Hate the way I always miss you

"Goodmorning moommy"  I woke up like every other morning. With the sound of my sons voice and his sweet cute laughter. "I want a walk mooommmyyy!!" He starts to get fussy so quick lately and I'm so over it. Although I still wouldn't change it for the world. "Alright son, let me make my coffee real quick" I sleepily get out of bed and look over and see that Josh left to work early once again. I've never been a morning person , but I get up at seven every morning and somehow Josh (my husband) , leaves here by six. And the only reason I know that is because I get up to pee in the mornings and his side of the bed lays empty. Like how can he possibly get up that early, on the other hand I consider myself a lazy person so maybe it's just me.  By the time I'm done making my coffee, my son Noah lays in the living room playing with his toys while I finish getting the last things ready for our daily walk. He'll soon be in elementary school and I'm just not ready for that to happen as a parent because I can remember giving birth to him like it was yesterday, Time really does go by way to quick.  I decide to spoil Noah and I after our walk because he reminded me that I agreed to give him some ice cream after he cleaned his room yesterday since I ran out at home. And luckily there was a little shopping center right on the corner on the outside of our neighborhood. As he tops his chocolate ice cream with sprinkles and gummy worms, I get a small plain cup of vanilla. We sit outside since it's so warm and nice outside and he starts to tell me how he wants to be an artist one day. These moments are the one's that I live for because one day I won't have this sweet precious boy in front of me. Hopefully he'll still want to talk to his old lady and not get embarrassed in front of his friends.  As we're about to leave, the shop doors open next door which I never even payed attention too until I heard this girl laughing hysterically, almost like she was faking it. Noah and I throw our trash away and as we're about to leave my body goes into shock at what I see.  No f*****g way. I can't believe this s**t. I was never supposed to see him again and yet , here he is , standing right in front of my face. With that devilish grin that I still dream of secretly at night.  "Hello Beautiful"