The Dragon Diaries

Chapter 12

Walking outside for a walk while having the chip roll, I saw Drucilla and went up to her “hey friend” “hey Ariella, sorry about first break, I had to hide in the library” I gave her a questioning face “I’m not liked here because in the hellhound world, only males are to be bodyguards and dominant while females are submissive and are hand maidens so they also turned everyone else away” wow and I thought I had problems “well then we kind of in the same boat and I don’t care about the dominant and submissive bullshit” she just laughed “well then I’m glad to have finally met someone who does not” “oh and I made chip roll for you as well” “thank you” we ate in silence and walked around until we saw a small forest at the end of the school “should we go in and check it out?” “it’s quite late so we should check it out tomorrow, maybe we will find our spot for the rest of school” yeah that would be cool, we turned back to school and just reached the grounds when the bell rang so we hugged and ran to our class and again I did not get the class books but at least I reached before the teacher or all the students were there and this time I chose a seat in the back and made sure not to sit anywhere near that other girl.

Class was boring because we had to learn another language but it was introduction to the subject and what languages we going to speak etc. All the classes are just introductions for now and in the beginning it's interesting to see what we going to learn but then we sit and do nothing but what I've learnt so far is that we have a lot to learn and our tests are not written or most aren't but physical activity, meaning we get assessments spot on like for language a person could just come up and talk to us in another language or we will get attacked and we have to defend ourselves and we will be tested on how well we did. There is no time for rest because we have to be the best, and if you aren't after fifteen years then you out of the program. I came here to find myself but I also came here because I wanted to be away from Baal because the connection was taking over me and this seemed like the only way and now I can see other reasons that have not even crossed my mind. Halfway through class the door opens and in walks the girl, I look around to see the only free seat is next to me, sigh I hope she just sits down and don't talk or make a fuss about it. "Why are you so late? Class is halfway finished and this is the time you come?" "Sorry I had an accident that I had to sort out" the teacher just huffed and turned away. She sat down next to me and saw me writing "she gave us work?" "No it was just introductions" she nodded and we ignored each other for the rest of the period, she asleep and I awake. When the bell rang and everyone rushed out, I sat and waited "class is over so why are you still sitting?" "it's because I don't want to get trampled, pushed and shoved when I know I will still make it home if I wait while the crowd clears" she seemed to think of that and nodded and sat back down "I'm Davina by the way" I wonder why she's making small talk "I'm Ariella but I guess you knew that" "yeah about that... I saw you buy blood and then later I saw you hanging out with Azrael so I thought you were one of those girls that want attention" I nodded because that I can believe "and now?" She sighed "I don't know what to believe because you not with the others or his gang but with that loner and you not bitchy" "well thanks" I saw there was no crowd so I just got up and left.

I smiled when I saw Drucilla and waved and jogged over "hey how you doing?" "not bad and you?" I shrugged and we walked to the traveler’s post. Looking at Drucilla, Davina and she share the same looks and it's like they sister's? Should I ask "hey Drucilla, I'm just wondering if you know Davina? She's in my class" she frowned in thought "No I don't think so but if I see her then maybe why" "she knew you, said she saw me hanging with you, the loner" she laughed "everyone knows me as the loner because I'm only a few that choose to be alone while everyone wants to belong to a group" "who knows maybe we will make our own group" she grinned at me "yeah a group of loners" I mocked frowned at her "I'm not a loner, I'm just choosy with the people I choose to be around me" the last person came so we were transported to the home point where we parted to meet up later for jogging at half-past five to six am.

I decided to make food so after our run, Drucilla can come here and we could eat. It was a simple rice and meatballs curry then I went up and changed and relaxed for awhile but my stupid alarm had to disturb me. I made sure everything is off and locked before leaving, not like it would help but I don't want it to be like I'm inviting them in and I so don't want to come to a burning house. Drucilla was not here yet so I settled down on a huge rock waiting for her and a few minutes waiting became an hour before I figured she's not coming and I rather just finish my jog. When I entered the house, the smell of the curry was divine but I needed blood and thank cookies I took and kept a few from Azrael's stock in my fridge because that would be another drama I don't need right now.

After eating and washing up, I decided to have a relaxing bath instead of a shower but it was not so much a relaxation because thoughts were just swirling around in my mind, sigh I need to talk to somebody and s**t I forgot I needed to tell my parents about the Dragon shifter etc. I tried to clear my mind, closed my eyes and relaxed my muscles and breath in and out and I think I would have succeeded but there was a crash in my room that needed my immediate attention. I got out of the tub and rapped my towel and tied it around me before tip-toeing to the door and listened, oh my cookies there is someone on the other side and they not trying to hide their presence because they seem to be banging and breathing hard and coughing, I frowned and opened the door to see Baal wounded and coughing up blackish blood and knocking over everything in his way because he couldn’t stand, I reached him and brought him to the bed “Baal oh my goodness what happened? Ive never patched someone so tell me what to do before I can get someone here” “baby… there is nothing that can be done… I’m dying, I came-” he coughed blood all over himself “I wanted to say goodbye before” my eyes were burning with tears and he was blurry but I managed to climb onto the bed and put his head on my lap, I kissed him and he kissed me back but it was rushed because it was a goodbye kiss, I could not kiss him long for I was crying so bad. It hurt to not know how to save someone and not know if they could be saved, he tried to smile but could not manage it which made me hug him and cry more “thank you for everything” I wanted to tell him I loved him so badly before he leaves so he would have something good before he leaves but I did not love him and he would know that as soon as I say it. My hand was stroking his hair while the other held his hand, my tears mixing with his while we kissed again and then I felt it, his breath stop and I burst out crying and held him tighter. Why does this have to happen to me! We were going to make this relationship work and my life seemed to be getting better, my future seemed to be better but now the one aspect of my future is gone! What am I to do now? Baal starts to shake and I get out of bed thinking something is wrong but he just transforms into black mist and disappears! Is that how demons die? Ah oh gosh does Jordana know what happened? I should call her, maybe she knows already since she’s not answering her phone but I guess she will call me back when she’s ready to talk, but I need to cry to someone and Jordana is the- oh well she is not the only friend now, there is Drucilla but I don’t have her number or know where she stays… I can’t talk to mom because it’s about Baal and well… she’s my mom. Sigh I laid down where he last was and thought of all the memories we shared from when I first met him being sold to him to him not being the kind of Master I thought to being claimed as his mate and the dates and my first kiss and cookies I’m just torturing myself now, urgh I need air.

My heart was racing and my eyes were blurry from the endless tears that I had to stop each time to wipe them away, when I reached the outside bench, I just collapsed and breath in the new air. I've not known him for long at all and I had to leave when I started to get to know him but we had a connection that drew us together and we became part of each other that way, I regret not giving in to him now... did I hurt his feelings when I couldn't go all the way? Damn It we were mates so I should have but I thought we had time but I guess life doesn't care. What happened to him? Who hurt him? He only told me he had an assignment. I need to find out and then I will make them pay for what they have done... but first I need to become the best, learn everything I can from here while searching then I'll get revenge. Oh my cookies I didn't even call him to chat when I've been here for almost a week! Gosh I'm so selfish to only think about myself and worry about my problems, the only time I thought to call him then dismissed it was when I needed to talk to someone about my ongoing problems. I cried harder just thinking that I never really tried or even thought of him unless I needed something which makes me a real b***h! What must Jordana think of me not even chatting to her brother, maybe that is why she's not taking my calls or calling back. I needed to express my soul so after I calmed down, I went back in but stayed away from my room. I went to my library and got out my poem book

'you go on with life

You don't think of things past

You stray towards the current

Pass by the hurricanes

You never stop and think

You never say goodbye

Some cases you never say hello

Regret churns in your heart

Sorrow shadows your soul

All things done right are forgotten

Memories swim back and fourth

Someone save me from the acidic burn'

I hope I don't make a mistake again, I was so much better off when I was alone, life was simpler and not much heartache and drama. I shouldn't have gone out into the forest and maybe... I should call Master Hunter and inform him about Baals erm death... gosh just saying that hurts. An introvert should never be with an extrovert, we are not wired the same way and because of that we get the wrong sparks and friction that ends up blasting us apart but in this case, it was different and he must have regretted taking me as his mate. Sigh I should stop all this depressing thought’s and concentrate on what to do, like get into touch with Jordana and Master Hunter and my parent's plus the principal, gosh why can't you grieve in peace? You have to immediately start preparing... we don't have a body so we cannot burry him and... I need to talk to Jordana and figure out what they do and what I as his mate need to do.

Oh goddess! Why is she not answering! "Hello ma?" "Baby, what's wrong? I can feel your tears" "mama it’s Baal... his gone and I don't know what to do and I can't get hold of Jordana, his sister and I was not a good mate ..." "honey slow down, first off what do you mean he is gone" "he's dead mom and he just vanished into thin air, just puff and he was gone" talking to mom was hard because I was crying again and my words bubbled together or so it seemed "I need to talk to Jordana and figure out what to do but she's not answering her phone" "oh honey... I wish I was there to help and Jordana is in pain so give her space to get it together, she will call you when she's ready" "I no ma but I need her... I need a friend" "I'm so sorry baby, is there no one at that school?" I thought of all the people I met and if I can go or call them. I don't have cell phone numbers and I only know the whereabouts of two people but... "yeah I guess I do... I miss you mom" I burst into tears because what if I lose mom the way Baal died? I have been away from her for a while and only got to spend short amounts together, and if she... don't think about it. "We miss you too, keep in touch, don't be a stranger" "I won't and thank you mama" she put the phone down while I still had it held to my ear, sigh I don't know what to do, should I stay here where he died or should I go... where should I go? The only place I know is Azrael's and Fabien's... well Azrael is a no no because of Zondal who will be happy that the demons will no longer fight for me if he decides to kill me like he wants so that leaves Fabien who is not so much as a friendly guy like Azrael... damn it why couldn't I have taken down Drucilla's number or address, I'm so stupid! And why didn't she come jogging... Sigh Azrael is the better option between the two but... I can't be involved with him anymore so I guess I have no choice if I don't want to stay alone, to go to Fabien's place.

It was pouring and I didn't take my jacket or an umbrella so I was soaking wet when I knocked on Fabien's door, and to think the weather was clear when I went jogging before... sigh it is mother earth crying for her son's death or that's what I want to believe. I was staring out at the rain, crying again so I never hear the door open and was shocked when I felt a soft touch under my eyes, I looked to see Fabien suck on his finger "taste like sorrow and a little guilt, what's the matter ami?" I bit my lip from bubbling up my words and crying hysterically and tried to calm down but him calling me friend when I needed it made it harder. I opened my mouth to tell him but only a moan and more tears came out, he held his hands out and I went to him, muffing my cry with his chest and wetting his silk t-shirt in the process but if he minded, he didn’t show it. After I managed to calm down again, he pulled me in and to the couch where we sat in silence but I saw he was getting impatient so I blurted out “Baal is dead!” his eyes widened in shock “Je suis désolé, je ami, I meant I’m sorry” (I’m sorry, my friend) he gave my palm a squeeze before getting up “I speak French so it’s no problem” I gave him a tiny smile, he nodded “I will get you something to drink, I will be right back” I sat in my own thoughts and I was drawing back into myself when he came back with two tumblers “it’s whiskey mixed with blood, you look like you need it” I have never drank alcohol before but if it would make me feel better, I would drink it, and after my third tumbler, my head was buzzing and I found myself unable to get up or walk and only gibberish was coming out of my mouth but I couldn’t care less, I have already told Fabien everything and he called the principal who said I am allowed a week off and I can leave only for the funeral and that I would have to be accompanied by a guard. Jordana have still not contacted me but I am too wired to care and well I kind of understand that she wants to be alone for a while. I don’t know where Fabien disappeared but I was sleepy and I could not sleep on the couch but I could not get up either so what should I do? I guess the floor seems big enough and look! There are pillows on the couch and wow they look so soft and fluffy. I took the pillows and to my delight they were soft and fluffy and went to sleep.

When I awoke, my head was banging and each move I made, just made me want to throw up and although I just got up, I was so tired and wished I’d never got up so early. After a while of trying to get back to sleep but failing, I decided to have a shower to wake me fully, it was then that I noticed that I was on a bed in a room that was not one of mine… the room was mostly in white and beige colors and the bedding was white and cream, it was set out in an old fashioned French style? Room, very classical and elegant. I chose a door and found a huge walk in closet filled with olden day’s clothes but still, it was clothing for females and I needed to change into something after my shower so I browsed through and picked a towel that was folded and set in sizes and colors. There was packets of sealed underwear and clothes- strike that! I meant dresses as there was only dresses and all seemed like ballgown classical to me and not every day wear, sigh I guess I have to wear what I have on until I get home, I picked new underwear and went into what I thought was the bathroom because it was the only other single door and I was right, after my shower, I should see what is behind the other two double doors.

I changed and saw a spare toothbrush and toothpaste so I finished washing up and looked around for a brush or comb but could not find so I just finger combed my hair and went out and chose one of the double doors but it led to a passage way so I went to the other and it was a balcony overlooking the forest which was a beautiful site so I sat down on the couch to get some much needed fresh air, I still felt sick with any sudden fast movements but it seems to be getting better, I am so not going to drink wine ever again if this is how it makes you feel, even though it did help last night… which baffles me because I thought I slept in the lounge on the floor? Did Fabien carry me up and put me to bed? Aww he is turning out to be a really good friend. I went downstairs to look for him to thank him but the place seemed empty so I walked around for a while and I already loved his French styled house, I put on the TV and turned out everything was in French which would have been fine but I’m a bit rusty on my French and only know so much fluently since I could not practice with anyone so I put it off and just thought off going home to change and come back to thank Fabien when the door just opened “bonjour mademoiselle” (good morning) “salut, où êtes-vous allé?” (hi, where did you go off too?) he laughed “Lorsque vous avez dit que vous parlez français, je ne vous ai pas cru. j'avais juste des choses à prendre soin” (when you said you spoke French, I did not believe you. I just had things to take care off) “I learnt on my own but I’m not so fluent because I had no one to practice with” he nodded “yes I remember but now you do and I’ll teach and correct you if you wrong” I smiled “merci” (thank you) I giggled. “Je voulais vous remercier pour hier, j'en avais besoin” (I wanted to thank you for yesterday, I needed it) he just nodded and then I felt the tension in the air because we both or I didn’t know what to do “I should get going and try to contact Jordana again” “maybe you should just send her a message and let her contact you when she’s ready” sigh everyone is telling me to give her a break, maybe I should stop being emotionally selfish and think about her pain as well, after all Baal was her brother and from what I saw in the few times they were together with me, they were really close and I was just a new friend and I was newly mated to Baal as well, Baal could of told her how he acquired me and she might not think it was serious on my part… which if I was honest with myself, I only thought of using him at first but it was slowly becoming a serious relationship. I gave Fabien a small sad smile before taking my leave and the first thing I did when I got home was change, I tried avoiding eye contact with my bed or thinking of my last moments with Baal but being back in the room just brought it all back, sigh and I wanted to come back? I should just go back to Fabien’s, even if there are some awkwardness, it is way better than this. I packed a bagful of clothes and went back to Fabien’s and knocked on the door and when he opened with a confused look “I cannot stay there alone, in the place I last saw him, please can I stay here? I won’t bother y-” he brought his palm up in a stop motion “I understand, mon amie and of Couse you can stay here in one of the many empty rooms” he took my bags and welcomed me in and I just had to hug him which he stiffened at so I let go quickly and he went upstairs to leave my bag “you will be in the same room that you woke up in” I did not know what to do so I went and put the TV on and tried to figure out what message to leave for Jordana Hey Jordana, it’s Ariella, I know you need your space but I am freaking out here on my own not knowing what to do… please contact me as soon as you can. I miss him too and I am alone here… and I miss you too. Take care I think that’s fine so I hit send and I waited to see if she replies back but she doesn’t but I’ll keep my phone on high and always on me just in case.

I was reading online when the TV switched off and I jumped but it was only Fabien looking at me with a raised brow and the remote in hand “sopies annoy the heck out of me and you didn’t seem to be watching” “oh well I got irritated with translating the French in my head so I decided to read instead” he smirked “I thought you knew French” “yeah but it still takes time to think of what is being said, I mean the whole sentence and all that and when watching TV… well I’m so busy translating that I don’t really watch, argh that doesn’t make sense but to me it does” he nodded “I do understand, I went through the same thing but with English, so… how are you holding up?” “I… I’m trying not to think about it or anything to do with him, it’s the only way because I am struggling with my thoughts and feelings… I – my feelings are all over the place when I think of him and it’s just easier to forget it all” “I am sorry that this has happened to you at such a young age and I am sorry that I cannot help, I don’t remember what it is to lose someone that’s close to you so I…” I smiled in part sadness and sympathy “it’s alright, you are helping so thank you” he nodded and left when my phone rang and I told him it was Jordana, now that she was calling, I didn’t know what to tell her “hello?” “Ariella? Its Jordana, I’m sure you felt a discomfit and a loss… its because Baal- he is” “I know, he came to see me and he erm went in my arms” I cut her off but after it was silent because we were both processing what the other said, she thought I did not know Baal died “can you come here? Am I allowed to leave for a while?” “I never went to the school so I don’t know, I have to make preparations for a farewell” “I’m so sorry Jordana” I sobbed but I think she understood “I’m sorry too… I know you and my brother were starting to get along, sigh I have to go but I will keep you updated and let me know if you can leave to come for his farewell, goodbye Ariella” “goodbye” I hung up and ran to the room and cried on the bed, hearing her voice and talking to her brought it all back and the loss and the future with him… we thought we had so much of time being immortal but in just a few weeks changed everything, I will never take time for granted again and I won’t waste the opportunity’s he has brought me, I will hold on to it because that’s the only way I can have a part of him.