Cursed by Fate (COMPLETE)

Chapter Twenty Eight

Training was not going as well as it should be. I’ve already destroyed some of the town with my storms, had to figure out how to use my elemental magic to put out a wildfire I had somehow created, and flooded the local dam. Why was this so hard? Surely they would have made it easier since they gave me the power. But no, they had to make things difficult and make it to where I am going to wipe my own freaking town and pack off the map. 

They all seemed like they understood and just rebuilt everything with a smile like it never happened. Was this a pack or a slave trade? I could hire people to do all of that, not use my pack as work horses. Then again, I don’t know the dynamics of a pack yet, don’t know how things work. Lance said it was normal, that a pack would help their alpha and people as much as they can. I didn’t like it though, it didn’t seem right, but who was I to change what packs have been doing for generations? 

On the other hand, physical training was easy. I was taking to that like a fish in water. It was like I had known this all my life, or had been taught previously and my body and muscles were just remembering everything as it went. The guys were surprised and excited about my progress in physical training, and I enjoyed sparring with them. It was a great way to get my anxieties and anger out safely. But it wasn’t always with the guys, I had already been through several punching bags and those mannequin things. 

My vampire side changing my eye color has also been an issue for the pack. Some were scared of me, others were terrified I would be bringing vampires to town. Which in all honesty I would be. Elias had already informed the council of me and they were coming to meet me, or size me up one of the two. It's not like they could do anything even if they wanted to, Elias has been teaching me to use the command part of my vampire. You know the one where all vampires had no choice but to obey me? Yeah, that one. Also, Lance has been teaching me to use my alpha voice and how to release my dominance to command the werewolves. All of that of course would not be used unless absolutely necessary. Why would I take anyones’ free will away? I shuddered at the thought of the same happening to me. To be forced to do something against your will was terrifying, and just thinking of everything that you or anyone else could command you to do made my blood run cold. No, I definitely would not be taking their free will away. Lance assures me that there would be times when I didn’t have a choice, where something would need to be done that required me to use my alpha tone. God I hope that doesn't happen anytime soon, not until I am more comfortable using it. 

Thank the heavens, Uriel told me archangels didn’t have an alpha tone to get people to do what they want. He said angels obey archangels out of respect to their power and rank. Their society was solely based on respect and loyalty. I asked Uriel why Wolves and vampires couldn’t be like that. He told me they were still primitive when in comparison to angels. He told me that angels do not have free will like humans do. That knowledge broke my heart, but it was all the angels knew. Some envied the nephilim and humans for it, some fell in order to obtain it. He said the only ones ever to ever go against it were the nephilim, and that’s because they are half human. I knew there was no way for me to to give them the free will they wanted, I didn’t have the power to. God, or Zeus, whatever he went by had to grant it to them. I couldn’t go against God. Uriel told me that now that he is mated he was granted free will so he could live his life with me. It would be hard to have a relationship with him if he didn’t have free will. 

Another thing Uriel told me was that the other angle’s would want to meet me soon. Apparently it is a;most unheard of for an angel to have a fated mate; not that I was complaining, Uriel was perfect. He helped level the mate bond. Elias was more bad than good, Lance was what seemed to be all good, and Mathias kind of walked the line a bit. So having Uriel, someone who completely transcends all of us; helped tremendously. He is the level headed one, the peacekeeper, and somehow always knew what to say to make me feel better; even if it was a little bit. Regardless, I was nervous to meet the other angels, especially since I do not have control over my powers. What if I hurt one of them by accident? Or worse, kill one of them? I was so not ready to meet them. 

“Nicole are you even paying attention?” Elias asked, annoyed. My head snapped over to him and I narrowed my eyes at him.

“Forgive me for being distracted.” I sneered. “But if you haven’t noticed I have quite a bit on my plate right now and I am in over my head. I’m not ready for the responsibility of being an alpha and master vampire. I am not ready to meet the angels or vampire elders. And training my powers isn’t going well. So forgive me Elias, for not reaching your impossible standards.” 

“Nicole that’s not what I meant.”  He said coming over to me and taking my hands. “I know everything seems impossible right now and that you are overwhelmed. But we need to do this, you need to do this. Right now how about we focus solely on your magic training? After you’ve gained more control, or enough not to cause destruction we can move on to another topic. How does that sound?” 

“Perfect.” I sighed in relief. “I can do that. One thing at a time instead of all at once.” I nodded, more to myself than Elias. “Yeah, I can do that.” 

“Good, let's stop for today and let you relax for a little while. You have been working endlessly the past few days. You deserve a break.” 

I hesitated. Should I take a break? Sure I was tired, and going and throwing myself in bed sounded like heaven. But was it worth it? The potential damage I could do if my emotions ran away with me? I have caused storms in my sleep from my dreams. Heck one time I even changed it from night to day, hours before it was time. I still don’t know how I did that, but getting used to the new time change I had inadvertently caused was beyond hard for all of us. I of course apologized profusely for my actions, and I tried fixing it. Really I did, but I just couldn’t get it to change back. NASA was still trying to figure out what happened. 

That part was actually quite amusing. People were going crazy with the sudden change, NASA and the government were trying and failing to explain it. And footage from the space station showing how the sun suddenly just sped up its rotation before stopping was entertaining. I still felt bad for it. The entire world was adjusting to the sudden change. When it was supposed to be dark here, the sun suddenly rose, making the part of the world that’s supposed to be in the middle of the day changed to night. The whole thing was rather confusing to be honest. 

“I don’t know Elias.” I said hesitantly. “After everything I think I should try and master all of this as soon as possible. I’ve caused irreparable damage as it is. I don’t want to risk hurting someone. Not the vampires, the angels or my pack, and definitely not one of you.” I shook my head slowly. “No I can’t risk it.” 

“Nicole, it’s a few hours not a few days. You still have another week before the vampire council arrives and there is no telling when the angels will come. As for the pack and all of us? Well we all understand and accept what’s happening. The pack is actually enjoying the weather changes. The pups are even asking if you can make it snow.” He chuckled. 

I smiled at that. I was happy to hear the pack didn’t blame me, and that the children were making weather requests. Maybe once this is all dealt with and I have control I can give the kids a snow day. They’ll deserve it after everything I have caused and still more I will cause. Why couldn’t fate make using these powers easier? Like give me the knowledge I needed when my powers were first unlocked. What would happen if we were attacked? What can I do? 

“Fine.” I sighed massaging my temples. “I could use a break, my mind won’t stop running in circles. I’m starting to get a headache.” 

“Come on rosa mea.” Elias cooed. “I’ll start you a lavender bath, and you can relax as long as you need to.” 

I leaned into Elias happily as he led me up to my room. Elias had changed since we first met, and I was grateful. Yeah, he was still a pain at times, and his dickish side came out, but overall he was caring and very attentive. I’m glad I gave him another chance. I don’t know what I’d do without him now. He was always the one to pamper and spoil me and I was getting used to it. I loved it, loved being taken care of, loved and appreciated. Not that the others didn’t love me or appreciate me, Elias just spoils me more than the others do. And I was more than grateful.