THE LOST ALPHA

 As a child, I realized in this way of life, I could not understand why people had to kill us. My father said, people are the reason we live in the world, they say their meat is different; it tastes even better than the animals we eat. Dad always taught me how to hunt and how to be observant of the environment, because I can use it when I grow up.  Everything my father knew he taught me, he was an Alpha in our clan and the wolves under his control. I can see how he handles his pack. I saw how he ran the whole pack. They also always practice fighting other clans, because they want to occupy our territory.  As I grew up, I gradually came to understand why this is happening in our world. My mother told a story to us that their ancestors told them that it was not the human flesh, why we killed humans, but because my father just wanted revenge on the people, because the people killed my grandfather. Since then, my father has proven that he deserves to take his father's place, to be an Alpha. He strengthened, improved, and studied human movements. He also studied the weapons of the people. Until the day came when he was appointed to be an Alpha, that’s where my dad’s revenge on people started.  He was eighteen years old when he met my mother who was also a victim of human violence, it was good that my mother escaped, but her family did not, my mother's family was taken captive and killed. Because of the pain, my father and mother were the same feelings; they joined forces to plan revenge, until this is fulfilled.  Soon my father and mother found out that they were mated to each other, they did not expect it. They are fun together in all activities, until I was born. By the way, I am Ethan Cross, pure blood wolf; I inherited my father's talent, strategy and be good at everything. When I was young I learned this work of our clan.  At night we slowly slowly went down to the forest to get someone to offer to our bereaved ancestor. We don’t eat them, but other werewolves do eat people. It is also because of hunger that they can do it, but I, I have never tasted human skin. I will admit that I learned to kill animals that are edible and not human, I grew up merciless to people, because that is what my father taught me.  I am also excited to take my father's place to be an Alpha; I want to prove to my father that I can do what he does. So when I was young I was good at everything.  My father did not allow me to enter houses to get people, he just told me to just wait for them. I follow my father because he told me I might die if I go in with them inside, but now it is different.  When I was eighteen, I insisted on my father joining them. He asked me if I could handle such a situation. I told him I could handle people. Tonight we descended from the forest to go to the village where we would pick up people.  I am with my friend Andrew. “I'm nervous to face people, they might kill.” He told me. “Don't worry, we are many and no one will harm us.” I answered him. We first sat not far from the village to see what the people were doing. I saw that they had guards outside the house; these people were holding a weapon that my father told me the name of the weapon they were holding was guns.  We said we had to be careful because we might be hit by a bullet in it. We waited a few more hours until the whole night deepened. We all transformed into human beings so that the guards in the village would not notice us. We slowly landed where there was no guard. We first hid behind the houses and my father told me the plan.  He said the guards had to be distracted, so that we could get inside the house. Dad added that he had colleagues left in the forest to howl. Then the guards would run in that direction and there we would enter the houses.  When the moon shone and it was no longer covered by clouds we heard the howl of one of our colleagues above. My dad's plan was right. All the guards in the village are gone. This is where we started walking. As we walked, we slowly changed our bodies, from being human to being werewolves.  We got to the first house and my dad scratched the door until it finally opened. I did not go inside first because my father told me to wait for him to call me first. I heard the women shouting and crying. I also heard gunshots. I was immediately nervous and worried that my dad might be hit by a bullet.  I immediately went in to see what was going on inside. I saw the man holding the gun lying on the floor. I saw my father unharmed, maybe my father avoided, I also saw women lifeless and bloody. I took a deep breath because in the next house, I was the one who rushed and killed.  Andrew and I went out to the house house of our choice. When we got to the front, I heard a baby crying. I can't understand how I feel, but I don't seem to want to do it. I don't want to kill people. I do not want to continue; even though I see human corpses in our forest, I do not think they have a family. Andrew began to enter the house. We were exposed to a woman holding her baby. I could not understand how I was feeling, I suddenly felt weak in my body. When the two of us got inside we closed the door, Andrew grabbed the woman with only one of his hands. The woman was still holding her baby and she was crying. Unbeknownst to me, I felt my body suddenly change, it was back to being human.  The woman saw me; I also saw her tears in her eyes. “Help me, please do not kill my baby, have mercy on him. Give him a chance to live.” Said the woman. I could not understand how I was feeling, my emotions were mixed.  “Andrew. Wait, don't kill her.” I said to Andrew. He looked at me and he was surprised to see me shaped like a man, he lowered the woman and she thanked me. She lowered the baby to the bed and faced us. I could not believe what Andrew had done next. He raised his hand and slapped the woman's body. The woman slapped the wall and fell to the floor. I saw her last breath and blood spread on the floor.  “I can't let you die, Ethan. She saw your whole being. It would be better for her to die than to risk your life.” Andrew whispered to me. He left me indoors and I saw the baby no longer crying. It sleeps peacefully. I heard my father that we had to leave because the guards were coming here.  We all look like werewolves and go back to where we were before. I looked at the house where we had entered earlier. I also saw a man enter there, and I heard his cry. Not just shouting, but crying. He called his wife by name, but she was dead. I averted my eyes because I felt tears in my eyes that I should not show to my father.  Until we finally left this place.  I can't believe my father did this; I can’t look at it. They also have their own family and they also have loved ones, then we will just take their lives without mercy? These are the words that spread through my mind. Until I remember what I did before, I did the wrong thing to show people my whole being because I might be ruined and the whole family.  I also remember that Andrew might tell my father what I had done inside the house earlier. My friend Andrew is also one of those who dream of becoming Alpha. He has always been my opponent in all trials, but I now admit that I lost. I can't kill people. Especially when I saw in the woman's eyes the pleading and fear. I also thought of the baby, as well as the man who came home, I also thought about how they felt because of what we did.  I sat under the tree and looked at the moon. It is nice. The moon gives light to the whole forest. Until I also thought, what if I was the one who bothered them? How would I feel when one of us disappeared or killed?