GOODBYE ADAM
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After school ended I met Adam at a diner close to the school so we could talk. He came in and sat down next to me and said: "Hey there little lady." I grinned and said, "You are never going to quit are you." "no, you are worth the fight. So, what did you need to speak to me about." "Well, first you need to understand about Lee and myself." He cut me off saying "I had a long talk with Rachel and I understand now. You two are like two peas in a pod, mashed potatoes and gravy, a cowboy and his horse..." I giggle "you just had to bring that one in." "you better believe it, little lady." "ok, another thing Noah..." "come on please tell me you are not speaking to him." "look
Adam yes, he hurt me and yes I in many ways I still love him but I can't shut him out even if I didn't he has been in my life literally my whole life. Our families hang out together go on vacations together, in essence, we are like one big family. I will always be around him." "fine as long as he knows hands off." "Adam, he wants another chance." "Oh, and you are thinking of giving it to him." "yes, but not yet. He is coming in this weekend and wants to go out. As of right now, it is just as friends but you can not go blowing your top if you see something you don't like and you can't have someone following me around to make sure nothing is happening." "ok, like you said we are just dating. How about we go and walk along the beach." I smile and say "Ok" We decide that he will pick me up at my house so I can drop off my car and books."
We started walking along the beach holding hands and talking. He asked about the upcoming carnival and wondered if I was going to be running it again. He wasn't happy when I told him not only was I going to be running it but now that we were just dating I was going to participate. He was not happy about the last part at all. I looked at him and asked him why "well, I haven't even kissed you and you are going to let a bunch of random guys kiss you instead." I turned and looked into his eyes and smiled. Next thing I know I couldn't move my eyes from his and he leaned in and brushed his lips against mine. I felt his tongue snake out to brush along my lips and I allowed him to gain access. He pulled me in close and deepened the kiss when we pulled away we were a little breathless but I felt like something was missing. We started walking back to the car in silence both of us lost in our own thoughts. I couldn't help but think it was not the kind of kiss I have shared with Noah. Not even that night last year at the kissing booth.
For the first time since Adam and I have been hanging out together, we were silent. Neither one of us spoke. The ride home was uncomfortable it was obvious we crossed a line we should never have. I was not sure how we were going to fix this I guess the love I feel for Adam I confused with the love I have for Noah because of how much he hurt me. I just hope I don't hurt Adam when I tell him I just want to be friends. As we pull up to my house Adam parks the car and gets out walks around the car and opens my door. As usual, he walks me to my front door and says "look this is awkward but I have been thinking maybe...damn..." "you just want to be friends" I ask. He lets out a sigh of relief and says "yes, I am sorry little lady it is just when we kissed I realized I mistaking admiration for love." I smile "yeah, same here. Thanks, Adam you were there for me when I needed you" "you know if you decided to forgive him make him work for it." I smile "don't worry he will"
Later that night I called Lee. "hey twin uhm Adam and I decided to be just friends" "really what happened" "well we kissed and it was nice but that was it. Just nice." "well, it should be earth shattering" "yeah I know. Lee what if ..." "you were to forgive Noah" "yeah" "Shells I just want you to be happy but do me a favor so I am happy too" "what" "make him work for it. Make him prove he is worthy of you." "I will goodnight Lee I love you" "love you to Shell's bye."
I closed my eyes that night realizing that Noah would be home in two days and we have a date. I drift off to sleep wondering should I let him know Adam and I are just friends or let him think differently. We will just have to wait and see either way he will have to make up for making me believe that he really did want a break. I dreamed of him that night holding me close and whispering that nothing was coming between us again because I will always love you, Shelly, always.
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