I forgot my reason for suicide

betray

I've never done anything good in my life.

Helping the old lady cross the road, picking up money, washing parents' feet, all of them have never been done.

So I never thought that after my death, I would actually do a completely good deed——returning the red line for others.

Qian Xiaodao and Murong Quan didn't know when they started to get close. Although Murong Quan would pinch his waist and direct Qian Xiaodao to behave like a cow or horse in his spare time, at least he wouldn't pour water on his face with a bucket.

This is all due to my credit. It was Lao Tzu who had the foresight to let Qian Xiaodao approach Murong Quan

Set of messages. Although he didn't get any useful news at all.

And Qian Xiaodao obviously forgot about me as a matchmaker.

"Hey," I shouted at Qian Xiaodao, who was staring at Murong Quan in physical education class, "that guy is one flat, two short and three fierce, what's so good about him?

Compared with Yuan Li, she is like the difference between a monkey and a goddess.

Qian Xiaodao was stunned, and it took him a long time to realize that I was talking about Murong Quan, and stammered: "She is very, very kind.

"Kindness!? Are you sure what you just said is kindness, kindness, kindness, kindness!?" This Qian Xiaodao is really a jerk, right?

"She agreed to help me find out the reason for your suicide." Qian Xiaodao said, "She is very concerned about your affairs." Very good, call

When I was cursing, I checked out the reason for my suicide, and when I was flirting with me, I had a flash of inspiration, "Hey, we seem to have forgotten an unlucky ghost named Jiang Yang"!

"She likes you very much." Qian Xiaodao said awkwardly. "It's hard for her to like her to the point of being a stalker." I snorted coldly.

"Do you have to be so indifferent?" Qian Xiaodao suddenly raised his voice, "Even if you don't like her, you don't have to be so indifferent to her feelings for you, right?"

This was the first time I saw Qian Xiaodao losing his temper. —if that counts as losing your temper.

With a daughter-in-law, you forget your mother, this sentence is really true. In just a few days, he dared to choke with Lao Tzu. I silently confronted Qian Xiaodao until Murong Quan suddenly

Then he came out and patted Qian Xiaodao on the shoulder: "Why are you standing there alone? I'm thirsty, go buy me a bottle of ice water.

"Okay." Qian Xiaodao slavishly turned around and ran to the commissary.

I stood where I was, watching his back as he ran farther and farther away, feeling extremely exhausted suddenly.

In fact, Qian Xiaodao has no obligation to help me investigate anything.

He was just unlucky enough to witness my suicide, unlucky enough to see me turned into a ghost.

In the beginning, he might still give in to me because of his fear of me, but slowly, he will find that I am just an unlucky ghost who can't pose any threat to him, even if he chooses to ignore me, I can't do anything to him.

Sooner or later, like everyone else, Qian Xiaodao will slowly forget about me.

Instead of waiting for Qian Xiaodao to come back at the playground, I went to Yuan Li's classroom on my own.

When a person is sad, the first thing that comes to mind is indeed a gentle and pleasant girlfriend.

It would be great if I could hug her.

As usual, Yuan Li is still lying on the balcony reading a book, when I was alive, I like to take advantage of her serious reading

Run up to tease her, snatch her book, or cover her

Kiss her secretly.

She always scolded me helplessly, but her eyes were always gentle.

We were lying on the balcony together, looking at the boundless blue sky. At that time, I thought to myself, it would be great if I could go to the same university after graduation.

The familiar ringtone of the mobile phone rang.

Yuan Li put down his book, took out his mobile phone from his pocket, looked around for a while, and only picked it up after making sure that there was no one else.

What's the matter?" Very gentle tone. I subconsciously leaned forward, because I was so close, I could clearly hear the voice from the microphone.

"I miss you." The familiar male voice is Chen Huashan, my neighbor, my buddy who grew up together.

"You are very annoying." Yuan Li smiled lowly.

"Has that Qian Xiaodao approached you again?" Chen Hua asked.

Shan asked.

"No.

"Next time he pesters you to ask you about Jiang Yang, I will find someone

done him. "

"not needed for now.

"Stay with me that night?"

Yuan Li paused for a few seconds, then said: "Well, I suddenly realized something, I took a few steps back suddenly, and my body accidentally fell straight across the balcony."

It was the same as the time I jumped from the top floor, I was lying on the concrete floor with the endless sky above my head, but it was different from that time, no one looked at me anymore, my face turned pale from being scared by the bloody me, and I would never Feel no pain. My vision suddenly blurred for some reason, I raised my hand and rubbed my eyes vigorously, and saw Qian Xiaodao stumbling towards me.

"Jiangyang! Jiangyang!" I heard him keep calling my name.

But I can't make any sound.Qian Xiaodao seemed to have forgotten that I was a ghost, and stretched out his claws to try to pull me up, so he took it for granted from my body

passed through.

His arms froze in mid-air, clear fluid dripped from his eyes and onto my face.

Warm touch. I was startled, I sat up suddenly and touched the drops that had just dripped on my face

Qian Xiaodao's tears, finger pulp slightly moist. ………………What's happening here?

According to common sense, shouldn't that drop of tears pass through my body and fall to the ground?

"Jiang Yang, are you okay?" Qian Xiaodao approached me with a sad face, the glasses on his face almost reached my nose, I reached out to touch his face, no accident,

My hands passed through his body like air. The tears just now were really just an illusion, right?

"Cry ass, you." I said in a nasty voice. He hastily wiped his face with his sleeve, and said falteringly, "I thought something happened to you."

"I'm dead, what else can happen?" I patted my butt and got up from the ground, striding forward.

Qian Xiaodao silently followed behind me.

I stopped, and Qian Xiaodao also stopped.

"You don't need to keep it from me about Yuan Li." I said. Qian Xiaodao remained silent.

"Because there's no f*****g way I'd kill myself over something like that!" I yelled.

It was Yuan Li's birthday that day, and I went to find her with carefully selected gifts, but I witnessed Chen Huashan hugging Yuan Li and kissing her lips recklessly. Yuan Li did not resist,

She didn't avoid it either, but accepted his kiss sweetly. I walked over step by step and asked with a smile: "What are you two doing?"

What? Chen Huashan protected Yuan Li behind him, and looked at me provocatively: "As you can see."

Just yesterday, I was playing games with him at his house. I always thought he was the best friend in my life.

"Yuan Li, come here." I said. Yuan Li stood motionless behind Chen Huashan.

I stepped forward to pull her, she struggled a few times, I clenched tighter and tighter, she lowered her face, raised her other hand and slapped me: "Jiang Yang, please respect yourself, let's get together and break up.

It's easy to get together and go away.

After dating for three years, from mutual affection, confession, love, and then

Until now, we have been together and separated.

This is love.

Eighteen years of being together, growing up together, going to school together, fighting together, and what you see now. This is friendship.

That night, I went to the roadside stand alone and drank a lot of wine. I was about to take the college entrance examination, and everyone else was working hard to read and study, but I was saddened by the so-called love and friendship like a movie hero.

I knew that Murong Quan had been secretly following me that day.

She can't seem to shake her tail. Like, what the hell.

As long as the other party's appearance conforms to the aesthetic concept, coupled with a pleasing personality, you can tell the other party that I like you. I like you.

It seems like something that can be said casually. So if I ask Murong Quan what she likes about me, I'm afraid she will hesitate and be unable to answer.

I'm dead, and she'll soon forget me, fall in love with someone else, be someone else's tail. Everything will eventually disappear.

All gone.

"At least I won't disappear." Qian Xiaodao stood behind me and said

Said loudly.

I looked back at him, just about to speak, a basketball straight

It flew over and hit Qian Xiaodao on the head.

Murong Quan came over from a distance angrily: "Qian Xiaodao! Where is the ice water I asked you to buy!?"

His glasses were smashed to the ground, and he squatted down to pick them up in a panic. Murong Quan, who was running over, didn't stop, and walked steadily.

Stepped on the glasses.

I stood aside and laughed out loud.

【friend】

Jiang Yang didn't commit suicide because he was betrayed by Yuan Li.

It's good that he didn't commit suicide for such a weak reason.

There are very few people in the library today, and the place where I sit is relatively hidden. No one noticed my existence, so I lowered my voice and asked Jiang Yang next to me: "Aren't you sad at the time? How did you get out of your psychological shadow later?"

Being betrayed by a girlfriend and a friend at the same time is not easy on anyone. In my words…………

Uh, I have no friends and no girlfriend, I really can't imagine that feeling.

Jiang Yang looked out of the window with melancholy eyes, and said, "I was busy playing Dota later, so I forgot about it."

Hello!!

Besides Yuan Li and Chen Hua, do you remember anything else?

"No. "

"I'm done reading this page, turn the page quickly." Jiang Yang urged impatiently.

road.

I honestly flipped through the One Piece manga on the table. He leaned very close to me, lowered his head and concentrated on reading the comics, as if he had already been brought into the plot.

I tried my best to stare at the English book in my hand, but the corner of my eye still uncontrollably aimed at him beside me.Fair skin, long eyelashes, beautiful lips.

No wonder Murong Quan likes him.

He straightened up suddenly, turned to look at me, and said, "What are you looking at?"

I was startled, and reflexively said: "Look at the scenery outside the window. Jiang Yang followed and looked out the window, only to see Murong Quan practicing shooting alone on the playground.

——What a coincidence.

"The sun outside seems quite strong." Jiang Yang said thoughtfully.

I don't understand what he means.

"Go get her a bottle of ice water, an umbrella or something," he flipped

He rolled his eyes, "If you like someone, you have to work hard to fight for it. I was taken aback for a moment.

The day before yesterday he was complaining about Murong Quan in front of me, but now he is asking me to win her over.

In fact, deep down in his heart, he is very gentle.

"She was so cruel to you before, she must be ruthless when she catches her up."

Come back with vengeance. "Jiang Yang continued. ... Forget it, I didn't say anything.

Although Jiang Yang didn't commit suicide because of Yuan Li and Chen Huashan.

But I still decided to ask Chen Huashan for clarification. I learned that Chen Huashan dropped out of school in the second half of the third year of high school,Since then, he has been working in bars. As for the reason for dropping out, it seems to be because of a group fight with people from other schools, which broke the ribs of others.

Senior Jiang Yang was also involved in that incident. But he received no briefings, let alone expulsions. "Murong Quan said.

I tried hard to talk her out of going to that bar with me, it would be dangerous. She stared: "It's none of my business for you!"

The bar was smoky and the music was blaring so loud I was nearly deaf.

Murong Quan slipped through the crowd and came here

Taiwan, knocked on the counter, and said to the yellow-haired Chen Huashan: "Here

I have a beer!"

"Excuse me, are you an adult girl?" Chen Huashan smiled helplessly.

"Just turned 16!" Murong Quan said confidently.

Chen Huashan handed her a glass of soda, and she insisted: "What kind of service attitude is this!

Chen Huashan was no match for the theory, she turned her face and vented her anger at me: "Xiao Qian

What are you doing standing there stupidly!

After hearing my name, Chen Huashan frowned, looked at me and said, "You are Jiang Yang's friend, Qian Xiaodao?" I stood up straight and said, "Yes." Kind of people can make friends

"What do you mean!?" Murong Quan asked what I wanted to ask.

I mean, he's the kind of guy who doesn't deserve to have any friends at all. "Chen Huashan's face turned cold, and he said every word. "Why?" I clenched my fists.

"Why?" Chen Huashan yanked off the job card on his clothes and threw it on my face, "Why do you say?" "I shouldn't have been fired," his expression changed.

Very gloomy, "I originally had a bright future, and I had a little money in my family. I was spoiled by my teachers since I was a child. If I didn't get good grades, I could enter a key high school. Even if I participated in gang fights, I wouldn't be expelled. But I was Forced to drop out of school and become a bartender in a bar.

I should go to school and take the college entrance examination every day like everyone else. If Jiang Yang didn't suddenly ask me to fight with him that day, everything would not be like this. he is just

"Since then, I have wished for him to die every minute and every second.

The reason why I continued to pretend to be his friend was just to cheat some pocket money from him. He really listened to me. I lied to him that the family needed money urgently, and he really believed it. I don’t know if he is real Stupid or guilty, feel guilty about me and want to make up for me? I used the money he gave to pick up girls, and captured Yuan Li easily. He is also really sad. His girlfriend who has been with him for three years said that he has changed his mind.But in the final analysis, he is not good enough to keep his own woman, which can only show that he is too useless, and the reason for his suicide is himself. "

Chen Huashan raised the corners of his mouth viciously, mocking us laugh.

Murong Quan impulsively wanted to pour the soda in his hand on him, I pressed her hand, looked at Chen Huashan, and said: "Then relative, in the final analysis, it's your own fault. You agreed to go out and fight with Jiang Yang at the beginning. Yes, it was indeed you who broke other people's ribs, but in the end you put all the responsibility on Jiang Yang alone, thinking you were the biggest victim. Aren't you more useless than Jiang Yang like this? "Shut up! "Chen Huashan was furious, and punched me in the face. My glasses were thrown to the ground, and my vision was blurred. Blood slid down the corner of my mouth, and the smell of blood filled the whole mouth. Countless people around were clamoring to watch and boo. Before I had time to wipe the blood from the corner of my mouth, I was kicked in the lower abdomen again. Severe colic pain hit my whole body, I clutched my abdomen tightly, and knelt on the ground. "I forgot to tell you something," Chen Huashan said. He smiled into my ear and said, "Just one month before Jiang Yang committed suicide, their family went bankrupt. He is no longer a carefree young man, no longer a cash machine that can casually pull out a stack of banknotes, even if he dies, it will not cause me any loss. So I took advantage of that time to deliberately expose the matter between myself and Yuan Li to him, with the purpose of personally driving him to a dead end. How? Do you really hate me? You can go to the police and see if the police will convict me for this. " There was a bang.

Chen Huashan's smile froze on his face, and there was blood from his forehead

Flow down.

Someone in the crowd screamed.

I took off the wine bottle in my hand, got up from the ground, swayed and stood upright: "First of all, Jiang Yang's suicide has nothing to do with you and Yuan Li, and second, you are not even qualified to mention Jiang Yang's name. So, You should shut up for me. Then I pushed Chen Huashan away, picked up Murong Quan who was beside me, and left the bar.

I never deny that I am a coward. No matter others hit me, scold me, laugh at me, or bully me, I just bear it silently, hiding in the corner alone

trembling.

Jiang Yang asked me why I didn't resist, I clearly remember

Judging from his expression and tone of voice when he spoke, he seemed impatient, but in fact it was more of his hatred of me.

He told me: "When someone slaps you in the face, isn't your first reaction to immediately hit back ten times harder?

But is resistance really useful?

After resisting, the opponent will definitely fight back, and then fight endlessly into a ball, and finally break up unhappy, and may suffer more serious retaliation in the future.

I'd rather just live submissively like this, and I don't want to provoke a whole body of right and wrong.

Except today.

Because the one being insulted and ridiculed is not myself.

but him.

my only friend.

Only he can't.