Kelathari's POV
We made our way into the woods. I looked up and saw the full moon looking bigger and brighter than ever. The trees shine in the moonlight, it's beautiful to look at really, the moon goddess has truly blessed this evening. I don't usually go this deep into the woods by myself, so I have never appreciated the beauty of the land that our pack owns and just how big it is. Walking alongside Angelique and Benjamin listening to their little chatter about different wooded areas across the northern kingdom.
“Are you okay? You’re awfully quiet for what should be such an exciting moment for you”, Angelique moves next to me, wrapping her arm around me and giving me a small squeeze.
“Yes... sorry I’m okay, just getting lost in thought about how beautiful of an evening it is” I responded, giving a small smile. Wow the thought of actually having my first shift is giving me goosebumps, I wonder what my wolf will be like, what her name will be and what it will feel like to have someone with me all the time. Also, the realisation just hit me my first shift would be in front of the King and his Beta, this is so overwhelming.
“ Yes I agree, it is a beautiful evening. And even better with a full moon, it’s quite a good omen to have your first shift on a full moon, people believe it happens to those blessed by the moon goddess” he turns to me and gives me a warm smile.
I look over the Angelique who is also smiling to herself as she walks alongside us. We walk a bit further into the woods and I see Demetrius and Amalia in the distance waving over to me from a clearing up ahead. The excitement is too much for me to contain and I run over there. I slow down my momentum as I get closer to them remembering that Amalia is pregnant so I can’t just jump at her anymore like I used to.
“Amalia.. Demetrius, I’m so happy you are both here for my first shift”
“Of course we wouldn’t miss it for the world” Amalia grabs me and squeezes me tightly.
“Okay Kelathari, the time has come. I’m not sure how much you have been told about your first shift but I will summarise it the best way I can over the next few minutes.” I nod at Benjamin as I listen intently as to what he is about to tell me.
“I won’t lie to you it’s painful, your bones break and the fur shoots out of you. However the first shift takes longer due to your body not being used to it. After that process you will meet your wolf, you may have a headache for a minute or two whilst your body and mind adjusts to having your wolf however you will be able to speak to her from then. Your senses will also massively heighten, just remember to take nice big deep breaths and you will adjust to it, if you panic too much you may accidentally pass out. So the main thing is just breathe through it we will all be here to support you and then once you’re calm and adjusted to your wolf we will all shift, except Amalia due to pregnancy of course and take you on your first run” I look over to Amalia saddened that she would not be able to join me on my first run.
“Hey cheer up missy! It’s your birthday, first shift and I’m still here, we can do plenty of runs together once I’ve had my baby, don’t you worry about that” she gives my arm a gentle but reassuring squeeze as she giggles away. She is always so happy and carefree, she is lucky to have Demetrius as a mate he will be a great father to their pup.
We sit down in the clearing as the time hit 11:50pm, my palms start to get sweaty and so I start picking the grass as I become restless with the waiting.
“Here, have a drink and quick snack it should hopefully kill a few minutes and distract you” Angelique passes me a small plate of crackers with cheese on it and some fruit juice. I look up at her and give a small nod. I take the plate and glass with a smile and start eating and drinking. Well I am more than full from the dinner we only just ate an hour ago but I know that the first shift requires a lot of energy and can be draining so I slowly force it down. As I sit and eat I listen to the others discuss Amalia’s pregnancy and the anticipation for the pup that is going to be arriving. Everyone is discussing nurseries, baby names, how life changes and are all chatting and laughing away.
I look up at the moon and pray to the moon goddess that it will be a smooth shift for me and I won’t be left for hours writhing in pain like I have heard some horror stories about. The last person to shift in the pack it took them 3 whole hours to fully shift and by the time they shifted they were too exhausted from the shift they couldn’t even complete their first run the same night, the pack waited until the next day to take them. I start to envision my wolf, what colour she could be, what her name could be, what the moon goddess has blessed me with. People always say I was blessed by the moon goddess due to my white hair, however it never seems to feel that way. After years of being Alpha James’ slave I finally get to shift and have some sort of freedom, I think becoming a rogue would even be better than having to stay under his leadership any longer.
“It’s time” Amalia says. I look up to everyone being knelt around me and smiling at me, not realising it took me 10 minutes to eat the few crackers I had been given, wow I really love to daydream.
‘Hello Kelathari, I’m Azura and I’m your wolf, don’t forget to breathe’ before I know it I begin to feel dizzy I put my hand out as I feel myself falling to one side and I prop myself up.
“Hunny lie down you’ll be more comfortable” Angelique places a pillow onto the grass behind me and helps me to lay down onto it and she speaks.
‘Kelathari, you have been blessed by the moon goddess and you have no idea just how special we are together. Luckily mom let us shift on a full moon so that it would be less painful for you. Wolves that have powers like ours struggle with our first shift’
‘Sorry are you speaking to me?’
‘Of course I am hahahaaa’ Azura starts laughing in my head and I join in and giggle, fascinated by the voice speaking to us.
‘What do you mean by we are special?’
‘We have plenty of time to discuss everything, now hun let’s get you through this shift, just remember to breathe and I’ll try come out as quick as possible okay’. I nod my head in agreement then remembering she isn’t outside with me but in my head.
‘It’s okay I know that was for me don’t forget I can see through your eyes and hear your mind’
I start to wince in pain as I feel like my body is setting itself on fire, it’s beginning.