The Nexus Queen

chapter 5- Conflicted Goodbyes

It's been thirty minutes since I woke up and since my mother hasn't stopped rambling on and on. She thinks I should go see a doctor. I think we all know what would happen if I did. If I told a doctor everything that happened I would get a ticket to crazy town, a lovely 72 hour vacation with my very own padded room, 3 meals a day, group therapy sessions, I'd meet lots of "interesting " people, and I'd get a very wonderfully styled jacket that let's me hug myself. ( Sarcasm ) No thank you.

Mom I'm fine,just exhausted from the crazy week of work and final exams. Oh mom I did want to talk to you about something. I'm not sure how your gonna feel about it but this is something I've got to do and I hope you understand.

I told her that I'm gonna be traveling and that I might have some family still alive so I'll be searching for them. She didn't seem very surprised but slightly conflicted. Which I understand cause I am a little conflicted as well. But she wished me the best before her and dad got on the plane to go home. Oh and she demanded I keep in contact with them.

Addy was just as bad as my mom with the goodbye. The rest of my friends were happy for me. I've got to admit I'm definitely gonna miss it here. But this is the next chapter of my life and possibly a big adventure, hopefully a good one. I'll also admit that I am conflicted as well as nervous, anxious, excited and well you get the point.

Ok so I have everything ready, now what do I do? Still have an hour before Blake gets here. It's gonna be so weird to actually see him in person and not a dream. He is definitely dreamy but I don't know if I should think like that since I don't know if he's related to me. His answer to my questions were pretty damn vague. I guess I'll get my answers soon, I just hope I can trust him. My gut and heart are telling me yes but my mind is telling me no.

Blake's POV......

I can't believe I finally found her. I wish I could tell her everything. I just can't yet, well that and I'm not really allowed to according to my dad. I know what your thinking, aren't you an adult. Well yeah, I'm 25 but when it's about Raven and her family and her future he wants me to leave it up to her family to tell her in person. So I just tell her what I can and hope it works. Not sure how well thats gonna go when we are traveling together,especially when it's gonna take 4 days to get there. And she seems like the type of person to get what she wants and I have a huge feeling it's gonna be a long trip and I'm screwed.

As I stand outside of her door, I took a deep breath and knocked. When she opened the door we just stood there staring at each other. This the first time we have seen each other in person. I couldn't help but notice how beautiful she is. Long red wavy hair down her back, beautiful bight green eye's, plump lips and curves that no man would be able to keep there hand from. I better stop the thoughts in my mind now before not so little Blake reaches out to say hello. I shake my head to erase the thoughts quickly.

Finally after a minute or two of silence she invited me in.

Are you ready Raven? I asked. She looked deep in thought before responding with yes and went to gather her stuff. Here lt me help you, I said.

We carried her things to my car and put them in the trunk.

Are we driving the whole way? How far in this place, will we make stops on the way.

I can't tell your nervous cause you ramble questions when your nerves. We will be driving most of the way and it's pretty far so we will be making stops but not to many stops. We will get food and drinks to take with us so that we don't have to stop to often.

Well what if I have to use the bathroom?

Then we will stop for that, I don't think either of us will be able to hold our bladders for the whole trip, I said with a chuckle. Are you ready? I asked her. She sighed and responded with a yes.

I can't wait till she knows everything, maybe we can get to know each other better afterwards. We both got into the car and started our journey.

oops I can't tell you exactly where we are going yet. You will have to wait and see. Keep reading to find out where we are going and what we findun into on our journey..... ;)