Love But Hate!

Chapter 11

"Let's get you home." I pulled away from him and giving him a nod, he grabbed my hand, put his fingers with mine. I look at our hand, can't help but smile.

It confused me - I mean, what are we, but I can't ask him that right? I wish I am brave enough.

We ride the elevator after I grab my clutch and so you know I am not ready to go home. I wish I could stay longer with him. He opens the car door for me once we reach the carpark. I slid into his car, followed by him.

He put the key in, start the engine and it roared to life. I know the road to my home, so I tilted my body a bit to my right, watching him maneuverer the car.

"Do you like me that much?" He asked me, smirking.

I rolled my eyes and chuckle, "I am imagining Xander."

He stopped the car suddenly causing me to jerk forward. Luckily, there is no car here, so we were safe. He holds my right hand and pull it up high, he brushed the bracelet and look at me.

"If you were not ready to be mine, you wouldn't dare put this on your hand where everyone can see this. Don't mention his name," He lean to me making his face just an inch with mine, “If you want him to be alive.”

He finished his sentence and pull away again, released my hand. I gasped, doesn't think he would say that.

"Sorry."

He didn't reply me, and we finally reach my home. He stepped out from the car and open the car door for me. I slid out and he walk me to the main door, we reach the front door soon and I turn around and look at him. I cupped his face as my way of saying sorry again even though he doesn't know the real reason.

He leaned in and kiss me on my lips and my forehead. Soft and warm.

"Goodnight, angel."

The words I wanted to say to him doesn't come out, so I watch him turn around, walking away from me. He slid into his car and I watch him drive away.

I sighed and enter my house which my parents are sitting on the couch. I rolled my eyes and walk straight to the stairs.

"I guess you have a good day since your lips swell a bit."

I heard them laugh and I groan, embarrassed. Why I have them as parents again? Honestly, they don't act like their age. They even told me and my brother. So, when my brother did, you know having lots of girlfriend - they didn't say anything.

I guess they know we could take care of ourselves.

I enter my room and lay down, I don't bother to change my clothes. I look at my right hand again looking at the gold bracelet.

"Letter J is for James." I mumbled. He marked me like saying I am his.

He wants me.

As much as I want him.

I guess the loves came back and the hate fade away.

***

Two weeks pass by like that - just a constant meeting with Xander while Blade are not here in New York. He is having a business meeting in London.

I walk into my room and smile when I noticed a bouquet of flower on my table so I took a sit on my chair and put my handbag on the other side of table after I pick my phone. I take the flower and smell the soft and light smell of the roses.

I like it.

I take the card out and I knew the writing. Its Blade of course - since he went to London, he never forgot to send me flowers.

I'm back and let's have dinner today at my house. I'll cook. I'll pick you up at 7pm.

Blade, X

I smile and seriously - after I know he is a good cook, I don't really like the idea of me having dinner at a restaurant. Even though it is a famous one - his cooking is better though.

The day pass by quickly and I quickly pack my things - ready to go back. I admit I missed him, and I can't wait to meet him.

I reach my house at six pm, I rush to my room - taking a bath, changing into more comfortable clothes. I put on a white t-shirt with ripped jeans. For make up, I just put on the mascara and lipstick in nude colour. I tie my hair up in ponytail.

As I am walking downstairs, the doorbell ring. I just get a message from my mother that she and him are planning something big which I assume my brother's proposal. He seems can't wait for the wedding.

I open the door and meet with a badass Blade. He wears a white t-shirt pair with a leather jacket in black, blue jeans and a boot.

He looks hot.

I jumped into his arms, hugging him tightly as much I could. He hesitant to hug me but he did anyway. I pulled away from him and he leads me to his car, open the door for me so I slid in followed by him.

We arrive at his penthouse exactly thirty minutes later. The moment we step out from the elevator - he kisses me causing me to drop my handbag I was holding.

He pulled away and cupped my cheek. "I have miss you so much. Two weeks is like a hundred year without you."

I smile, giving him another hug till I pulled away - walking away from him placing my handbag on the coffee table. He is standing in front of the elevator - pouting a bit.

I walk back to him, pulling him to the kitchen. In there - I wrapped my hands around his waist, looking up watching his face smiling.

"I'm hungry and I miss your cooking." I said to him. He chuckled and pinch my cheek.

"What do you want?" I let him go and watching him remove his black leather jacket and put on his apron.

He holds my hand and pulled me to the stool making me seat. I do whatever he wanted me to because this is my first time that I would be watching him cook.

"I miss your steaks."

"Steaks it is." He brings out all the ingredients from the fridge - start preparing at me.

Almost one hour and he is now placing the steak on two plates. I get up from the stool helping him. He asked me to get some wine and two glasses, so I did.

"Tell me how is your two weeks without me?" He asked me while he starts cutting the steak into small pieces.

I look at him and smile, he wanted to know everything about me. I don't know why but I think I like that.

"Well, its fine I guess - just a usual day. Working and meeting. A lunch date with Xander since no one wanted to have lunch me. My friends are not here though to accompany me."

He finished cut the steak and he passed to me while I give him my plate.

"Xander Reed huh?"

I watch him clench his jaw, so I chuckle. I never know Blade Haford also could get jealous.

"What about you?"

"It is nice. I met again with my friend, Elizabeth when I was in London. I think the last time I met her was on my final year. Other than that, meeting all day."

I furrowed my eyebrow and clear my throat, "Your friend or your ex-girlfriend."

I put down the fork and sip the wine - waiting for his answer while he continue eating a steak and look at me.

"Sort of."

I feel a pang of hurt in my heart. I know it is my fault for asking that, but I was hoping he would give different answer. I didn't say anything and just keep on eating. My eyes swell in tears, but I hold it as much as I can.

Luckily, I've finished eating. I sip my wine again but decide to gulp down the wine in one shot. It burns my throat, but I don't care.

I heard him stand up and just in second - he is right beside me. He turns me around towards him. He put his finger on my chin and make me look at him.

I did and that is the time when my tears start to fall. He wipes my tears - I wanted to pull away but he didn't let me to do so.

He holds my hand and he pulled me to the upstairs. He opened the door and I can see a two blanket and two pillows on the floor near the window.

He pulled me to it and I sit on the blanket. It is thick enough. He sits beside me and cupped my face again. I turn to look at him.

"Are you upset?" He sighed, "Don't lie and tell me the truth."

I just nodded. I can't lie even if I want to.

"They are just my past. You're my future. I don't give a damn about them, so you don't have to worry."

I sighed, I don't know but I don't think I could.

"Want to hear a part of fairy-tale?"

I furrowed my eyebrow and nodded. He smiles before he lay down on the blanket. I followed him and we are facing each other.

"There's this one guy - his name is James. He has a best-friend and that best-friend has a beautiful little sister. Her wide eyes, her soft brown hair and her soft lips - he loves her as his little sister."

Is he talking about me?

"However, as years pass by - she turns out to be a beautiful woman that make him feels this weird feeling. It scared him to death and so the tragedy begins."

He smiles and played with bracelet. I look down and I love how we were in this position. I feel so warm.

"Then?"

He smirks, "Let's save it for another time."

I groaned and lay on my back watching the stars twinkle - the lights from New York City shines the room. I look at my right and caught him staring at me. His left hand extends to touch my face - just then I notice a tattoo on his wrist.

"When you have this? I didn't notice this before. J - stands for James?"

He looks at his wrist and smile, "Five years ago."

He didn't answer my other question, so I didn't ask further.

"What is your name?"

I look at him and he chuckle because I am sure confusion plastered on my face. "Samantha Jane Knight."

"There - you have your answer."

I furrowed my eyebrows - thinking so hard.

J? It is not for James but Jane.

"Why?" I blurt out.

He looks at me, "Later yeah?"

I wanted to know, I wanted to argue but I just let it slide. Knowing Blade if he said later it will really mean later. No chance to make him say it.

He then pulled me closer to him till our body touch. He put his right arm on my waist and my head on his left arm. I put my head at the crook of his neck and I can hear him breathing along with his heart beating.

I never cuddle but now I want it more.

I woke up the next day alone, I rub my face a few times before decide to walk down the stairs. Maybe he is in the kitchen.

"Blade, where are you?" I called for his name since he is nowhere near the kitchen.

Right after I step on the last stairs, I look at four people watching me. I wanted to run but I can't seem to do so.

"Um - morning." I said to four of them.

All of them didn't say anything but my brother, Zac and Chace turn to look back at Blade. I walk to them and sit beside Blade since there's no enough room beside my brother.

"Explanation might be good Haford." My brother narrowed his eyes on me. I gulped down - this is the first time I am scared looking at my brother.

"I don't think I have to give you any explanation, Knight. You know how I feel towards her. I did stay away but she attracts me so much Knight. If I stay away from her, I am dead."

I look at Blade and he look at me - giving me a smile to reassure me everything will be fine.

"No need to give me all those cheesy and corny words Blade. I wanted you to confess." My brother said, Blade and I give him a wide eye.

"So - you're okay with me and your sister?" Blade asked.

My brother chuckle, Zac and Chace followed him. I hate being so confuse.

"Both of you were adults. Do whatever you want. We can't pick who we want to love."

Chace then pretend like he wants to puke earning a smack from my brother.

"Since you proposed to her yesterday, you became this different man."

"You proposed who?!" I yell at my brother, he seriously did that? Wow.

"I've proposed to my girlfriend now fiancé, Violet. Let's have dinner tonight - you and me." I nodded, agreeing.

He then points to Blade, "Take care of her." He turns to look at Chace and Zac, "Let's leave this lovebird alone."

Three of them leave us and I look at the man beside me. "I want to freshen myself."

He pulled me into a hug, "So, your brother approved us."

I pulled away from him. I touch his face and smirk, "You are not going to get me that easily."

I wanted to pull my hand away, but he didn't let me, "Don't worry darling. I will get you less than a day."

He kissed my knuckles and I chuckled, "Game on, lover boy."

The rest of the day pass by quickly laughing at his joke, cuddling and smack him whenever he makes a naughty comment towards me.

I like it, he treats me like a friend at one time then he treats me like a lover at one time. He makes me comfortable and that's all I need.

"Darling, even though I wanted to keep you by myself here - you have a date with your brother."

I pouted, not ready to leave him alone. He smiles, "I'll ask him send you back here after both of you're done okay?"

I nodded, and he kiss me on the forehead, I blush and hid my face using my hair.

He chuckled and rolled my eyes.

"Samantha?" He called me.

I raised my eyebrow, "I think I develop a new hobby,” I raised my eyebrow at his statement, he then leans in closer to whisper, “My new hobby is making you blush, my love."

I blush once again, "Careful there. I don't want you to lose less than twenty-four hours though."

I shot him a glare, he leans in and kiss me - I love it though because without his knowing I already lost to him.