Hidden Little Secret

Shift? but how (revised)

As I stood in the clearing looking at all three of them I was utterly confused. It almost seemed as if they were hiding something and I had to bet that James was the alpha and they were just pretending his dad never retired. For what ever reason I'm not sure since dad had already said he had retired. The beta wouldn't be kept out of the loop or make mistakes like that would they? I heard that wolves couldn't shift while pregnant that it put some kind of stress on the baby.

"It wont put stress on the kit! Us shifters are different from the wolves you lived next to." And with that James gave me a look but i couldnt tell what kind. He had no reason to be upset, it wasn't like i was his girlfriend or cheated on him. I looked to my father and it seemed like he was talking to someone but quietly. Mindlinking? I heard that was a thing with the wolves. The shifters must be able to do it as well. Then my father looked at me before coming closer to me. He took my hand before speaking again. "Imagine you see a beautiful lynx in front of you. Take a few deep breathes. Imagine you are changing into that lynx. You body shifts and your bones change to match your new shape. It will hurt but just focus on your breathing. Your body will adjust and the kit will be safe."

He then backed away towards the alpha and his son. I took a deep breathe and tried to so as my father said. It was a while before I felt something happen and then it was like all the bones in my body were breaking. Shifting, transforming into something else. "just keep breathing." I could hear my father yell out from his spot. Eventually my body finally adjusted and I looked down to see big paws. They were white and I smiled brightly inside. I doubted my lynx could smile visibly. I looked around and took in the scents that were around me. A wave of gardina flowers and the ocean. I looked around frantically trying to find the scent. Eventually my eyes fell on James and everything clicked when a little voice in my head spoke.

"That's our mate!" The voice screamed and I took a step back. James shifted really quickly before he was now in front of me. All I could smell was his scent and it was overwhelming. James nuzzled his nose into my next and my breathing hitched. He was taking in my scent and all I could do was stand there. In my confusion and surprised state I stumbled backwards and had shifted back into my human state. James had as well but he quickly grabbed my hand and pulled me into his chest. He was at least six foot, way taller than my ex had been. Being in his arms i felt safe but I was scared. He would hurt me I could tell. He was angry that I was carrying someone else's child. Anyone would be if their mate had not waited.

He looked over at my dad and his dad and they all knodded before walking off. The clearing was quiet now and James scooped me up and took me over to this little house. I hadn't even noticed it till just now. "This is just the rec house, canoes and other stuff are in here but there is a room for those that are out here to late and dont want to come back." He said and I just stayed silent in his arms. Opening the door he kicked it the rest of the way before brining us inside. Then he closed it with his foot and threw me onto a couch that was nearby. "I have been waiting for you for Thirty two years. In all my life I have yet to find you. I'm a little sad you didn't wait but thats fine. I can tell it wasn't by choice." What did that mean? "I'm not angry, If you would let me I can take away some pain."

"Please stop this is all to much." What kind of pain would he even try and take away? There was no. No.

"What is the matter?" He asked kneeling in front of me.

"You will eventually hate me. Theres no way I'm the mate you wanted. I will eventually find a way to annoy you and you will one day be repulsed by me. You will...." My breathing hitched trying to speak. I had never told anyone what he had done to me. The scars on my back where they are from. It's been forever since I have even worn a bathing suit when going to the beach. My lynx was screaming at me but I couldn't hear what she was saying.

"Just because your previous choice in men was terrible, doesn't mean anything. The gods paired us together, we are fated Chloe. To go against the gods would be to deny myself. They chose the perfect person for us. The one to calm our fire, the ying to our yang basically. You will be my Luna, I will train you to be strong. You are a hybrid and the daughter of a beta, I have no doubt you will be a strong Luna to our pack." He said our pack. He already accepted me pregnant and all? He pushed some hair behind my ear and I flinched. He would do that right before smacking me. Saying I was stupid and needed to do better. No smack came. Just a hand softly on my cheek moving me to look at his face. I opened my eyes and looked into James' eyes. I never noticed they were emerald green before.

"I don't want you to hate me." I said with tears falling down my face. He picked me up and sat on the couch pulling me closer. He put his head on the top of mine and took a deep breathe. I wanted to push him away, run away this was to good to be true. He would hurt me one day I could feel it.

"He would never!" My lynx screamed at me and all logic inside said to ignore her. The past had proven otherwise.

"Please. My pack and our kind are taught that our fated mate is to important. If we reject our mate it only brings us bad things. There have been times some of us have rejected a mate and things have ended badly. The gods laugh at them and they are taken out of their favor. As long as I have lived not a single fated couple has grown to hate each other. And we will not be any different I can promise you that. And I will never hurt you only protect you. Let me show you." And before I could even say anything he was sinking his canines into my neck.