the story of my life

Im a child of two loving parents six brothers and two girls I am the last one my life started off pleasantly.I went to school in Kristo Nkosi Primary School and said the Lord's prayer every morning even at school we attended a church every Friday and then I attended my high school in Phulong Secondary School I'm an introvert I enjoy my own company after matric I never attended any college I decided to take a gap year and then the following year I applied for a assistant teaching job and I was hired I worked and I was happy I was teaching in the foundation phase area after my contact ended I stayed at home I've been applying for jobs in person and online but no luck since I've been seeking for help but no one has my time even my own siblings I've suffered alot I've been wondering asking if are they really my siblings cause the way I get the treatment from them it's something else I also don't understand I've always supported them in everything they do but I have never recieved any support from them but I decided to take my own direction pleaded with God to help me and he did cause now I don't care whether they like me or not that's not my problem I only listen to my father which is God because he's the only one that cares for me and he's the one that made me strong and be who I am today every single day God works miracles in my life and I thank him for everything I've suffered alone and I am healed with the help of my mighty father I wish I could remain the way I am and not let anything change me I remember meeting a guy that showed me care used to take care of me we loved each other and most of the time we used to spend time together there were always happy times we fought but a day wouldn't pass without resolving our issues he used to take me to school and fetch me and then spend time with me few years later he started changing he became rude disrespectful towards me and abused me physically and emotionally i didn't know what to do I started loosing weight only to find out that he's been cheating all along I wasn't the only girl in his life we started to fight and we're never on good terms each and every time when he comes to me he would be drunk and accusing me of things I know nothing about sometimes he would swear at me I always forgave him because I loved him but only to find out I was only wasting my time on someone who doesn't careless about my feelings he started to lie on my name towards his friends and family and caused chaos all the time he stopped lying about me cheating which I didn't he was the one doing so he always wanted to act as a victim in everything the moment he started to work he lied about everything and said to everyone that I'm lazy and useless and I was the one who made efforts for him to even get the job he disappointed me everytime he turned his back on me as soon as he started working he showed his true colors are I became sad each and everytime he would come and apologize but still repeat the same thing after he's rude arrogant and abusive so my advice to every female out there is to be careful towards our relationships and the type of partners we choose I've been giving him so many chances his family pretended to like me but only to find out there busy syphoning my energy I was always there to offer help even if it wasn't necessary I really thought that I have found and very loving family but they were all hypocrites from parents to grandchildren am happy because God opened my eyes and I saw their true colors and decided to save my energy and moved away from everyone sometimes we as human beings we should be aware of people we bring close to us it could also be your own family that can turn their backs on us no one is trustworthy in this life that's why we have to first love ourselves before seeking love from outside have you ever betrayed by one you considered family or friend that what I have experienced in my life we should sometimes take a moment pray ask God to reveal areas in our lives where we do things unaware ignorance reflect on Gods blessings in your life regardless of the struggles or hardships you may feel are over shadowing your world now pray back to God your gratitude for those blessings amongst your personal battles what I have done is worthy of nothing but silence and forgetfulness what God has done for me is worthy of everlasting and thankful memory but now I have decided to have my own peace we broke up and I'm now gaining my weight I'm free I don't have any stress I even forgave him to what he did to me I pray that he doesn't do the same thing to the next person he meets I'm wishing him well in this life.I am now prioritizing my own happiness I know one day God will answer my prayers there are times when we need to know something of people with whom we talk people can have their own reasons for questions which may not be at all clear from the words themselves be wise and don't waste energy answering silly questions.Reach out to someone to talk to today.Im a child of two loving parents six brothers and two girls I am the last one my life started off pleasantly.I went to school in Kristo Nkosi Primary School and said the Lord's prayer every morning even at school we attended a church every Friday and then I attended my high school in Phulong Secondary School I'm an introvert I enjoy my own company after matric I never attended any college I decided to take a gap year and then the following year I applied for a assistant teaching job and I was hired I worked and I was happy I was teaching in the foundation phase area after my contact ended I stayed at home I've been applying for jobs in person and online but no luck since I've been seeking for help but no one has my time even my own siblings I've suffered alot I've been wondering asking if are they really my siblings cause the way I get the treatment from them it's something else I also don't understand I've always supported them in everything they do but I have never recieved any support from them but I decided to take my own direction pleaded with God to help me and he did cause now I don't care whether they like me or not that's not my problem I only listen to my father which is God because he's the only one that cares for me and he's the one that made me strong and be who I am today every single day God works miracles in my life and I thank him for everything I've suffered alone and I am healed with the help of my mighty father I wish I could remain the way I am and not let anything change me I remember meeting a guy that showed me care used to take care of me we loved each other and most of the time we used to spend time together there were always happy times we fought but a day wouldn't pass without resolving our issues he used to take me to school and fetch me and then spend time with me few years later he started changing he became rude disrespectful towards me and abused me physically and emotionally i didn't know what to do I started loosing weight only to find out that he's been cheating all along I wasn't the only girl in his life we started to fight and we're never on good terms each and every time when he comes to me he would be drunk and accusing me of things I know nothing about sometimes he would swear at me I always forgave him because I loved him but only to find out I was only wasting my time on someone who doesn't careless about my feelings he started to lie on my name towards his friends and family and caused chaos all the time he stopped lying about me cheating which I didn't he was the one doing so he always wanted to act as a victim in everything the moment he started to work he lied about everything and said to everyone that I'm lazy and useless and I was the one who made efforts for him to even get the job he disappointed me everytime he turned his back on me as soon as he started working he showed his true colors are I became sad each and everytime he would come and apologize but still repeat the same thing after he's rude arrogant and abusive so my advice to every female out there is to be careful towards our relationships and the type of partners we choose I've been giving him so many chances his family pretended to like me but only to find out there busy syphoning my energy I was always there to offer help even if it wasn't necessary I really thought that I have found and very loving family but they were all hypocrites from parents to grandchildren am happy because God opened my eyes and I saw their true colors and decided to save my energy and moved away from everyone sometimes we as human beings we should be aware of people we bring close to us it could also be your own family that can turn their backs on us no one is trustworthy in this life that's why we have to first love ourselves before seeking love from outside have you ever betrayed by one you considered family or friend that what I have experienced in my life we should sometimes take a moment pray ask God to reveal areas in our lives where we do things unaware ignorance reflect on Gods blessings in your life regardless of the struggles or hardships you may feel are over shadowing your world now pray back to God your gratitude for those blessings amongst your personal battles what I have done is worthy of nothing but silence and forgetfulness what God has done for me is worthy of everlasting and thankful memory but now I have decided to have my own peace we broke up and I'm now gaining my weight I'm free I don't have any stress I even forgave him to what he did to me I pray that he doesn't do the same thing to the next person he meets I'm wishing him well in this life.I am now prioritizing my own happiness I know one day God will answer my prayers there are times when we need to know something of people with whom we talk people can have their own reasons for questions which may not be at all clear from the words themselves be wise and don't waste energy answering silly questions.Reach out to someone to talk to today.