The Alpha Queen

Chapter 3 - Wolf

~ Davina's pov ~

There was still so many questions that roamed around in my head but I just wanted a break. Getting a little spa session in the middle was perfect. My thoughts are all over the place. Mom promised that we could talk more later when dad gets home too. I look forward to it. But right now I just want to relax and enjoy the last evening of no chaos. I mean in my head there's still chaos but not around me yet. I felt better after we had our girls spa time and not to forget my nails are fab. 

We got home and saw dads car in the driveway. Now we can continue with all werewolf stuff so I get to know everything I need to know. Or well at least the most important stuff. I don't even know what it is that I would like to know, I mean I still don't know anything about being a werewolf or werewolfs at all basically. We went in and dad was waiting in the living room. He smiled when he saw us, like he always does. It's like his hole world are getting brighter when mom walks into the room. I know he's happy to see me too but it's a different happy. Mom sat down beside him and I went to the couch opposite of them and sat down. Mom and dad looks at each other like I have never seen other couples do. It's like they would die if they didn't have the other. 

"You never seem to get tired of each other, you are always touching and smiling and looking at the other with so much love." I didn't realize I actually said it before I did. It was the truth I just didn't mean to say it out loud. They smiled at me and mom leaned on dad like she did when they sat beside each other. 

"That's a werewolf thing, you see your mom is my mate." Dad said smiling wide at mom. She returned the smile just as wide as dad. Mate? That's a weird word. 

"You mean like soulmate?" I asked. That makes kind of sense if that's the case. 

"Kind of, your mate is the other part of your soul. You find your mate when you turn 18, or later it depends on when you meet the person. Then when you have met your mate you can never be without that person, it hurts being away from each other. It's like a part of you is missing. And if your mate dies so do you, but slowly. But on the plus side your mate can never hurt you because it hurts them too." mom explained. 

It made sense thinking about how they are with each other. I wonder if my parents where mates too. And if I have a mate? If you can find your mate when you turn 18 I can do that tomorrow. Maybe I already know my mate? Now I'm just curious. I won't get my hopes up about finding my mate so I don't need to be disappointed if I don't get one, I mean mom just told me it can take time. 

"So everyone have a mate? Mom and dad where mates?" I asked just to be sure. 

"No not anyone, but most of us have. The moongoddes bless most wolfs with a mate, just the really bad ones and when I tell you that I mean the really bad ones I really mean the reeeeaally bad ones. Like the rapists, the pedofiles, you get the type. Murderers still get mates because most werewolfs have needed to kill someone at one time. Some don't get one ether way or they get a second chance mate if the moongoddess thinks you deserve one." Dad explained. 

"And yes your parents where mates." Mom answered my other question. I smiled. It made me happy to know they where ment for one another. I hope I get it too, I really do. There was one thing that I didn't fully get from dads answer tho. 

"What do you mean with second chance? Why would you get a second chance?" 

"Well it's if your true mate died, like in an accident or some attack. They happen more often than we like to admit. Then if the Moongoddess thinks you deserve a mate you get a second one, it's not your true mate but it's a mate and over time it will be like your true mate. Does that answer your question?" Mom finished her explanation. 

"Yes, it's kind of nice knowing that there's a person out there that are my mate. To know that I have one too that are made for me. But what happens when a mate dies? You said that it hurts when you are not with your mate?" I don't really know if I want to know the answer but the more I know the better right? My heart started beating a little faster when I looked at my parents. Mom and dad shared a look and I know the answer wasn't a good one. 

"We don't want to scare you honey, but some go crazy with the loss of their mate. Some cope but they never are the same agin. We only know what some have described and what we have seen, and it isn't a nice thing. Some still get a second chance mate so they get better with time. But most decides to end their life to go be with their mate and the Moongoddess in the afterlife." Mom explained. You could see pain in her eyes and that she squeezed dads hand a little. I know she thought about losing him. I don't want her to think about that any longer, or dad so I just asked the first thing that come to my mind. 

"So does it hurt? I mean shifting into a wolf?" I was scared actually. 

"Yes honey, but just the few first times. Then it doesn't hurt a bit, it's like breathing and it feels liberating to shift." Dad smiled explaining. I was not looking forward to the hurting but at least it wasn't going to hurt forever. 

"So does everyone like their wolf? What if I don't like mine?" I felt a little nervous. I mean I just couldn't change out my wolf if I don't like her. Or is it going to be a he? I don't even know. 

"You will like her. She's like you but a wolf, like an extension of yourself." Mom said and smiled. Okay so it's going to be a her. That makes sense. I felt the nervousness disappear a little. I probably won't be able to get all the nervousness away before tomorrow but it feels nice to know that it can be less than before. 

"Your wolf will always be there for you, she can be mad at you but as long as you don't hurt your mate she will forgive you." Dad explained. That's actually nice. It warms my heart and is a little scary too. I will never be totally alone again. I will always have my wolf. My head is spinning a little with all information. I take a deep breath to just calm down a little. 

"Okay so for tomorrow, how will it work? What should I think about so it doesn't get harder than it has to be?" I asked with determination. I just want to make this as smooth as possible for me. It will be an awful day if I make it harder on myself just because I didn't know something. My parents looked a little strange after my question. I don't get why. 

"Okey honey, you need to have clothes you don't care about on you and extra with you because when you will transfer into your wolf your clothes will rip. We usually take our clothes off before shifting but we get that you don't want to be naked infront of us so just have some old clothes on." Mom explained. That's so weird. It's that just me thinking that's weird? To be naked and shift? I mean sure you don't have to rip your clothes but still, weird. That made me feel so uncomfortable. It's sweet of them to let me have clothes tho. 

"Okay, weird but I get it. Anything else?" I wanted to know everything in advance. 

"No not really that weird. As werewolfs you are comfortable with your body and have no problem showing yourself. Maybe the first times for you will be little weird, after all you are raised in the human world. But for the rest of us it's totally natural. Werewolfs have a high s*x drive as well so being naked is no problem. Some wait for their mate, but most of werewolfs don't because our s*x needs are bigger than humans." Dad answered. I got a little flustered when he started talking about s*x drive. I mean I know I wanted s*x and that's normal but I always felt that it was a little extra than the humans. I know my cheeks are a little red thinking about my s*x lust. 

"We are going to the deeper part of the woods here by. Just so no humans will see us. We can't risk expose ourselves to them. And as we told you before it will hurt the first times you will shift. but as a werewolf you heal faster than a human so it wont hurt for long. You will also have better senses as wolf, be faster, stronger and all that. You have all that in human form as well but it's just stronger in wolf form." Mom told me. I just looked at her. I mean that made so much sense. I always want to be training and I am more fit than the humans I know. Not to mention how much faster and stronger I am. I have always been the best in PE. It was just Marissa that have been a competition for me. But I still beat her of course. I checked my phone to see what time it was. It was already 10am. I needed to shower and to sleep. I need all the energy for tomorrow. I am just happy that it's not a school day and that I don't have to worry about that. 

"I got it. I think I should shower and go to bed now so I have all the energy I need tomorrow." I got up from the couch and went over to mom and dad to give them a hug. They both smiled at me. I went over to dad and gave him a hug first. 

"Your parents would be so proud to have you as their daughter, just as proud as we are of you." Dad said kissing my forehead. I smiled. My heart felt so full knowing that. I smiled ear from ear. I went over to mom and gave her a hug too. 

"You need to be ready tomorrow. We will have a long day. First in the evening you will have your shift but you need to prepare for it. You will feel funny the hole day as well, it's hard to describe and we will have to see when your wolf will come out to say hi as well." Mom told me as she hugged me tighter. I nodded as a respons. I know she can't see it but she feels it. I was nervous and I know she could sense it. 

"Go on to bed now honey, we will see you tomorrow." Dad said and took mom in his arms instead. 

"I will, goodnight." I smiled to them both. They smiled back and both answered with a "goodnight" as well. I went out to the kitchen and got a bottle of water. All of this werewolf stuff should freak me out, and to be honest it probably would be freaking me out if I didn't have mom and dad with me. I got chills down my spine just thinking about doing this all alone. I shake it off. I'm not alone so I don't want to think about it. 

I went up to my room and got in the shower. The warm water was welcomed with open arms. It makes me relax all down to my pinky toe. I can be in the shower forever but I know mom and dad don't like having only cold water to shower in. I get them but I just love my long warm showers. I laugh at myself as I got out of the shower. I brushed my hair and my teeth before going to my closet. I picked out my pyjamas and got to bed. I put on a movie and got comfortable. I like these kind of nights, they make me feel good. Makes me a little less nervous over tomorrow and everything that will bring. I'm curious as to what my wolfs name is and how it will feel having some other creature in my mind all the time. Maybe I will go crazy? And will I meet my mate? Oh s**t I just realized I forgot to ask mom and dad how you know someone is your mate. What if I stare the person right in the eyes and don't  know it's my mate? I will ask first thing tomorrow when I wake up. I feel myself dozing off and I'm so happy my tv will turn itself off after a while so I don't have to because right now I am to exhausted. 

When I woke up I remembered my question from last night. In fact I have been dreaming all about werewolfs. It still feels a bit weird, but I will be okay with it. I made me remember everything a little better. Actually I'm not complaining a bit. 

I did my morning routine and went down to the kitchen. I feel good so far. When I got down mom and dad was in the kitchen. When I walked in I saw a big cake. I smiled so big. I love my life with them sooo much. I don't think anyone understands. I know I could as well end up in an adoptive family after my parents died, but did took care of me as their own without any complains at all. I'm so grateful. They saw me come in and smiled and as of on cue it started. 

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Davina, happy birthday to youuu!" They sang together as they always do when it's my birthday. I smiled so big, any bigger and my face would break. I feel so loved. My hole body feels warm. I look at my cake and saw the candles and the writing saying "happy b-day our Dav" and I think I now have broken my face.

"Thank you guys, I love you soooo much both of you!" I went over to hug them both. I got the same answer as always. They both say in perfect sync that they love me too. We started munching on the cake and just talking. Then I remembered again. 

"Hold up, how do you know how someone is your mate?" I asked. Mom smiled and so did dad. I can believe they remembered when they met each other. I smile too, just because they look happy. 

"Your wolf will tell you. Your wolf can sense your mate and will tell you. Your wolf will tell you 'mate' and you will feel extreme attraction for the person. You will also smell the most fantastic thing because your mate smell of your favorite smell to you." Dad said. That sounds wonderful actually. I don't really know what my favorite smell is tho. 

"And by extreme attraction your dad means that you want to rip the persons clothes off and every s****l thought you had before will seem like it was a children's play compared to the thoughts you have about your mate. And it's okay so don't think that there's anything wrong with you." Mom continued. I laughed and so did dad. Mom smiled at us. Some would probably think this was to much information but I am just happy to know everything right now. I kind of looking forward to meeting my mate. I did before but now I'm so curious and a little exited. I feel a little bad for being so exited over it but I'm going to go ahead and blame it on my wolf side. Just as I finished that though I heard it. 

"I would too actually." The voice said. My eyes went wide. Mom and dad looked at me a little puzzled. The voice was in my brain. It was my wolf. I have got my wolf! 

"Damn right you have." The voice snickered in my head. I smiled and looked at both my parents. 

"I have got my wolf." I explained. They both smiled and got up to hug me. We all laughed. 

"So what's her name?" Mom asked me smiling. She actually glowed. It makes me so happy to make them happy. 

"I don't know haven't had the time to ask." I smiled. 

"Meadow, my name is Meadow." The voice answered my question without me even asking it. I could hear the smiling in my wolfs voice. It isn't as creepy as I though. I like it. 

"Good, because you are never getting away from me." Meadow just laughed in my head. I feel completed in a way. Like everything just falls into place. The only thing I wished was to have my biological parents here as well. But I know they are looking down on me, and being happy for me. My life is pretty damn good if you ask me. 

"Well of course, I'm in it now!" Meadow echoed in my head. Okay so she's a sassy one. I like it. No, I actually love it. 

"Her name is Meadow and she is a real sassy one. Thank you for everything, and my cake. It was so good!" I can't stop smiling today and I have a feeling I wont be smiling later. I have a weird feeling about later. I can't really put my finger on it but it's unsettling. I don't think it's because the shifting ether.