I forgot my reason for suicide

[Suicides] Ijumped from the top floor and landed right in front of a man with glasses, who was clearly terrified and staring at me with wide eyes. Iwas very upset by him. I didn't see a handsome guy jump out of the building. As a resultthe grandson's handswereloosethe books in his arms were scattered,and the test paper flew to my face, and was quickly soaked by blood. In my heart,I f****d the grandson's ancestors all over, and then suddenlyrealized thatIhad forgottenthe reason for my suicide. Young, just turned 18 years old, is a carefree son, will soon graduate from high schoolbut I did not take the college entrance examination in the eyes, so it is impossible to commit suicide because of academic pressure. The five features are still handsomeThey have beenblocked by many teachers and sistersto expresstheir love.At present they have a girlfriend of the same age who is dating. The relationship between people is goodthere are a group of friends who often skip class together to play dota. The family is harmonious,the parents are happily married the monthly living expenses are given to me regularly and there is an old sister who is in college. Like me why wouldI commit suicide? I got up from the ground and stood under the teaching building, watching the ambulance take my body away the people coming and going unconsciously through my body. School leaders beat their chestshate whychose to commit suicide at school,affecting the reputation of the schoolnot to mention that the students will definitely spread the matter more and more fierce,the enrollment rate will be greatly reduced in the coming year. The police car also arrived,and everyone's eyes shifted to the handsome uniform of the criminal policeonly the glasses man who had just witnessed me jumping from the building stood not far away and looked at me carefully. Iwaved at him tentatively and he staggered back a few steps and bumped into a passer-by. My mouth twitching,why the hero into the soul after the encounter is not sentimental beautiful feminine C cup psychic girl but the anger stare who who pregnant glasses man ah hey! You can't have anything to do with this guy! don't want to be in love with a four-eyed nerd! The impatient eyeglasses man raised a middle finger, and then turned around and strode to the school gate. I had to catchup with the ambulance. didn't know what the black-hearted doctors would do with my body. Ishould meet my parents at the hospital. My mother and sister would probably cry and faint.My father would be emotional and repeat that "my son would never commit suicide." Who knowsliuststepped out ofthe schoolthe back foot will return to the teaching building. Wait a minute. Refreshed luck set the whole body strengthin both feet Irushed to the school gate at a speed of800 metersout of the school gatestoppedam still under the teaching building. Around the school wallI tried to climb out like lused to skip class to go online,and as soon as my feet stepped on the fence,linstantly returned to the teaching building. Why? Why can't I get out? Is it like in the moviewhere you die, you will be trapped forever,and eventually become a ghost? No, no.Movies are lies.It's all made up by directors and writers. There are no ghosts and spirits, dead is dead, turned into a pile of ashes,floating away with the wind, or buried deep underground, will not. So what am Idoing now? Hello. Can you really never leave? Forever,stuck in this so-called alma mater where stayed for three yearsbored to deathand vowed never to return after graduation? Mingming will graduate in half a month. Wait a minute. Since the movie is not all fakethen under normal circumstances,people should not become a soul after death,but directlyreincarnationunless there is an unfinished wishor difficult to let go of the knot. Is it possible to find out why I killed myself so that Icould get out of this damned school and be reincarnated? ..... But how to find it? One, I'm a ghost. Normal humans can't see, touch or hear me. Second,I lost my memory before l killed myself and had no clue. Slumped on the cement floorthe big sun baked the ground,butIcan not feel a trace of heat. Wait,Iseem to have forgotten something. -- Glasses man. [Eyewitness] I'm sure l can see him. That senior, Jiangyang. To be exact, it is the ghost of the senior high school named Jiangyang. In just half a day, his name has spread to every corner of the school. Everyone was talking about him,the leadership teachers called an emergency meetingthe school gates were closed,all because of him. Iwitnessed his suicide. Ieven had a few drops of blood on my shoes.I thought it was bad enough. didn't expect what came next to make me even more desperate. More than 900 degrees of myopia sometimes even in front of the words can not see clearlycan see his figure clearly. Clearly fell flesh and blood blur clearly dead clearly the bodies were towed away by the ambulance,but he stood unscathed under the teaching building, but also said hello to me. The sun is so big but it can't shine his shadow. He stood in the midst of people coming and going,and from time to time others passed through his body without awareness. I fled in a panic. It must be because I haven't slept well these days. Staying up all night is the easiest way to get dizzy. Isilently comfort myself. "What do you want to do?" In the evening of self-study, when lwas preparing to prepare for the monthly exam for a few days, a joking male voice suddenly sounded in my ear. My heart suddenly rose a bad feeling,I stiff back, slowly turn around,sure enough,Jiang Yang is standing by my seatsmiling at me as if nothing had happened: "can you do me a favor?" Reflexively,I screamed and fell off my seat. Jiang Yang, who stood in place,frowned and shouted,"Why are you like a woman?" “The money trail! What the hell are you calling? Sorry to bother you all studying! Write down! Go to the class teacher!" Disciplinary committee hard a beat the table the original quiet study room immediately led to a burst of snicker. No one can see him. Everyone thinks I'm crazy. Istood up with trembling supportsat back in the seat, buried my head in the reference book,how dare not look up at him. "Hello." "Hey!" "Hey,glasses man," Jiang Yang squatted down into the bottom of my tablestretched his head to stare at me,impatiently called me, "you are a sound ah bastard."I covered my ears hard, then stood up and rushed out of the classroom. Ilocked myself in the bathroom and squatted on the toilet with my head in my handsmuttering"Namo Amitabha Buddha." Jiang Yang soon found me,sighing through the door:“l mean who is hiding in the bathroom? Are you killing yourself,please?" "Don't come in!"lyelled, my voice shaking,"Please!" Jiang Yang fell silentseemed to be thinking something. After a long time, long enough that Ithought he was gone,Icautiously opened the door of the cubicle,only to see him leaning against the sink. The mirror on the wall did not reflect him. Iwant to cry without tears ready to close the door again Jiang Yang said:"I just want to ask you to help." The tone is much softer.Orrather,it's a mix of frustration. "Theln this worldno,at least in this schoolit seems like you're the only one who can see me. " "You are the only one who can help me."It's like a fantasy movie opening. It's like the beginning of a novel. Through the subtle cracks,Iam opposite the YangtzeRiver Yang, a senior high school who has become a ghost because of suicide. Except for the lack of shadowhe didn't seem so scary. "I forgot the reason I killed myself," a pair of "l forgot to bring a 2B pencil" In a relaxed tonehe smiled and said, "you go and help me find out." The faint lights in the bathroom flickered and turned the atmosphere around like a horror movie,and finally realized how stupid I had been hiding in the bathroom.