dont
Wow
Me: what is wrong
Mom : where are you?
Me: out with friends
Mom: You want your father to kill that boy, right?
Me: but ma
Mom: i told you what good for you, i hate this myself but i cant let you persuade your relationship with the that boy.
Me: I hear you
Her: now go home
Me: okay
She dropped the call and i just threw myself in James’s hand. He hugged me so tight.
Me: they don't want us together
James : it will be fine love
Me: it wont be James, my dad hate you
James : and my father hates him love, but he allowed me to love you, he doesn't involve himself in my love life.
Me: well your dad aint mine.
We stayed for a few more minutes then left. He drove me back home. There was no one so i just went to my room and slipped it off.
Trevor:
After Emily left with her boyfriend, Nina came to me and we went to my hotel room in town.I been seeing Nina for a few months now and she understands my grounds. She is not allowed to talk about us to anyone.Yesterday i broke her virginity. Yeah she was a virgin and i didn’t trust her up until it happened.
Im not falling for her, i love Emily and im just wasting time with her friend. I’m not a bad guy but Nina got the body any man could not resist.
Me: you good??
I looked at her. She seemed out of this world.We just had two damn rounds and she looked so tired. Well she is still not used to s*x but in time we will get there.
If only I could break Emily , that would be something to celebrate.
Nina : I’m just sleepy and tired
Trevor : okay fine , it already late so you can spend the night. Her face lighted up, i wonder why
Nina : we gonna spend the night here
Trevor : no doll you gonna spend the night, im going.
I could see the disappointment in her face so i just stood up and left to the bathroom.Within a minute I was done , I walked back to the room only to find the bed empty . I took out my phone and called her.
Trevor : where are you
Nina : on my way home
I found myself getting angry, im the one who is supposed to make her feel bad
Trevor : and you didn't care to let me know
Nina : bro chill im going home
Trevor : you know what it cool.
I drop the call and went out. I won't be stressed by teenangers. I arrived at the Brown's house. Beauty wasn't home so i guess she was busy with something. We had no one to prepare food for us so i just ordered pizza and called Emily . She had locked herself up and it was now 9pm.
Trevor : you cant ignore me forever
Emily : what is so special about you that i can’t lock myself just because of you.
Ouch that hurts but i did not put it in my heart. it’s true that Emily love this boy but the fact remains. She belongs with me and i got the parents to back me up.
Me: okay then prove it, come out
She opened the door and led the way to the kitchen
Emily : what for dinner.
Trevor : pizza
Emily : where is sis Beauty
Trevor : out i guess
Emily : so I’m all alone with you here.
Trevor :" you said it yourself love
Emily : where is the pizza
Trevor ; microwave darling
She chuckled and took three pieces. We ate watching tv. By past 9 we were done.
Emily ; im off to bed..goodnight
Trevor : night my love
She looked at me and smiled. How i wish i could kiss her right now. I stood up and went to her. She looked at me and shook her head.
Emily: i cant keep on doing this Tee
Trevor : you dont have to
Emily : just leave me alone please
Trevor : but how do i do that babe
Emily : start by calling me by my name please
Trevor : what wrong with me giving you pet names
Emily : only my boyfriend is allowed to give me pet names I chuckled
Trevor : so am i a threat??
She looked at me and i could see that there was still something there.
Trevor : you can start by answering my questions
Emily : i just dont want you to get the wrong idea Tee i love James
Trevor : what about me
Emily : you are my past that my parents keep on reminding me with
Trevor : dont include your parents Emily , what do you feel
Emily : nothing i feel nothing.
I got closer to her, held her waist and touched her breast with my other arm. I kissed her and she replied. I went to her ears and started biting them while my other hand squeezed her butt and a few moans escape from her mouth. I kissed her again and lifted her up to the kitchen counter. She was breathing so hard and i was controlling myself. She looked at me with her bedroom Eyes and i knew i had hitted the spot.
Trevor : do you want me to continue??
Emily : mmhm i i Tee i we
Words failed her i picked her up and we went to her bedroom.
Whatever i was feeling was out of this world. Trevor carried me to my bedroom all the way he was kissing and squeezing my breast. It felt so good i wont lie. We got to my room and he slowly putted me down on my bed. He started undressing me while kissing the hell out of me.Suddenly flashes blocked my sight, James’s words played in my mind " i trust you my love " repeatedly they didn't stop. By that time Trevor was unbuttoning his pants. He came closer and got in between my legs. James’s face appeared in my eyes. I started screaming.
Emily : stop … stop…stop it Tee please
His looks changed, he was dissapointed.
Trevor : Emily please ,i won’t hurt you babe.
Emily : stop stop talking just get the hell out of my room.
Trevor : what wrong with you woman
Emily : i dont want you Tee, I’m making a horrible mistake.
I got in my covers since he was staring at me non stop.
Trevor : why are you blocking your heart , you know you want me.
Emily : maybe i do but i want James more
Trevor : so you saying I’m not enough
Emily : i love James so get the hell out
Trevor : you choosing that boy over me
Emily : i didn't my heart did. I cant hurt him I’m sorry
He took his clothes and went out naked while i buried myself in my pillow.
"What the f**k just happened Emily you know better "i cried, not because i kissed him but because i nearly gave him my innocence. I cried because i have betrayed my only love, because i dont deserve James. I cried because at the end of the day my parents want me to marry Tee. I got up and went to take a bath. I needed to wipe whatever smell he left on my body. I notice the red bites showing on my neck.God this is bad, why did i become yellow? ?. I washed my body and went back to my bed. My phone rang and it was James. My heart raced, guilty conscious playing with my mind.
Emily : sweetheart
I couldn’t hold the tears, im glad he couldn't see me
James : you still up
Emily : yeah was gonna sleep when you called
James : okay just wanted to say goodnight
Emily : thank you babe
James : are you sure you alright
Emily :I’m good love
James : okay Mrs Nelson i will call tomorrow my queen
Emily : sure babe
James : i love you so much babe
Emily : i love you James.
He baby kissed me through the phone and i could imagine the smile on his face. How did i get here. He dropped the call and i tried sleeping.
Nina:….
Yall know im Emily’s best friend. I love my friend i really do but she can be selfish sometimes. It is hard to be her friend since she is always the one to get invites or attention from people when we together. Like the day he met James, we had school competitions in some stadium where all schools met up, we were going to the toilets when a group of 4 boys called us out. James was the only gorgeous one just like every other day Emily got to him. He asked for her numbers while i was busy left with some fool who turned out to be black and dumb at the same time. So from that day i refused to live in Emily’s shadow. When Trevor approached me i thought he was joking and i felt like i was the most beautiful girl
in the whole world. Trevor is one handsome man though James takes the cup but at least i got one of them to me. I know that he thinks he loves Emily but he doesn't. He just love the idea of dating her and on the other hand James will die for his sweetheart. I love their couple i just dont understand how Emily could be so stupid. Trevor is just playing with her mind and she doesn't see it. It was past 10 when my phone rang. Boom speak of the devil.
Nina : you calling me at this time means something else
Trevor: i see you've learnt to grow some balls, the d**k did you good??
I chuckled
Nina : which are you talking about?
I could feel the anger in his voice
Trevor : stop playing games b***h i need you now
Emily : why don’t you go to your future wife
Trevor : im serious Nina
Emily : i would like to sleep so bye
Trevor : if you dare drop the call it gonna be the end of us b***h .
Nina: and do you think I care ??Just because we had s*x two days in a row doesn't make you my everything Trevor
Trevor : you know what stick with your ugly ass I dont care
Nina : the ugly ass that drives you crazy asshole
I was getting mad I'd hate to catch feelings for him but he is just perfect and me pretending i dont care is just to make him mad.
Trevor : you calling me what b***h
Nina ; goodnight man, I’m not up for this.
I dropped the call and played " lie about us " by Avant ft Nichole. I know he doesn't love me and he won't ever leave her for me but i just had to sulk it out.i slept with a lonely sad heart. I wondered if Emily was happy or what.
Emily:……
Thursday morning, i was'nt feeling okay. I had a massive headache that made my shoulders and neck in pain. I prayed before i wake up, i asked God for forgiveness and to give me strength. I have to tell James what happened but first i need Tee out of my life. He is leaving tomorrow so im hoping i survive with him for the last time. I woke up and went downstairs. I was welcomed by my mother's stares. When did she come back??
Emily : morning MrsBrown
Mom : i don’t see you wearing school uniform
Emily : im not going to school
Mom; and this has been happening for how long ?? She turned and looked at Beauty
Emily : today only, I’m not feeling well
Mom: what is wrong
Emily : headache
Mom: don’t play with me Emily
Emily : mom am serious.
I started feeling dizzy, my body failed me. I needed to sit down but my sight was blinded. The headache was killing me. I felt the house spinning.
Emily :mom help
That came out as a whisper. I heard her screaming and that all i remembered. A few hours later i woke up in a private hospital. I could still feel my head hurting. I was hungry and dehydrated . I opened my eyes slowly only to be met by my mom , dad and Tee.
Emily : mom water please
Mom: you awake baby
Emily : water woman
She looked at me and shook her head. She gave me water and i drank the whole bottle.
Dad: even on a hospital bed you still hot headed
Emy: like father like daughter
Mom laughed and dad just ignored me. The doctor came in.
Dad; oh there she is awake
Emily : what wrong with me
Doctor : we just need to run a few tests, we will need your urine
Emily : what that for??
Mom: babe your fainted and complained of headache so.. My dad cutted her short
Dad: i hope it's not what im thinking Emily or else
He was calm but his voice said a lot.
Emily : oh you better be kidding me, you guys think im fucken pregnant
They all looked at me..
Mom: laguage Emily , we taught you well and if you not pregnant then explain the symptoms
I chuckled
Emily : get out now
They stood still and i screamed, the doctor assured them that i will be owkay i just need some space.they all went out and i was left alone with the doctor. I did pee and the result came out nagative not that i didn't know that. By half past 10 they came back with Mcdonald's breakfast. The doctor told them i wasnt preggies and the relief in my father's eyes was just suprising. What if i was pregnant, what would have heppened.
Dad: im sorry princess
Me: i dont wanna hear it Mr Brown
Mom: stop it Emily
Emily : just leave me alone.
Doctor: mmhm can i ask
Them: sure doctor
Doctor :are you some how stressed or?.
I raised my eyebrows, my parents looked at me.
Mom: do you think stress is the reason behind the headache
Doc: yeah, since we could not find another reason it the only effect that can cause it now, or maybe it can heppen that she is
on her period of which i doubt cause she was on her periods 12days ago
Emily : i wanna go home, can you give me something
Doctor : i can subscribe ibrufens for you and some pain killers. You need to stop stressing if im correct, too much stress gonna cause you stroke and this frequent headaches aint good for you.
We left the hospital, Tee was silence you could think he wasn't there.
I went straight to my room and threw myself on my bed, mom came in.
Emily : i need space please
Mom: im sorry honey
Emily : mom i said i need some space
Mom: Emily you not gonna shout at me, im still your mother
Emily : then act like it, what kind of a mother leave their child alone with a man in their house yee?? Care to tell me?
Mom :babe we thought it could make you become closer again I chuckled
Emily : well it did, now get out.
She got out and i just locked my room and buried myself on my bed.