Love is not only Romance

Chapter 11 - Part 1

On the November day that changed everything, I had already had a bad dream. Anxiety rose to the surface as I left the safe haven of my home for school. I was paranoid for anything bad to come. As it said on that daily horoscope for Aquarius, today might be a day of chaos.

Hours passed and everything seemed to be okay. We were in study phases as the finals were coming up and the teachers had completed the years work. Most students ran a havoc outside classroom while only a few teachers tried to maintain the peace. I couldn’t have been bothered because it seemed as if my friends had left to join the havoc that roared outside the class. It seemed that Elle had also disappeared, and I found myself in a almost empty classroom scribbling poems in the back of my books. I wrote letters to everyone. I wrote about how sorry I am or how angry they made me. there was never much variety of feelings that I felt.

The bell for lunch went off and I wondered the school with my backpack on my back in search for my friends. I had spotted them with James in the courtyard of the school. In hopes of not having to talk t him I tried to signal them that I was here. They noticed me, only after someone screamed for Samantha after noticing my failed attempts. As the girls spoke their final words to James, I notice him looking at me. in a split moment he was shaking his head while they nodded theirs. They pulled him with them towards me and I internally freaked out.

“K, James was just telling us how he had something to tell you, but he couldn't find you. Isn't it a coincidence that you just showed up right now??? Pauline explained as if it would all make sense as to why he stood in front of me. he stood tall with a cheeky grin to say that he had won something. Or someone.

I tell them that the coincidence is crazy. They him that we should go talk. For some reason my mouth did not match my mind and I found myself walking with James as he tried to save the moment.

“What are you trying to do? What is your game plan exactly” I finally found the words lost in my throat and my feet stopped moving. We stood in the empty hallway, the wing running chills down my back as my friends stood not so far off watching us. His black hair tousled as he ran his fingers through it and his eyes pleading.

“I just want another chance. I want to fix us. I want to be with you” His words were firm as he tried to hold my arms. I took a step back as if his words pushed me. Maybe his words did push me, over the edge of sanity.

“You don't get another chance. I don't want this. I'm done with all of this. You have no right to do this when I told you it was over”

He sighs as if I was a suborn child not understanding “Why can't you see that everyone wants us together. We can be amazing. We are amazing. Just one more chance Babe”

“No James. I'm not changing my mind. Not now. Not ever. We weren't amazing. Fighting all the time, the constant lack of trust, none of that is amazing. Its toxic. We’re toxic together” I start to walk backwards, away from it all “Please just stop. Move on. Its what's best”

And with that I walk away completely. Or so I thought. I didn't know me walking away from James meant me losing everything that I had. Everyone that I had.

When we walk away from someone, we only think about us and what were going to do next. Because we are don't with that person, they are out of our lives. But sometimes it matters what that person does next because there's always the Butterfly effect. That darn butterfly effect.