Until ever after

What happened to us, what happened to the words he said to me and the memories of us just lying on the grass and talking about our future together? Was everything a lie? Nothing I said to him even got across to him, not about us being together until the end. My best friend and boyfriend are in bed together, in the apartment I'm paying for, eating the food I buy, in my bedroom on the bed I paid for, and these unknown feelings run throughout my body. If this was just a dream, I wish to be woken up by now, but I can't, knowing that this is all real and happening in front of me right now, I am lost for words. I stare at both of them, knowing they are unaware of my presents. I won't fight or yell as doing so would only cause drama in my life. Nothing I say will get them to see my point. They both match perfectly. "You have 2 minutes to get out of my house, Maggie, before I do something I might regret." they both jumped out of the sheets as they had just seen a ghost. "Jamie, please listen to me, I mean we didn't mean to hurt you," I looked right into her eyes. "Maggie, you have a minute now, so you either get the hell out or I'll throw you out myself," she quickly got up, put her clothes on, and ran out the door before the minute was done. Making my way to my closet, I felt his eyes on me the whole time, not moving one bit like I said I won't fight, but that doesn't mean I can't beat their asses. "Jamie, I'm sorry," I stopped what I was doing for a moment and then continued grabbing the suitcase to pack his s**t just so I could throw him out of my house. I took a deep breath and then I replied to him, "No you're not sorry," I stated. "What are you talking about, I just said," I stopped him right there, "You are not sorry if you were. You wouldn't have done this so many times with Maggie. So many times, I have known about this affair for many years but I was so in love with you that I didn't want to lose you, but I should have known you were never mine to begin with, and all this time I was just another toy for you to play with." He looked at me thinking I was done, but I wasn't. I had been holding this off for many years. "You think just because you say sorry would make me want to still be with you," I walked slightly forward to the bed. " No, I am done being used by you. I'm only with you because you make me feel like s**t, you gatekeep me to stay with you after all those times. I tried to leave you after finding out about all those other women. I know you just thought that I was just having an episode and after that you made me feel like s**t. I'm done. I want you to leave Sebastian Cross, and I mean get the hell out of my house. I don't care who your family is and I don't care what you guys do. I am done being just a lapdog for you to use, so leave before I call the police." I threw his suitcase on the ground with his s**t in it. moved away so he could get dressed. He stood up from the bed, put his clothes on, and grabbed the suitcase, he walked over to me and, without missing a beat, he tried to control me again. " Jamie, you don't know what you are doing, whatever you saw didn't mean anything. I love you and only you please," as he was about to touch my right cheek with his nasty hands, I held my hand up to stop him from talking and to stop him from touching me. "Fine, if this is really how you feel, then I'll go. Just remember you won't find someone to love you like me, no one else will love someone like you, so if I leave, then good luck trying to find someone else better. You're still a virgin so no one is going to like that" he said as I led him right to the front door and held it open for him. "Sebastian, knowing that you were never better is all that matters. I'm so happy I chose not to marry you because now I finally understand that you were never my happy ending, so if you leave now, you can catch Maggie and then you can gatekeep her. You Narcissist, goodbye and have a nice life. Oh, and did she tell you that she is HIV positive? Yeah, good luck trying to find someone to f**k you now," I did the only thing I could think of at the moment. I smiled and as his face was turning red from anger, and then I slammed my door. "Jamie, once I leave I will not be coming back," he yelled as he pounded on my door. I waited for a few minutes before opening. To my surprise, he was still standing at my door. "Jamie please listen, I love you so much," I leaned on my door and let him speak, my smirk visible on my face. "Are you done, Sebastian? Because you are begging and just looking stupid is not your thing, so if you don't mind, I would like to sleep before going to work tonight. Thank you very much and goodbye," with that I closed the door one last time and went to my room. Slowly walking to my room, step by step, I took each piece of clothing I had on and just dropped it on the floor. I entered the room and just stood at the end of the bed and just thought to myself, I could have avoided all of this if I had listened to my mother, who told me he was not the right one. I laughed to myself, "if she sees me now she will tell me how stupid I am." I walked to my closet to grab a clean set of sheets, re-made my bed, and laid down, Like I said, this is not the first time he did this to me. But it sure was the last time I let him hurt me like that. All I could think about at the moment was Miley Cyrus' song Flowers, and at that moment I decided to get up, put the song on blast, and just dance my heart out, " I can take myself dancing, and I can hold own my hand, yeah I could love me betta than I can love me betta than you cannnnnnnn," After the end of the song I felt relaxed and Finally myself. Dating Sebastian had some perks because he was from a rich household. Let me try explaining it better to you. He is from the second most dangerous mafia. They're known as the Crosses. I know the name is s**t right, but if you thought Sebastian has a big ass ego you should see his mother, His father I have never met him before but her sounds like a prick. Mr. and Mrs. Cross has two sons, one you met, and the other is supposed to be somewhere distant. I really don't know all they said was he left his family, for his selfish reason, and looking at his family, I would have gone to if I was their child. But now thinking back to the day we met, I should have told myself that, just because he's good-looking and rich doesn't mean he is the right one for you, I left everything I was and everything that was a part of me for someone who was only going to use me don't ever leave with someone who doesn't even love you trust me I would know. Finding out that I got up and left must've been hard for my mother, but I don't really think she would care about our lives and let's just say that my family never showed emotions, so I really don't know what she is thinking I was just assuming. Let's just say we have many secrets that can't come to light because once you know too much, I might have to kill you.