Glorious Hate

The loss<3 Ophelia

r**e. Abuse. Murder.

It is something common; things that happen on a daily basis. We hear about it, we read about it, we see it.

We experience it.

They did most of it to me. What can I say, I have had one hell of a past. Which is beginning  to slip into my present. Starting with Ryder.

The boy that r***d me. The father of my child. Dead child to be exact. 

The funny part is he doesn't remember anything; we were still kids. Oh well, the past is in the past anyways.

Looking at the clock besides my bed, I notice that it's  quarter past eight in the morning which means that I am late for work, so I will report in later. Looking to the other side to see Ryder who is lying on his stomach; almost falling off the bed with his right hand hovering over the floor. Last night Ryder started letting out soft snores when I began telling him about my past, which I am thankful for because I don't know what was going on through my mind when I decided to tell him about my past. He was not going to remember anything anyways with all the wine he had.

Dragging myself out of my thoughts, I make my way to the bathroom to take a shower. Minutes later, someone who I assume to be Ryder slides the door to the shower open and wraps his hands around my waist from behind.

"What happened last night? Everything is blank."

"I do not recall inviting you for a shower Mr Godwin."

"I like it when you call me that."

"Whatever rolls your boat."I say scrubbing my neck. I wanted to wash my hair today but because Ryder is here today, I cannot risk him knowing that I am the same person as Sunny so I wear a shower cap on my head.

"Can I ask you something?" 

"You already asked."

"Smart ass." He laughs as he gives ass a little slap. " Seriously though. Why do you speak formal English?"

"What do you mean?" I play dumb.

"You don't use standard contractions like I just did. Why?" Curious.

"Why do you use standard contractions?

"It's easier. Saves time." He unwraps his hands from my waist and reaches out for my products to clean himself. I continue with my scrubbing.

"I have all the time in the world so there is no need to make short cuts." Liar, I was taught,no, disciplined to use proper English like a proper lady.

"I see." I rinse my loofah after scrubbing myself.  I get under the water to remove the soap off me.

"Can I use your scrub?" I turn around to look at Ryder to see him washing himself with his hands. I replace his hands with mine as I run my fingers over his chest, abdomen and going to his biceps as well. All the while looking into his eyes. He brings head towards mine until our lips meet and we start kissing like animals. My soapy hands moving to hold his cheeks as he slides his hands under my thighs to lift me up.

He walks under the shower making sure not to disconnect our lips.

"Damn, you're so sexy." Don't I know it.

"Shut up and f*** me."

Thats all he needed to give me the best morning s*x.

Definitely the best.

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"Thank you so much for that appalling presentation but I have to cut it short. If you don't step your game up next time, it won't end well for you. You can now leave." The lanky man who was doing a presentation for my new project in Greece nods his head and vanishes from the meeting room just like everyone else. 

A smile graces my phone as I think about what happened this morning. After taking our shower, we got dressed, Ryder wearing the suit he was wearing yesterday. I tried to kick him out when he finished changing but then he begged to make me breakfast, saying that I needed the energy after our...morning activities. I obliged but I soon  regretted it, the ma couldn't cook to save his own life. The boiled eggs had big cracks on them which let floor inside. The bacon was burnt. Overall, everything looked like Hiroshima after the bombing.

Ring. Ring.

My phone rings in my bag which is on the table next to me. Taking it out, I look at the ID that I haven't seen in ages. What could he want from me?

"Hello." I say after answering.

"Hello to you too sweetheart. How have you been?"I can even picture a sly smile pasted on his face as he says that.

"The same as before. Why don't you tell me what you want because I am busy."

"Don't get feisty with me now sweetheart. Remember who you are talking to." Sly bastard.

"Anyways, what's happening between you and Ryder. I know about your little activities." He says and I feel my anger start to rise.

"So you are keeping tabs on me now? What happened to us being equals?" He starts laughing.

"Of course sweetheart, you are. But sometimes equals forget that they have their other half and do things without consulting each other."

"So you wanted me to consult you about having s*x with Ryder? Don't you think that I have freedom in who I see?"

"Not when you are shagging me as well. If you consulted maybe we would have had fun together." Pervert.

"What is it that you want from me?" I ask, slightly irritated that the things he is talking about are pointless and wasting my time.

"Oh, yeah. I just wanted to warn you not to forget our plans. Its an in and out, no staying. Remember."

"I will not forget my part. Don't worry."

"Are sure that you don't have some kind of attachment because you had a baby together?" He just had to bring up my baby. He always does this. If it was not for how he helped me, he would have the same fate as my father.

"No." I answer. 

"Good. Now, do you wanna come over mine to have a session?"

"I am at work."

"That is why you are the boss. Unless if you don't deserve that role."

"I will be there." I say and then hang up on him.

When, I'm about to put my phone back in the bag. It pings, notifying me that I have a new message. When I look at it, I smile at myself.

Can I come over to yours tonight?

What am I going to do?

EYOOOOOOO beauties, I hope that you are all doing great. During this time, I am trying so hard to make some of you smile and I hope that I am succeeding in that department; that's why I have been trying to write chapters as quick as possible. 

Can you please comment who Ophelia is going to choose. RYDER OR HIM.

And who could Ophelia be scared of?

The following chapters are going to be ...fun to read. Trust me.

lyl- N xoxo.