eyes lies and spies

In this story I talk about the not so pretty side to what s*x, drugs melostaton, kids and money do to just your avrige person.being human and not even haveing a chance at life and have to choose survival. At the hands of absolute monsters. Some people come in to this world and make money monsters from every human being in there cross fire. nevermind being nice and loving and helpful no you wanna know what's really happening buckle up buttercup cuz I'm going into this.this s**t is for real and your not gunna like it like the rest of us when your born you are given a smacke on the ass and wisked away from you. mother's amrs so Doctors can study you then if you live through that they prick you bundle you put a hat on you to keep you warm and give you to your monster I.. I mean mother who is just ready to have a cigarette and leave you there at there hospital so you could f**k off and go to God knows we're but instead you decide after your cigarette break that you'll keep the baby and make her pay for every molecule of her being because you have regrets let's spin the wheel and see what we win. oh. that's right the baby.... the baby....Colorado... Illinois....back and forth family this family that money hungry bitches no respect for themselves or others yay you had s*x added it to the s**t show.have a perfectly good relationship ruined because daddy had a f*****g hart attack after looking at you and your missruble so f**k it turn all your s**t in to the .... baby your mom works with you but she has a rich husband and family and your own brother that gets all the love money and benefits you to busy doing the ungodly to notice but it's ok because you procreated job well done doso. your a couerd and there's good reason to hate your exsitance because you knowinly set in motion some f****d up kids s**t and she hasn't had her first f*****g memory yet. you just had to listen to your money hungry man beating down sisters .....ok. listen this is getting allittle out of hand let me paint a picture you just had a kid you had your cig and you put yourself together and go back in to the hospital . the father of that child was working really hard with the f*****g trees manual labor and baby's works money and bitches don't go together do they so your back home our bothered the guy you made the baby with is a good guy and works hard for you Xmas is coming up and your in a mood so you turn on the heat and you go to town packing your stuff knowing full good and well what your doing but your willing to lie steal cheat and f**k your way through life but with ...me as your ragdoll with nothing nice to say you get on a train and run run run as fast as you can but you can't caugh yourself you're a horrible b***h. you make nice in Colorado get a restraining order for live alright now that I ran away from people who cared to people who could give a f**k less you decide to stay in Colorado and get jiggy with your best friends mate that's right not a love triangle more over a w***e order I guess you could say any ways it's the hallidays nights as well let a sneaky link right you never even think to give a gift as conceded as you are of course and he embarrassed you Infront of everybody with a massage chair when in the mail he had a ring for your pritty little finger but you made up your mind already to make not only his life miserable but damage every one in you wake every one knew what was going on in Colorado but yet you kept it blind we see you for who you truly are a momster after a few years and this and that. the kid is getting older smarter kinder you teach it to sit there take the medicine and lay there they there like a dog in heat and let the rest take it's course you turn on your self and friends you turn into a flake not because your a good momma but because your a b***h running from the truth and the truth is you pathetic stop whining get up I told you to buckle up. work drugs caffeine s*x repeat every day apartment after apartment hotels or streets but even then at least in a car or bar right..the kid aww yes the kid were is she what the f**k there she goes with the man in the bar room stall like you should be but no you take your drunks ass to the curb and forget the kids in the bathroom with the man sleep and tears crawling down my face it's a wedding we're are we oh yeah Colorado in the barn out in the mud we all get in the car me you and best friend with benefits friend is now you husband and the kid got money for dunkily giveing head to pay for the ride home the kid bothers you and just anoys you so you let anyone how ever lived be with your kid except yourself you never take a moment to ask yourself questions or why you just do because and that's it. the kid is in school and she's asking questions to meany questions what's a family are why a family whats a mom dad grandmother friends cousins what the story idk how what why were nothing alot of nothing but absolutely dog s**t of a mess you refuse to look at the kid. and your drunk and pregnant again allittle brother I'm so happy porud exsided and you your a mess let me help you again. this time let's take it from the top and we're in and out of uncle cousin sister brothers grandma and grandpa's house all the while your off fuckin around and were left with the creeps thanks for that but I take meds and I'm ok because we're family I'm the crazy kid idk what I'm saying I'm a lier right all my memories are made up right no now we no what the truth is the truth is I have a mouth and you gave me the lighter fluid to light this b***h up I took care of that little brother I didn't do great but I did my best and he missed me because of I loved him I was his home him mom you weren't there you w we re off f*****g around so wraped in yourself untill it was to late I got off the drugs that you gave to me to feel like home my brother knows I loved him even if he doesn't remember much because all we did was fight and argue and yell but I know one thing tho we all know now that I'm older and I grew colder you somehow someway keep living like you got nothing to say you took my childhood away you took everything you could from me and I survived I got devorced after you sold me I had a kids when I was a kid and we were kids haveing kids. meantal s****l physical health I have to pick up the pieces I was never even given a chance to servive and here are you and here is me. I may have my own falts but at least I look good in the mirror I see the future it's beautiful it's better and it full of love and family real family. I servived!