Drowning in his love

As the movers finished unloading the boxers I took a minute to look at the new house It's was mansion.it wasn't bad my parents had great taste I should be happy my family's rich I get whatever I want by the snap of my finger I have friends and boyfriend's But in reality I wasn't I wasn't happy yes my family has money but you know what money can't buy your parents affection Yes I wasn't loved I know your asking but I should've confided in my friends and told them about my problems Ehhhh wrong I don't have real friends they were just using me because I was the 'well known rich kid' When BEBE REXHA said "f**k fake friends."I felt that Shout out to her tots love your music And yes my boy toys or the term boyfriend What is a boyfriend really... A male companion with whom you have a romantic or s****l relationship with Romantic as in when your hooked and busy plucking flower petals like some p***y repeatedly say "She loves me.she loves me not."like 10 times total loser Or s****l but commonly non as the no strings attached or something simpler the term f**k buddies Friends with benefits and all that shit First of all no strings attached thing are basically random hook up when people meet in bars or clubs Ah yes the f*****g of the buddies or friend's with benefits Yes you both benefit from the orgasms and trying some new positions together while f*****g you grunt and groan while she moans like some dying fat cow Do guys moan no they groan  That rhymes yay me !!!! But gays moan right???? Personal question not for the faint hearted ;) "Does it hurt when your f****d in your butthole??? And how do you guys orgasm??? Because this boggled my mind for awhile Oh yeah I'm back to my friend with benefits fact When the two subjects engage in s****l blah blahs you know what I mean And one of the f*****g subjects develops feeling even though your just shag friends He or she has crossed the line and ruined the great s*x that was going on between them And if the guy is your childhood crush please I beg you don't be a stupid don't go confessing to him or her that you like him  And what if the subject doesn't like you back hmmm Words in short Your totallyl a dumb fuck Honey it's called a crush for a reason... In the end the crushee crushes the heart of the crusher if you catch my drift  Trust me it hurts really bad To all the boys who broke my heart  Fuck you all ya wankers Yes back to the story of my life... Yeah my parents were happy and proud of well... My sister and brother  ha you thought I would've said me sadly no Yes my sister the girl with the purest heart makes me want to barf when people say oh such a star she's so beautiful and s**t like that Ah my brother the golden boy with good grades who will end up being someone smart and rich because he has a bright future ahead of him Yeah right that knucklehead can't even give me the answer to 1+1= I had to explain it for the millionth time It's 2 you bloody i***t!!! Yes the golden children the best perez kids our family tree Well they can suck it!!!! First of all golden my foot! Andrea my fake ass sister pretends she loves me and all that but I feel her hate every single day of my entire life And yeah shes hot has a nice body gets all the boys attention with her slutty clothes and she f***s anything that walks She's your basic slut yeah shes a w***e hoe you name it that's what she is And well Antonio yes a famous quarterback the champion of every school we went to and the lady killer Yeah a round of applause Yeah that piece of s**t is f*****g gay Yeah his a butt fucker (A/N don't find this offence I support the l***q community) And my family knows but it would ruin them if anyone found out so they found him a temporary girlfriend  Ask what the f**k is a temporary girlfriend Hell I don't even know They just pay a girl to act all lovie dovie with him And Everytime we move there's always a new girl or girl toy even an escort whatever they call them (A/N I don't judge escorts you all have your reasons) Yes my parents are f****d up  When my sister and brother came out of my moms stomach she was happy and smiling with my father as the two kids grew up When I came out yeah they smiled and stuff Those self centered bastards  Yes I was suicidal yes I want to kill myself  Then why am alive now I myself don't know My parents call me a ungrateful piece of s**t  How do I live with this words well... Once you've heard you get used to it Like when she told me she f*****g screamed pushing for 4hours begging for me to come out She said I damaged her fanny  That I'm so ungrateful that she gave me life and here I am trying to end it She also whispered in my ear that she should've gotten abortion Yeah it hurts hearing your own blood your own mother tell you that you were born by mistake And now you'll be googling all those shitty positive,motivational,inspritional quotes That say "no one is born by mistake everyone has a purpose." Yeah yeah you all have purposes I have non  I'm just the shoot kid in the background of a family photo who can't be seen clearly So I sing along with BEBE REXHA I'm a mess I'm a loser I'm a hater  I'm a user I'm a mess for your love it ain't newwwwwww First of all I have a terrible voice second I'm obsessed not with BEBE REXHA I just like her songs  Third no I don't have a boyfriend so I'm not really a mess for someone's love  Okay maybe my parents Even if they don't love me I still can't hate my them especially my birther What's is a birther???? Its a name I made up it means the people who gave birth to me  My mom...the birther Or maybe it's a names that already there But I don't care I love it!!!!!!!! Sorry I went all charli xcx on y'all I haven't even been in a relationship for a while Sucks right  Well I haven't because my w***e of a sister takes them all I don't know what the f**k they see when they look at her stretched out like a rubber band v****a  Don't ask me how I've seen it It's a not so nice story I still shiver thinking about it Ewwwwww Or maybe it's because she's experienced??? Yeah its definitely that Plus who in their right mind would want me like I'm a virgin yes I'm a f*****g VIRGIN!!!! The family prude and what not  I rather be me then be her a b***h with a smelly pussy (A/N:Andrea doesn't really have a smelly p***y it's the use of exaggeration) I'm not popular I only had like one boyfriend but he only used to me to get to ms my p***y smells like fish Ughhhhhhhhh Why do they all leave me for fishy It's so unfair she gets the hot guys while I get nothing But the real issue here is about me and my suicidal attempts I tried cutting my wrists got caught and set to the crazy people hospital or what you normal people call a psychiatric hospital I was discharged and tried the over dose on pills trick but failed again cause I'm no magican and I got caught again And sent to some psychiatrist dude Nope he wasn't handsome Nope he didn't have a nice looking body And yes it was a woman I thought it would be one of those cliche forbidden love stories if you guessed it Well you and I both guessed wrong It was a lady and yes she had nice big breasts yes Yes she is a blonde  No she's not married for some un none reason And yes she's totally hot but soooooooo old  Just kidding she's only 35 which is old to me But everyone has their own opinion She always asks me me some random questions like how are today.tell me about your day.and all that useful stuff No I just ignore her she's boring as hell!!! She speaks as if we're some married couple on a Saturday night ready to watch some movie while snuggling on the couch asking questions before the movie starts God she's annoying I'm not even a lesbian and I find her every clingy Yes I do therapy at least twice a week I just quoted Camila Cabello The word fanny amuses me and that what I get for watching to much Geordie shore Sue me ya Fannie's;) Yeah my mom tots gave birth to me screaming "Me fanny."like some British brat (A/N:on a totally unrelated note is it true that the only people who can tell the truth are : 1:a baby 2:a drunk person 3 someone hurt What do you think level with me on this:) (A/N:to all you deflowered people did it really hurt.i wouldn't know cause I maybe the author but I'm sexually Inexperienced I haven't been deflowered yet I'm still waiting for my future husband plus I'm 14 So blood and v****a and stretching is ewwwww