Searching for Me

Chapter 4

I haven’t had a dream over the last couple of weeks, or at least not the dream about my parents. I’ve been having a different sort of dream lately, one that involves a sexy-as-sin man who I should want nothing to do with. Kale has been haunting my dreams ever since the day I told him and my cousin about what I saw and Kale jumping up to comfort me. Feeling his arms and hands on me did something to my body. Now, every night when I close my eyes I can feel him. I don’t want to but I do.

The past couple of weeks I’ve looked for anything that would give me a clue as to who the men are that killed my parents. Once I remembered a name and what I thought to be their language I searched as much as I could in the database at Ashford Finance. Unfortunately, I’ve come up empty handed. I guess Alexei is a common name in Russia and we actually have at least 10 different clients with that name, another dead end.

I know I could go to my uncle and see if he could help, but I feel like going to him will be my last resort. Even though Dane and Kale understood what I was telling them, they still looked at me with a different expression when I told them I heard a name. I know they think it’s all in my head and the more I dig around, the more I almost believe it myself.

I could look at the actual files of each of these clients, but I’m afraid that will draw too much attention to me. If these people are criminals and my uncle and father were involved with them, I could be in serious trouble. It would be so easy for me to go back five years and see who “wanted out” and look for that person with the name Alexei, but I would almost have to look hard and pull some drastic measures. Who’s to say their information would even be in our files. If it’s something illegal I’m sure my uncle and father were a lot smarter than that and hid all the paperwork I would need anyway.

After telling my cousin about what happened, and seeing his face, I know he really has no idea what his father does. It makes me feel better knowing he doesn’t know. Yes, he could’ve played it off, but I know his ticks and tells, and I know he had no idea about our parents doing anything illegal. I still wish I knew exactly what my cousin and Kale, for that matter, do for my uncle.

Pulling me out of my thoughts I hear my phone ringing on the desk. “This is Mr. Monley’s office how can I help you?” I say into the phone.

“Gabby, it’s Richard, I just wanted to tell you that I’m not coming back to the office today. My meeting ran late and I’m exhausted from it, so I’m going to head home. Feel free to do the same.” My boss says to me.

I love working for Richard. Out of all the finance directors in the company, I’m glad I got him. “Of course, Richard, have a great evening and get some rest. Do you need me to do anything before I take off for the weekend?”

“No, dear, just go and enjoy your weekend. You’re young, go live it up.”

Go live it up? Who says that anymore? “Okay, Richard, I will see you on Monday after my morning class.”

“See you, dear.” Hanging up with Richard I start to shut down my computer and grab my things. Standing up I hear someone clear their throat and when I look up I see two men standing there.

“How can I help you gentlemen?”

“We are here to see Mr. Morgan and were told to come right on up.” The taller of the two men says. I notice just a hint of a foreign language.

“Oh I’m sorry, sir, but Mr. Morgan’s office is actually on the other side of the hallway. When getting off the elevator you go right instead of left. Let me walk you two down there since I am heading out anyway.” I say to them. I’m not sure why but something feels so off about the two of them. I don’t think I’ve ever met them but there is this strange feeling I have in my gut.

The second man finally speaks, “Thank you miss.” His voice instantly has my body standing still and chills running up and down it. Trying to shake it off and get out of here I tell the men to follow me.

Once in Mr. Morgan’s office, I see his assistant sitting at her desk and the minute the door shuts behind us her head pops up.

“Oh hey, Gabs, what can I do for you?”

“Liv, these two gentlemen have an appointment with Mr. Morgan, they turned the wrong way down the hall and ended up in Mr. Monley’s office. Since I was leaving I thought I would make sure they made it to the correct spot.”

“Oh right! Mr. Makarov and Mr. Kotov, please have a seat and I will let Mr. Morgan know you are here.” Looking over to me, “Thanks, Hun, have a great weekend.”

I tell her the same and take one last look at the two men sitting in the chairs behind me. Telling them goodbye I make my way out the door and to my car. Sitting there thinking over my encounter with the two men, my mind decides to wonder. Could it be? No it couldn’t. Shaking off the feeling that those two men were familiar to me, knowing my mind has been so jumbled lately I decide to call it an early night and stay in.

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Kaci is going to the club with Dane tonight so that leaves the house all to myself. Something I desperately need. I decide a nice long bath would be perfect and it will help me relax. Getting the bath, I pour vanilla bubble bath soap in there, grab my k****e and sink into the hot water. Instantly feeling my muscles relax. I turn on my k****e and open up Chasing Rhodes by Anne Jolin. I’m about halfway through this one and damn, it’s hot! Greyson is one dream man!

I’m immersed in my book and I don’t hear Kaci come home. The door bursts open and I looked up shocked at what I assumed would be Kaci, only to see it’s not. It’s Kale standing in the bathroom doorway just staring at me. I can hear Kaci in the background saying I told you she was fine and hearing her voice pulls me out of my Kale trance.

“Get out, Kale!” I scream at him. When I think he’s about to do what I asks he surprises me again by shutting the door and locking it with him inside the bathroom with me.

He still hasn’t said a word to me only just starred. My heart is pounding and it feels like it’s going to come out of my chest. The minute he starts to move closer to me in the tub, I freeze. His eyes have me trapped. Something about them sets me on fire. It’s a different look than I’ve seen before. It’s almost like his blue eyes are so dark they’re black. By the time he reaches the side of the bathtub my body feels like it’s on fire and my heart is going to jump out of my chest.

He kneels down next to the tub and I take a deep breath and finally ask him what he’s doing. “Kale.” I whisper. All he does is shh me and continues to stare. I’m not really sure what he can see being that I’m still in the tub and the bubbles are covering me. I start to feel a little self-conscious since he hasn’t said anything to me, and covering myself with my arms isn’t helping at all. He either needs to make a move or get out so I can fix this heated problem he has caused.

“Kale, what are you doing?” I whisper one more time hoping he will finally answer me.

He doesn’t of course. But what he does do shocks the hell out of me. He slowly trails his finger from my collarbone to my chin and once he reaches my chin he pulls my face towards him. My eyes are squeezed shut not wanting to look at him for him to see what his touch is doing to me.

“Gabriella.” Is all he says, but when he says my full name it shoots an electric shot throughout my body.

“Out now.” He says, he voice deeper than I’ve ever heard. At least I know I’m not the only one affected.

The minute those words leave his mouth my body is standing up. It only takes him seconds to wrap a towel around me and practically throw me over his shoulder and head towards my room.

What the hell am I doing? I don’t sleep with random men, hell, I don’t sleep with men that I know are man-whores. I’m not a virgin but I’ve only been with two other men. But the minute he said my name and told me to get up, I wanted nothing more than to listen.

Storming into my room, he slams the door behind him and literally throws me on my bed. I bounce and try to keep my towel wrapped around me. He just stands there, his look is fierce and my body freezes when he starts to walk towards me.

Do I want this? Hell, yes I do. I know it can only be this once but I know without a shadow of a doubt I want Kale. No, I need Kale.

"Kale, this can only happen once." I say with as much conviction as possible. Even though I know one time with Kale isn’t enough, it’s all either of us can give.

"One time. Fine, but we play by my rules, Gabriella. You do as I say and only that. If you can’t agree, I will walk out that door and never ask you for this again." He gives me his panty-dropping smirk only this time it’s laced with lust. Breaking my thoughts, "Do you understand me?"

I’m frozen, I know what I want, but the words don’t come out. "Do you understand? I won’t ask again." He brings my face up to looks at his.

All I can do is shake my head. His fingers on me are making my head spin.

"I need your words, Gabriella."

"Yes."

He smirks again, "Yes what?"

"I will do as you say now please f**k me, Kale." I say with a whisper and almost do not recognize my own voice. I’ve never told a man to f**k me. Kale is doing something to me and I’m not sure if I want more or want to run. I do know I want this one time with him.

"Drop the towel, Gabriella." He says and moves a little closer to me.

The way he's looking at me makes me wrap my arms around myself trying to hide. It seems like he can see all the way through me.

He grabs my arms not to gently, "Don’t you dare cover that gorgeous body. It's mine, Gabriella. Do you understand me? It’s mine! Mine to look at, to touch, to lick, to kiss and, damn sure, to fuck."

I’m instantly dripping wet. He grabs my face and slams his lips down on my. The moment they touch, I moan a deep throaty moan. As much as I’ve fought my attraction to him, but in this moment, everything with Kale seems right.

Knowing I need to stop myself, I keep telling myself one night.

He pulls gently on my hair bringing my face up closer to his. His kiss turns deeper and deeper and more carnal than I’ve ever felt. I’m not really sure if I’m allowed to touch him, but there is no way in hell I can stop myself. I reach up slowly, almost waiting for him to tell me, when he doesn’t stop me I put my hands in his hair and tug just a little, causing him to give a moan of his own. Knowing I can do this to him sets off even more flames throughout my body. I bring one hand down and run it up under his shirt. I swear to god, I felt at least eight ridges under there. There's no way in hell someone can be this built. Each time I run my hand up his stomach, I can feel him flinch. Taking advantage of him letting me do my own thing, I move my hand down to the top of his pants and run my finger just on the inside of them.

"You're too dressed, Kale." I say as I start to pull his shirt slowly up. Taking advantage of him letting me do this, I pull slowly making sure I get a good look at his body. He pulls his lips away from mine. I miss his heat instantly and it causes me to whimper. He pulls his shirt over his head and throws it on the floor.

Turning his face back to me he gives me his signature smirk. "Are you ready, Gabriella? It's time to play by my rules. I’ve let you touch me all you want and trust me that’s something I don’t normally allow, but I like your hands on me. So here’s a new rule, you can touch until I say no, understand?"

"Yes, Kale."

He practically pounces on me the minute his name leaves my lips, "And, f**k me, if hearing you say my name doesn’t turn me on."

With that, he slams his lips back down on mine. The second his lips leave mine I try to pull him back. He sits up, pushes me down on the bed, grabs both my hands and puts them over my head holding them with one of his hands and not letting go. I buck my hips towards him just needing some type of friction. He starts kissing his way from the side of my lips to the tender spot below my ear, sending chills running through my body. I know he notices because I can feel his smile across my skin.

Slowly, way too slowly for my liking, he trails his lips down my neck, over my collarbone and stops on my right n****e. He gives a little suck and I almost jump out of my skin. He grabs my left breast and continues to toy with it while sucking and kissing my right. Then he moves his mouth to my left and starts the process over.

I feel like I’m going to f*****g burst out in flames. I need him lower so much lower but he’s taking his time tormenting me. He runs his fingers across my stomach and stops right above where my body is begging him to go.

"God, Gabriella, you're so f*****g gorgeous. I love to see what I can do to your body."

"Hmmm. Then keep going down, Kale. I f*****g need you." I don’t care how desperate I sound. He’s made me this way.

"Desperate huh? Well let’s see if we can fix your little problem."

Instead of torturing me like I thought he would, he goes straight to attacking my clit, literally devouring me. I want to touch him so bad, but he still has my hands locked above my head. “Kale.” His only response is to hum more which makes my body start to convulse. “I need to touch you, Kale, please.” I practically beg him. He releases one of my hands and I immediately grab a hold of his hair and hold him in place, grinding myself up on his face. His hand is still holding on tight to mine above my head.

Kale looks up at me and the look on his face is enough to set me off. “Come now!” With those words and him inserting a finger into me, I go off like a rocket. Seeing stars and screaming his name.

Wow, I have never come that hard in my life, especially not from getting oral. Kale lets my body come down from its high and he slowly kisses his way up my body. When he finally reaches my face, the look in his eyes scares the living s**t out of me. The next minute though, that look is gone and in its place is pure lust. If he can do this to me with his mouth, I can’t even imagine what he can do with his c**k.

“Holy f**k, Kale, that was…” I can’t even form a sentence. My body is still coming down and still feeling the aftershocks of my orgasm.

“Ya, you look f*****g incredible when you come, Gabriella. Let’s see if I can get that look back on your face.” He slams his lips on my and I immediately open to him. Our tongues playing their own dual game and his hands roaming my body, he’s finally let my hand go so now I can do a little touching of my own. I move my hands down in between us and start to undo his pants. I need him naked I need to see him before I completely break. He realizes what I’m trying to do and stands up and removes his pants. It’s now that I notice he’s going commando. Damn, that’s f*****g hot. His long thick shaft is pointing straight at me, licking my lips, all I want to do is wrap my mouth around him and return the favor. Kale has other plans though because with one quick movement he’s pushing me into the bed and lying on top of me. I can feel his c**k nestled against my p***y.

Rocking to get a little friction between us he pulls my hands above my head and looks into my eyes. “Are you ready for this Gabriella?” Shaking my head yes, he slams his lips down on my at the same time his c**k slams into me. He stops all movement, including him kissing me. We both lay there completely frozen just staring at each other. There are no words being said, but the look in his eyes terrifies me and completely excites me at the same time. He slowly starts to rock in and out of me. He has one of his hands holding mine above my head and the other hand gripping my hip.

His pace begins to pick up and I can already feel my orgasm getting ready to rip through me. When he tilts my hips up and slams into me one more time, I go off like a rocket. He slams his lips back down on mine and swallows up all of my screams.

Holy s**t, this man is a machine. It’s f*****g hot. He slows his pace one more time, only this time his other hand moves up above my head and he interlocks our hands together and he slowly pumps in and out. We continue to stare at each other and it’s starting to not feel like just f*****g anymore.

“Baby girl, I need you to come one more time for me, with me right now.” His movements almost become frantic and when I clench my muscles around him he shoots off and takes me with him.

Lying there with him still seeded inside me, we both catch our breath and he slowly pulls out of me. I wince at both the slight pain and the loss of him. He kisses my nose and walks towards the bathroom, buck-ass naked. I’m praying to god that Kaci isn’t here to see him. When he comes back in, he has a wash cloth and he starts to clean me up. It’s only now that I realize we didn’t use protection. f**k, s**t, holy hell what did we just do?

He must notice the same time I do, because his face instantly pales. “Gabriella, please tell me you’re on birth control.”

I’m not, only because my body has always had a weird reaction to the medicine. Shaking my head towards him, “I’m not. Kale…”

He cuts me off, “s**t, baby girl, I’m so sorry, I wasn’t even thinking. All I could think about was getting my c**k in you.” He’s smirking now. I don’t know what it is about this man, but for some reason I can’t stay mad at him and all I want to do is f**k him again.

“It’s fine, Kale, the timing couldn’t have been more perfect. We’re good. But next time you use a condom.” I smile at him. My smile drops instantly with what I realized I just said to him, next time.

He heard it too. Before he can say anything, “I mean I did say only one night, right? I’m sure you don’t need much rest.” Pulling him down to me I lean up and kiss him. And boy did he not need rest. I think I lost count how many times that man didn’t need rest.

Waking up the next morning, my body is gloriously sore. Rolling over I notice Kale’s gone. For a moment I’m upset, but then I realize it could only be one night, one night that I will never forget. My stomach growling interrupts my thoughts of what Kale did to my body last night and early this morning so I make my way into the kitchen to grab some food.

My thoughts are still on last night so when Kaci speaks it scares the s**t out of me, “Mornin’, doll. Have a fun night?” She’s laughing now.

“Shut it, Kaci. And I’m sure you heard what a fun night I had.” Winking at her I grab my favorite cereal from the cupboard and make myself a bowl.

I know Kaci wants details, but I’m too exhausted to give her any. Finishing my food and telling her I’m going back to bed and I will tell her all about it later. It’s the weekend and I plan on doing absolutely nothing the entire time. School and work have been doing a number on me lately. And after last night with Kale, I think I need the forty-eight hours to sleep it off. I might need to talk with my uncle and see about reducing my hours again. I hate to do that to Richard but I need to think of myself. That’s the last thought I have before completely crashing.