The Alpha's First Mating

So, it's true?

It was about half past six when I got back to the mansion. 39 minutes earlier than I did yesterday. I went straight to the tree where I left my nightdress but it was nowhere to be found. I looked around but I didn't see it.

The scent of the dress still lingered on the soil where I left it, which means that I was in the right place. I sniffed the air again, and I knew it was gone, and who took it. I shifted back to human form, and walked my bare ass to the house, with a neck full of hickies, bite marks, and a handprint on my ass.

I know the marks should have been long gone but shifting delayed the healing process, especially when I shifted just minutes after it happened. Shifting was an extreme process, and it left the skin pink and raw, but now that I shifted back to my human form, the marks were more prominent on my body. They looked like they were made seconds ago even though it had already passed the thirty minute mark.

The moment I opened the door, I could hear the chatter in the kitchen, and I had no doubt my name was on their lips. Yesterday most of them, if not all, were asleep at this time and only woke up by 9am, but today before seven they were all awake? That couldn't be a coincidence, especially with my dress missing.

I took a deep breath, and strode past the kitchen like I didn't care that I was fully naked and were talked about. I kept my face stoic, no matter what, I wouldn't show them how their actions were affecting me, moreover if I had to choose I would do it again, and I was planning to do it again tomorrow morning.

I know it was selfish of me, and broke whatever promise I made to my new friends, but the moment my eyes met Aiden everything changed. It was like I couldn't control how I felt anymore. All I could think about was him, and it didn't help that I only had five days left with him, and they could possibly have more.

"So, it's true," Shantel asked, standing from the kitchen door. If it was Jasmine who barely says a word to anyone or Rebecca, I would have easily ignored them, but I couldn't do that to Shantel especially when she sounded so hurt.

"What is true?" I turned around looking her straight in the eyes. I didn't even try to hide the marks Aiden left on me. They already knew the truth, and hiding them would only make me seem guilty, and I wasn't.

I didn't break any rules. Technically, Rebecca also kissed him when we got here right? I tried to justify it, but I still felt guilty too.

How can something feels so right, and yet be so wrong?

"You are sleeping with Aiden behind our backs. This is supposed to be Rebecca's day not yours. The rules explicitly said.." I stopped her before she could insulted me. I liked Shantel even though we haven't known each other long, but one thing about me is I cancel everyone that hurts me.

That's why I don't have friends. I do forgive but after you insult me or question my character without cause, even though she had every right to question me now, it's hard to trust you again.

"That's enough. If you want to ask me something then do it. Don't tell me about Rebecca or anyone else. They have a mouth to speak for themselves, don't they?" I sounded rude, but taking my dress was mean, and Shantel let them.

I knew Lydia couldn't stand up for anyone, even herself but Shantel? I couldn't believe she was siding with them.

"Did you sleep with Aiden?, and don't lie to me. I can practically smell him on you" she growled angrily. He had c*m on my stomach. I knew his semen was going to take time to fade, but something inside me liked smelling like him.

It made me feel like he was mine.

"No, I would never. Yes, we made out but that's all. I don't care if you or the other girls believe me, but I am not and will never sleep with Aiden until Friday." I shouted hoping everyone was listening, which they were, since I heard them scoff.

"I don't know what to believe anymore. I thought we were friends but now I find out you were sneaking off to see Aiden without my knowledge. I thought being a Luna to you wasn't that important, but I guess I was wrong." Shantel said hurt and I realised my mistake.

I had been so defensive all my life, and didn't realise my mistake now. Instead of explaining to her what was going on, I went into defensive mode again.

"Shantel, that's where all of you are wrong. You're seeing a nemesis where there is none. You four have all it takes to be a Luna, and I am sure one of you will, but I will never be a Luna. Being here was just a big mistake" saying the word hurt me more than words could explain.

It reminded me that I only had four days left with Aiden.

I didn't even listen when Shantel called for me or the other girls came into view. Tears were threatening to fall down, and even when at my lowest I won't let anyone see me that vulnerable.

Showing weakness wasn't in my nature although, I think the goddess was pushing me too far this time.

I went straight into my room, and had a hot shower trying to wash the tears that escaped the moment I opened my bedroom door. The secret was tearing me apart, I needed to tell someone, and I wasn't sure if I was ready to tell Aiden yet.

I wasn't ready to lose him yet.

I went out on a clean black nighty since that's the only thing we could wear in this house beside lingerie or evening gowns. I needed my onesie and my blankets so I could drift off to a better place, a peaceful place even if it was for a few hours.

I came back to the room only to be greeted by Roseline sitting on my bed, clearly waiting for me. I wasn't in the mood to argue or fight with her.

"I am in no mood to fight," I said, climbing on the bed, getting under the blanket, even though it was already early in the morning. I didn't rest the previous night but after being with Aiden, I was calmer and my body just wanted to rest.

"I am not here to fight, although I am still angry at you, and have every reason to. But I am your friend first, and I could see something is not right. You're hurting and I didn't know why. I don't even know how to help you.

I know it has something to do with why you were shouting at the Seer, at the choosing and how you seemed down the whole way here. I won't force you to tell me what it is but just know I am here for you, and no matter what my mouth spit, you're going to make the most awesome Luna.

Trust the process!" She smiled, saying words that I hadn't been able to decipher since the seer said them.

It was not easy to trust the process when I knew the truth. This process is why I knew that I won't be with the man I liked for more than four days.

"That's the problem, Shantel. I cannot be the Luna of this land, even though now I wish I could. Goddess knows that I had changed my mind and would love to, but I can't. Just trust me, the goddess made a mistake by choosing me.

Maybe she was just filling up a spot or trying to mock my situation but unlike you four, I don't have even a fraction of a chance. I am just a standby" I explained without going into too much detail.

"No, that's where you're wrong. You have everything us girls have, if not…" I stopped her right there.

I couldn't handle her feeble words at the moment. I was tired, and truthfully I had talked enough about this. I didn't want to do it anymore.

"I am tired, I haven't slept last night. Can you please excuse me? '' I tried to be as polite as I could be. I know she meant well.

"I am here for you, I know my words don't mean much but I mean every word" she said standing up to leave. She gave me one last glance before opening the door, and stepping out of the room.

My chest tightened, and tears soaked my pillow while I tried to cry as silently as I could, but before drifting off I felt my door open, and someone joined me on the bed, and hugged me tight as I drifted to oblivion with those stupid words in my head.

'Trust the process'