The losers' crew

Everything has a beginning. You can't judge the outcome without knowing the commencement. And this is ours. I'm 16 years old. My father left when I was only five years old. My mom got married to an abusive man when I was eight. At fifteen years old I was r***d by that same man. When I told my mother what happened she didn't even flinch. I know deep down in her twisted mind she knew I was telling the truth but she brushed it off as if it was the joke of the year. When her husband got back from work she joked to him about. I remember it clearly as if it was yesterday. "Can you believe Luna told me you r***d her," she said as soon as I walked into the door. "Who would want to touch that?" He laughed spilling some of his alcohol on the ground. "You know you did, you f*****g p*****t," I whimpered. "Call me a p*****t again and you'll see what happens to that pretty face of yours," he threatened me with a bottle of alcohol in his hand. "I'm going to report you to the police," I yelled helplessly feeling all my strength leaving my body.  He took a few steps closer.  "Do that and she will pay the consequences," he whispered turning his nasty eyes on my little sister who sat peacefully watching tv. "You wouldn't dare. She's your daughter."  "Try me Luna," was his last words and he walked out the door. My mom just sat there fighting back the tears. At this very moment, I knew she will never put a stop to this. And at that very moment, She ceased to exist to me.  I'm officially an orphan.  I know you're thinking "why doesn't she just run away?"But it's not that easy. I can't leave my little sister with these monsters. Nobody protected my innocence but I'll do everything to protect hers. I got a part-time job at an antique boutique. Where mostly antique books are sold. With that money I take care of Ella and I. I'll protect her at all cost. No matter what it takes. I never wear revealing clothes anymore. because the woman who brought me to this world told me it was my fault, that I asked for it by wearing those type of clothes. At school, I'm the weirdest of them all. I don't have the money to buy fashionable clothes like the other students. I met my friends in freshman year. We've been inseparable ever since. Loser understands other losers. I don't know what I would do without them. They're the only thing keeping me sane. If it wasn't for my little sister Ella and my friends I would've ditched this painful world a long time ago. life means nothing to me. I've tried everything I could but its never enough. I'm tired of just existing. Oh, did I forget to mention that my dad actually left us for another woman? how insensitive? I know right. They have two children. I met him with his children once at the library where I work and he didn't even recognize me. The man whom return I've dreamed about since I was five don't even remember my face.