Love But Hate!

Chapter 9

I look at my brother again and I notice Zac and Chace playful smile. Why are they here anyway?

"I am worried about you sister since I went to your office and your PA said you can't make it today but watching you sucking - I mean kissing my best friend, I would say you are fine now?"

I rolled my eyes and glare at him. He raised both of his hand and turn his gaze to Blade.

"You, asshole – you have a lot to tell me even though half of it they already told me." He points to Zac and Chace.

I heard Blade sigh disbelief, well I am sure he trusts his friends, but they went all out and tell my brother.

"We will leave you alone but please - I don't want any niece or nephew in nine months."

He closed the door and I sighed. I look at Blade and he sit on the bed again waiting for him to say something, but he keeps staring at me. I want to ask him about yesterday but there is nothing coming out from my mouth.

"I am sorry." His two words cause me to look at him again.

"About the news.” I kept my mouth shut. I heard he take a deep breath, “Gianna is my friend along with your brother and the other two idiots. Her fiancé is not in Italy so she ask me to accompany her."

I am not sure whether I have to trust him or not but one thing I know - he didn't lie.

"I am not stupid to sent you a bouquet of roses every Friday with a card saying I miss you if I have another woman and I am not stupid to send bouquet of roses to the one girl who keep invading my thoughts and broke her heart because her brother would come and find me - probably giving me a punch."

He didn't say anything for a while before he continues, "I am not stupid to find someone else. There is no one like you." He mumbles, but loud enough for me to heard.

I sighed, "I don't know Blade. Five years ago, you called me ugly duckling and suddenly you became these sweet charming gentlemen and confessing to me."

"I can't think whether whatever you said are truth or you are just playing with me. It is not that easy Blade."

He looks at me and cupped my face with his right hand, "I know. I bloody know Samantha, but I wish I could tell you everything. Let just wait."

I am about to say something when he shook his head, so I didn't. I think he know what I am going to say.

"I can't ask you to forget this conversation but just ignore it. I will tell you everything when the time comes. For now, you have to rest and back to the normal."

I nod.

I can't say anything when he decides it like that. He needs time so do I and I know I will not be able to digest the truth right now so having some time is good.

"I am going back to Italy tonight," He chuckle while looking at me causing me to raised my eyebrow.

"You are pouting. I am going back to Italy and we will meet in one months and a half. Lay down and rest while I am making you some chicken porridge."

I shook my head, "You don't have to,"

He cuts me off, "I want to."

So, I lay down and he pulled the comforter until it covered me well. I close my eyes, trying to rest but I keep remembering whatever he said.

And the kiss we have. I touch my lips slightly and my heart beat fast again, I take a deep breath, can't help but to smile.

I woke up when I feel someone is touching my hair and cupping my face. I open my eyes and see Blade is looking at me, giving me a small smile.

"I brought you lunch."

I look at the table stand beside me and see a bowl of porridge. I slid out from the bed and walk to the bathroom. I am sure I am a mess right now so when I look at myself in the mirror, I sighed. My hair is so mess and my face are bloated. Did I sleep too much?

I wash my face and brush my hair, tied it up in ponytail. When I think I look decent, I step out from the bathroom and climb back on the bed. Blade pass to me the bowl so I smell the food, but I am a fool because I am sick, there is no way I could smell it.

I start to eat, and it is so delicious - seriously he cooks better than me. "It is so delicious."

"I know." He said.

I am so hungry that I finish eating the whole bowl of porridge, probably he is thinking I am not sick.

But who cares?

I pass the bowl back to him while he passes me a glass of water. I take it and sip it “So, what you want to do? I have six hours until I am going back to Italy tonight.”

He pinched my cheek and laugh - I raised my eyebrow, "You are pouting."

I did? "Movie maybe." He raised an eyebrow doesn't expect my answer and he let out a small ah remembering his question to me just now.

He then walked to the cabinet which I put my cd and start to play the cd. He shows me the cover of the cd and I smile. Paper Town.

My favourite novel from my favourite author.

"How did you know what I like?"

"I have always known you are a sucker to John Green's novel."

I raised my eyebrow when I see him climb into my bed, sitting beside me and lean himself at the pillow he put at the headboard.

He pulled me suddenly to him and I freeze – not sure what I have to do. I am now leaning my side to his body, my head on his chest and he place his chin on my head. I can't help but smile. I don't think I can focus when I'm in this position - I even heard his heart beating.

It is so fast that I'm scared it will jump out anytime soon.

His cologne makes me comfortable - I feel safe like this like he could protect me from everything. I keep remembering the way his lips move against mine, his warm body against me and his smell.

God, help me.

***

Today marks one month he went to Italy. No text and no flower. Nope, he didn't give me any and I don't bother to text him first.

Even though, all I think for these four weeks is his lips against mine.

Do I have to tell him I miss him? Of course not - I decided not to.

I don't want to annoy him and nope - my ego doesn't let me to do that either. I walk into my house - my parents are nowhere to be seen so I assume they are in the gardens.

I walk to the gardens through the kitchen and saw my parents are laughing. They really love each other, and I wish I could be like them – to love and to be loved.

I head towards them and give them a kiss on the cheek. I sit down for a while inhaling the fresh air, “I am going to Laura's house tonight - you know the usual sleepover.”

My parents look at me and nodded, "I thought you are going to his house."

I look at them and raised my eyebrow, who are they talking about?

"Who?" I asked them and both of them giving me the stop-pretending-we-know-everything look.

"The one who kiss you." My mum said and instantly my jaw drop.

How did they know? My brother.

"Whatever." Great! Now my parents know, it is so awkward and weird on so many levels.

Both of them chuckle and I just sit there - mouth shut.

I excused myself and went up to my room, packing some essential things to bring along with me. I look at the watch on the wall, thirty minutes till 7pm. I should go now. So, I grab my bag and walk down the stairs - wave my parents goodbye and walk out from the house.

I start the engine and drive to Laura's house. There are two cars on the driveway belong to Deborah and Kelly, so I know everyone are here except me.

I put the passcode and enter the house - she told me in advance, we all did. So, if we need a house to crash - it will be easier.

Friendship goals.

I walk to the living room, watching them swallow down a three box of pizza so I throw away my bag and walk to them fast. I sit beside Laura and grab a slice of pizza, devour it.

"You guys didn't wait for me."

"I am sorry, but we are so hungry." Deborah said.

After the quite late dinner, we all sat down at the living room trying to figure out what should we do. Daniela suddenly screams truth or dare so everyone agrees, plus we haven't played this for as long as I can remember.

I don't really have a good feeling, but I didn't say anything and play along with them. The bottle point at me and I said one word that will put me into dangerous. "Truth."

All of them smile and Deborah raised her hands to ask me the question, “Have you ever kiss Blade?"

All of them squealing, waiting for my response. I should tell them the truth but I am sure it will turn from truth or dare to let's interrogate her.

"I have."

Laura and Daniela eyes are wide open while Kelly and Deborah's jaw drop looking at me - perhaps waiting for me to say, no I'm joking.

They look at each other and again at me, "We need a story!" They yell in unison and so whatever I said just now come true.

The night comes to an end, they ask me lots of question and a lot of screaming so we end up really tired. I help Laura bring out the pillow and comforter to let us sleep comfortable.

I drift to sleep as soon as I put my head on the pillow.

"Do I look okay?" My brother asked me. I nod and continue apply some make up on my face.

"Are you sure?"

I put the brush on the table and turn around, glaring at him. He sighed and take a seat on my bed.

"I'm scared to tell her the truth and to say the three words."

I walk to him and sit down beside him, giving him a hug, “Only a stupid woman doesn't like you for who you are. You're Knight and I know you can do it. So, don't worry okay?"

He looks at me and nodded - I look at the clock on the wall, "It is time for you to fetch her."

He kissed me on the cheek and walk out from my room while I walk again to the dressing table, continue putting make up on my face.

I brush my hair - decided to make a lose braid. When I am done, I walk to my closet choosing a white t-shirt pair with a soft pink blazer and blue jeans.

I look okay, so I walk down the stairs and headed straight away to the garden. I watch the maid placing the plate and glasses on the table. I turn around and my parent are already here, so I give them a kiss.

I just remember I didn't bring along my phone, so I walk back to my room - checking out for text or call but none, so I put it on my jean's pocket.

I walk down the stairs when I see the door being open and my brother enter with a girl beside him.

The one in the picture.

"Is this the girl?" I asked my brother when he nod, I wanted to say hi to the girl.

I walk to them and smile, "You are Violet?"

She looks at me - frowning a bit but still smile at me. She is so beautiful, and I approve, she is not like the other stuck up when they meet me, they smile at me - being so nice and when my brother is not there, they keep glaring at me.

"You have really wrapped my brother around your finger. I lost time how much he almost went crazy."

My brother decided to put his palm on my mouth so that I don't spill anymore.

"I told you to shut up." He whispers, and I chuckle.

We walk together to the garden and take a seat. My brother then poured some wine into our glasses. We cheer and congratulate Violet on her graduation.

I watch my brother looking at Violet and I am happy for him that he finally found the one person who could make him smile again. When my brother notice that I was looking at him and Violet, I smirk making him glare at me.

"Hello everyone."

I look up and see the one face that have been missing for one months and a half. I didn't say anything and continue to eat. I smell the familiar cologne - the one I crave for beside me.

"Hi Samantha."

I rolled my eyes and he chuckle, he didn't say anything at all so did I. There's nothing to say actually. We were talking, and they tease Violet, so it is not that awkward.

My parents excuse themselves when the clock strikes 9pm. Soon after - my brother and Violet went missing after he said he promised her a tour around the house thus leaving me alone with the three musketeers.

"We are going to the playroom - playing some play-station or X-box. Want to join?"

I shook my head and smile at them. I am hoping he will go with them but I heard him give his answer. It is a no.

I watch them walk away from the garden and I sigh, sipping the wine.

"Miss me, my dear?"

I look at him and raised my eyebrow. I even cross my arm causing him to smirk.

I hate his smirk.

"Nope." I answer him.

"Too bad because I miss you - so much."

I avoid looking at him in the face, taking a deep breath.

How could he went missing and suddenly came back telling me he is missing me?

Let make some revenge on him.